Fenix

Friends, romans, people who are nonbinary except at work, lend me your ears,

I think fandoms tend to vastly overestimate the relationship between the audience and the creators of the source material. Creators are not obligated to touch their work ever again. All they did was create a work of art. They don't have to do anything beyond that. At any point, they can say "I'm done working on this." You are their audience, not their constituents.

Completely personal preference but gonna be real with you, vampires and werewolves and stuff like that just don't hit the same for me without the angst, the guilt, the terror, like what's the point, "oh but what if he was just a puppy," yeah yeah, that's nice, I don't care, what if their very being was tearing them apart from the inside, what if the hunger never stops clawing and clawing and clawing even if you have it under control for the moment, not to say there's not exceptions or variations, those who've come to terms with or revel in their nature or etc., different opportunities for silliness or softness for sure, but to strip *all* manner of horror or discomfort from the lore, it's like wow, where is the appeal, the flavour, I hope you're hungry FOR NOTHING, just like your "vampire" apparently

Nolan is decidedly an artist who has an appreciation for and respect for cinema and the craft of film making, and he has a love for making films that are supposed to be strange, dreamlike, even nonlinear. which is hindered by the fact that he, strangely, seems completely uncreative and artistically bland.

why is there an upgrade button on gmail. why does twitter want me to scan my palm to get into my account. why is google a chatbot. why does the transit app make a transit app wrapped for me. why does youtube keep shoving its infinitely scrollable shortform content down my throat. why do my doctor and psychiatrist and therapist want to use an ai notetaker during our appointments. why do free trials want my credit card number. why are most scholarship websites just data brokers. how do i make capitalone stop sending me mail. why is my school making its own special chat gpt powered chatbot. why is every third video on instagram an undisclosed ad. why is nothing online real anymore. why is everything so FUCKING STUPID

I have been connecting a lot of dots lately and the dots have made it quite difficult for me to enjoy slashfic the way I used to

I know we've all noticed how often one of them is bisexual and the other one is Gay. Exclusively Gay. He Has To Be Gay. but have you also noticed how often the bisexual one is masc and straight passing and the Gay One is kind of written as this kind of vaguely effeminate degendered third gender thing. Which in a vacuum is kind of interesting even despite the obvious issues and explains a lot about which characters I as a nonbinary youth tended to project on etc etc, but also have you noticed that lately that's kind of slowly evolving into now The Gay One is always transgender and The Bi One is always cis? Because I've been noticing that a lot lately and it's not making me evil and insane at all (lying)

it's also hard as hell to read slash if you care about any of the women in the canon literally at all. Which is something I've been struggling with generally since I was 15 but as the years go on it's just getting harder and worse.

Characters will make a very nuanced choice that makes sense for their story arc and internal conflict, and audience members will be like "is anyone else going to misconstrue this in the most black and white, bad faith manner possible?"

you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for a nuanced reason

*while sewing*: you are a fabric. you can stay a fabric. you do not yearn to return to being string.