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he’s all open, nerves and corresponding nerve endings experiencing the world and love and love to kagiura akira is so much. how can love be so fulfilling and yet so cruel? how could he meet and then know someone who is everything he never realized he wanted and yet be kept from them? kagi is all nerves pulsing love but it’s a nerve ending’s job to detect pain. do you understand?

do you?

kagi is made of love. he’s made of love and he’s made to give and receive it and the thing is that he has, he has given love. to his parents and his friends and his teammates. to his hirano-san. and he receives it too, I know he does, from his parents and his friends and his teammates and his hirano-san, but what does it MATTER if it’s not the right love. kagi experiences right love for the first time in his life and it’s queer love and it’s such a fulfilling feeling but it hurts.

please understand. it HURTS.

kagi is young and made of love and he loves hirano. he loves hirano so much and so purely and then it’s not “pure” anymore, not after “Do you want to kiss him?” and that’s not a bad thing but how should he know? he loves and wants to love and he does, he does want to kiss him. kagi wants so much.

and the thing is always going to be that wanting and being good feel so often to be at odds, because how can kagi want hirano so badly and not be wanted that way back? how can he respect the person he loves and yet soothe the ache in his chest? it’s the pining you feel at the backs of your teeth. youth is lovely and ugly and violent because it lives in your bones and hurts as you grow.

and kagi has felt that hurt a lot, it’s how he got so damn tall.

kagi’s hungry. appetite increases when you’re growing and kagi grows constantly. and he wants. and he’s hungry. and it HURTS.

everything kagi has ever said about subconscious love is true. that’s both fact and prayer.

kagi didn’t know he wanted so much. he didn’t know he wanted in the first place. “do you want to kiss him?” was “do you want him?” and “is he special to you in a way that no one else can be?” and “do you love him?”

kagi doesn’t have the same problem as hirano. kagi has growing pains and an ache at the back of his teeth and sore legs that hirano can say “I’m gonna touch you.” over without so much as a jump at his heart, and kagi has hirano in every single way except for the one he wants most.

“do you want to kiss him?” was a catalyst. kagi wanted to and still wants to marry hirano, and then he found out that he wanted to and wants to kiss him, too. he wants to kiss him. he wants him. hirano is special to him like no one else is.

kagi loves hirano.

kagi loves hirano, and he is the bravest person in the world. how can you quantify being someone’s most important person? how many ways can you quantify being someone’s most important person?

an important phone call, or souvenirs and extra souvenirs, all bought with new years money, or a dog keychain.

or blue piercings, worn without a second thought.

kagi is the bravest person in the world, because he knows. he knows that he’s the most important person to hirano. he knows but he’s still left wanting,

and it’s not anyone’s fault.

“I want to get married” was “I want you to keep smiling at me like that,” and “please keep humoring my childish requests,” and “please keep waking me up in the morning.”

“I want to get married” was “I want to marry you.”

just this one part though

"you're not doing it from the back?"

"i wanna do it from the front"

do yall hear this

this and t t he fucking paneling. hirano on top. kagi on the bottom. the ongoing pattern of kagi on his knees. his face near hiranos crotch area. like. there is no reason to do this other than the one reason.

and another thing

we're gonna skip the blatant near kiss visual because we know what that is (they are getting so so close). why does hirano immediately close his eyes. do people normally close their eyes when they hug if they dont plan on immediately melting into it? or was he expecting something else? lets not talk about the way he ever so slightly tilts his head or i may explode fr

this and hiranos habit of just. burying his face into kagi's shoulder. he has no reason to do that other than he wants to and can.

thats his fucking spot now !!!!

so for someone who is still getting used to hugging isnt it funny how he seems to feel right at home in kagis arms. or rather having kagi in his arms

look at this shit

look at how hirano hugs kagi from the front vs the back. or the before vs after.

yall this is. freaking visual storytelling

also whys this transition so so slow

whats the point of this what is it. if not make it erotic in some way. and then immediately talking about. the first time???? doing it as lovers???? harusono i know your game. ive played these games before with ssmy and the whole piercing as an euphenism for penetration thing. mark ill have for the rest of my life i want you to be my first thing. i dont know if i can be gentle cant promise it wont hurt thing. you cannot fool me.

