Just wanted to tell you that I love your blog and headcanons! It's all so beautifully self indulgent yet still in character. I saw on your Hisoka hugging headcanons that you had thoughts on him wanting to form bonds and being unable to - would you be willing to share? š¤ Thank you and have a great day!
Manga spoilers up ahead!!
Hisoka is an interesting character in the way he is portrayed. In contrast to Illumiās tragic life story and Chrolloās quest for self identity, Hisoka is possibly the most complete in terms of self actualization. He is completely aware of the type of person he is, unlike Illumi who denies the most basic of truths, and is satisfied with who he is, unlike Chrollo who is searching for a meaning greater than him. But, the main difference that separates him from the other two is that Hisoka is completely, and utterly alone.
When you think of scenes with Hisoka, what always strikes me is how I see him as a singular force. You never associate him and his plans with anyone else. Itās mostly him scheming or planning ahead by himself. Or if he were part of a group, always someways away from everyone else, as if he too is aware of the barrier that exists between him and the rest of the world.
Note how based on how the troupe is facing, you can see how Hisoka is sitting some ways off away from them. I doubt they would actively avoid him, and he positions himself away from them instead.
He doesnāt have a group to call his, or friends to rely on. He has an interesting relationship with Illumi where they both behave like partners in crime, but the truth is that the only reason why this relationship is capable of working is because Illumi himself is so far out of it. Illumi is so removed from the semblance of normalcy and basic understanding of how the average man functions that he assumes that whatever relationship he has with Hisoka is normal.
If you really sit and think about it, Hisoka doesnāt need to interact in such a way with people. He could just keep to himself and reduce all interactions with others. But he doesnāt. He purposefully seeks people out, and just because he is who he is, their interactions never go well.
And you can see this clearly whenever Hisoka interacts with other characters. While we have obvious interactions like with Gon and Killua, I think his interactions with the Phantom Troupe really solidifies the type of person he is. Theyāre a gang of misfits from Meteor City, and even they canāt accept him for who he is. Multiple times through the series do members like Nobunaga, Feitan and Uvogin express their dislike for Hisoka, and if people from a literal trash town who will accept anything think thereās something wrong with you, you definitely have a screw loose.
Coupled with his high intellect and immaturity, this creates a strange superiority complex where he believes himself to be better than everyone as an explanation to them not understanding him. I cannot say which came first, the exclusion or the sense of superiority, but either way they feed into each other and create a difficult cycle to break from. Itās a very childish mentality, something Hisoka just never grew out of it.
But he still wants to have relationships with people, no matter how small or insignificant it seems. Whatās interesting is that in psychology, overall well-being which very simply measures ālevels of happinessā is most heavily influenced by the quality of relationships we have. Thereāre multiple studies that show how positive relationships, which is described as relationships filled with care and support as well as promoting oneās sense of value, is the strongest predictor for our well-being, and highly influenced mortality rates, protection against mental illnesses and overall physical health. This is regardless of whether one is introverted or extroverted. So no matter how much one tries to deny it, itās very human to want to maintain and forge these relationships.
Which we can see Hisoka trying over, and over again.
And each time, heās attempts at forming what he deems normal conversations are rejected.
And itās very interesting to see how he interacts with Gon. While one can argue that this is for the sole purpose of preparing him as the ultimate opponent ever, you can also argue that this is done to make Gon indebted to him, or simply put, some as a favor. This is seen in Heavenās arena, where he warns both Killua and Gon of what is to come on the 200 floor.
And this is even in situations where he doesnāt need to do it. Like in Greed Island.
He tries to explain things to Gon when he doesnāt need to. Thereās no need for him to teach Gon about the situation seeing how he would have just learned it from Bisky, Killua or even Tsezguerra. But thing is, he wanted to.
Or even the dodgeball game, where he breaks all his fingers to let Gon have the type of victory he wanted over Razor. Even if his efforts arenāt appreciated, even if heās just seen as a glory hog at the end.
But he does so anyway. He wants to feel included, he wants to have friends, to have a group of people he can rely on, whether he actually fully realizes this or not.
The problem is that he doesnāt know how to create such bonds.
And this sense of loneliness manifest itself in the only way Hisoka knows to express his feelings: by fighting.
To him, fighting is like a conversation, a way for him to understand people and talk to them as equals, where your only judge is your strength.
Hisoka has developed into an adult that is incapable to forming genuine relationships with people because he is ultimately a self-serving two face snake. His actions kill Pakunoda (indirectly) and Shalnark (directly)
Iām not saying that his actions are justified. But when you combine an inflated ego, sense of entitlement and desire for acknowledgement, and roll them all together into a walking killing machine, you create a very deadly person who is indiscriminate in his actions.
Hisoka wants to form bonds, he craves that sense of acknowledgement that others have, which is why I believe heās so enamored by Gon and Killuaās relationship. He wants that for himself. Theyās a videoĀ here which describes Hisoka as what Gon could have been if he had no morals, and theyāre fundamentally right. Setting aside characteristics, both characters have a single minded focus and are inherently selfish; Hisoka was willing to jeopardize the whole troupe by working with Kurapika in order to fight Chrollo, while Gon was willing to sacrifice his own arms and the plan he, Bisky and Killua made in order to fight Genthru on his own terms.
The only difference is that Gon is still a child, heās 14 at this point in the manga and is capable of changing and growing. We donāt officially know how old Hisoka is, but heās an adult and based on the type of person he is, he isnāt the type to engage in self growth. Itās hard to tell if Hisoka realizes his need for forming relationships with others in his life. He believes he has everything figured out, and knows the type of person he is; but unless he can openly acknowledge his need for acknowledgement from others, deflate his ego, and learn to care for others beyond selfish means, I donāt think heāll be capable of receiving that sense of belonging heās searching for.
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