anyways in conclusion theyre both switches but it's Important that when they start having sex hirano gets to have the high ground literally or figuratively at least until he gets more comfortable with sex. and kagi is all too happy to oblige since he loves having hirano above him and being dominated lets be honest. wait thats probably what those panels-

looking at it again hirano starts to put his arms around him before kagi has even turned around but kagi does as he was told and lets hirano hug him from behind and they have a good time. so good hirano even lets him hug him from the front afterwards. im uh im cooking something wait

that panel literally has hirano on his knees taking kagi from the back. the first time they touch as lovers. and then doing it from the front afterwards

tl;dr this whole scene as a metaphor for sex ok bye

wait. one more thing.

hands

INSANE, ALL OF IT IS INSANE.

Repeating pictures for ease of reference (for readers, I. am dual screening. Because Harusono-sensei is bonkers and so is this fandom and itmakes me ill.)

Everyone has pointed out Hirano Over Kagiura, Kagiura Under Hirano (close to crotch, Sensei, PLEASE). Sub Kagiura real by which I mean Puppy Kagiura real by which I mean every smut writer in this fandom is RIGHT to describe Kagiura as worshipping Hirano, boy can you CALM DOWN

It did immediately stand out to me that Hirano is leaning back slightly, and I'm saying this 'cause I trust my little tumblr circle niche of this fandom. There's still so much Hirano isn't sure about, this is so NEW and it's just not stuff that comes easily to him But we know this doesn't mean he's rejecting Kagiura outright based on Freaking Everything Else. LITERALLY just hugged him, literally just FORCED KAGIURA TO THE FLOOR SO THAT HE COULD TRY OUT THE METHOD OF TOUCHING HIM THAT HE'S BEEN THINKING ABOUT FOR HOW MANY HOURS NOW hold on we gotta back up

Wait also real quick, I do just wanna say that "Not going from the back?" / "I want to do it from the front." does sound worse in English what with the Vagueness of "it", but that's just typical Japanese leaving out the subject. Probably. Honestly some of the HEY GUYS HEEEYYYY HOLD UP is probably still there anyway. Also, I need to do a proper comparison with like Sasaki and Miyano sometimes, but I am enamored with how Kagiura speaks casually to Hirano. Or maybe I need to analyze Yashiro's speaking patterns 'cause it could be literally just normal for roommates like obv they're gonna be closer than normal senpai-kouhai friends, but. Endears me nonetheless. Also because I don't think I've said this out loud, Hirano speaks THE MOST casually by FAR. It's always hard to tell where you should use like swear words because Japanese just fundamentally does not have the same breadth of Bad Words that English does even before getting into how casual esp young people can be about using curse words, bUT. Hirano absolutely swears. Him I'm sure about. Hirano absolutely says shit piss and fuck. ☝️ not in front of teachers.

WE'RE ONE PANEL IN AND AT 4 PARAGRAPHS APOLOGIES TO ANYBODY WHO CLICKED ON THAT READ MORE

Brief sidebar to the Near Kiss Panel.

I know. You Know. wtf Sensei. oh my god.

Extremely good point that Hirano's eyes are closed. It's like he's feeling that sort of Anticipation that people usually feel before a kiss. I don't think he's Actually expecting a kiss because he trusts Kagiura to honor his boundaries. That Trust is also why he melts into Kagiura's hugs every time. Theory.

HIS SPOT!!!

I'm desperately hoping that we'll have an arc about Hirano really learning to lean on Kagiura. Like, yeah he got to learn basketball from him, but that's not really a display of Trust, right? He relied on Kagiura, asked for his help, but for something that ultimately isn't super important. Hirano cares enough about the sports festival to cheat, as we heard, lmao, but I think that's more about him being a little competitive go-getter who likes Doing Things. With a violent streak. Mayhaps also part of why he gets along with Hanzawa. Sidebar off the sidebar, Hirano must be doing little workouts with Kagiura like all the time because a) we know they do that, we know Kagiura works out in their dorms on top of all he does at club and b) on God's green earth why is a guy who sits around studying all day so strong. Natural tendency or a body type that easily gains/retains muscle only goes so far. I love that he's still weaker than Kagiura, though, thank you Harusono-sensei for honoring logic. My sidebars are TOO LONG. BACK TO HIRANO AND LEANING ON KAGIURA.

Hirano is a guy with a decent sense of responsibility. He goes furthest for Kagiura, obviously, but in general he's a guy who looks after others--Miyano, Sasaki, being on the disciplinary committee, the teachers always asking him to help out with stuff. I think it's part of his like. I don't want to say inflexible, but maybe rather straightforward thinking? Which I'm sure helps him with academic studies, but human relationship stuff is much more wibbly wobbly, and that's where he struggles. Not in that he lacks good interpersonal relationships, of course! Like, in many ways, it's exactly normal for all teenagers to still be figuring out How Humans/Relationships Work. He knows the general Rules of how to interact with people, and also honestly people respond well to his style of straightforwardly approaching things without being pushy. I am overthinking. I have Many Thoughts. Hirano is an extremely likeable guy who likes to do things that benefit others, most of all Kagiura. Looking after people is the right thing to do! It's good and honorable AND rewarding. ANYWAY.

ALL OF THIS TO SAY, Hirano is used to standing on his own. Not in a bad way, he is obviously supported by his parents, things seem fine there since he mentioned feeling homesick in the light novel and all (which might be part of it, he's in a privileged position where he has the tools to stand on his own without that requiring crazy extra work) (SOON, HOPEFULLY SOON WE LEARN MORE. DAD CONTACT ON PHONE. COLLEGE IS COMING.) This is a slice of life, modern story, it's literally fine, he's fine. Which is why relying on anyone is so awkward for him. He literally is fine, he doesn't need to???

But Kagiura wants it.

And the thing is. The thing is. It is nice to lean on Kagiura.

He doesn't know how to do it. But when Kagiura grabs him, when they hug. Just for a second he can hide behind those big shoulders. He can rest there.

It's weird. He's not used to it. When he can initiate, when he hugs Kagiura from behind, that's easier, like a lot of stuff on this dating journey. A few chapters ago, he bravely let Kagiura hug him from behind, and it took him a few seconds to get comfortable, but he did get used to it. He instinctively protects himself. Unknown = threat, basic human instinct. But! He knows it's not a threat, so he takes a second to tell his nerves to shut up, it's Kagiura... Okay, we're good. He's sooooo. I love him.

And on top of the aroace hangups, HE'S A TEENAGE BOY WITH HIS FIRST LOVE, FIRST BOYFRIEND. HE'S JUST PLAIN SHY!!!!! I want to touch you!! That's so embarassing to admit out loud!!! I want to hug you!!! But he's trying to match Kagiura's loud, loud honest affection!! That's his baseline for How to Do This! That's the System they've established with the ten seconds, asking specifically how and where to touch!

Hug from the front, just had a fight, desperate to show Kagiura that he loves him in a way Kagiura will understand, desperate to show Kagiura he loves him, end of sentence. Hug from the back, oogugughghh he's so in love right now, experiencing his first butterlies and thinking his boyfriend is CUTE, and all that awful mushy stuff. But also also. Hug from the front, Kagiura didn't know it was coming. Is cautious about responding right now--just got slapped for kissing Hirano, and this after touching Hirano's lower back and finding out he doesn't like that. Hug from the back, though!!! This is after more ten second touches and confirming they're dating and HIRANO LOWKEY BEGGING FOR IT. GET ON YOUR KNEES SO I CAN HUG YOU. LITERALLY WHAT THE HELL, MAN.

THIS FACE SHOULD BE ILLEGAL

I'm getting distracted. I'm always distracted. Every panel brings their whole history back around, everything they are going through and figuring out and moving towards.

Important point about the hug from behind: Kagiura is leaning into it. It's not just Hirano hugging Kagiura or Kagiura hugging Hirano. This time, they are Both Prepared For It. Both want it. Hirano is doing what he's comfortable with, so automatically this is going better than Kagiura's hug from behind that Hirano wasn't sure about, on a day where Kagiura was questioning everything. And Kagiura, of course, always wants to hug Hirano, to touch him, and this time!! He knows for sure that Hirano wants this! Wants it so bad that he's physically throwing Kagiura around to get it!!!!!! As Kagiura says, this is their first time hugging as a proper couple!! We shan't get into "to embrace someone" is literally a euphemism for sex the way we'd say "sleep with someone". We simply don't need to. You understand.

Literally insane how erotic this page of Kagiura literally just turning around is like ??????? I thought so and then you saying this is a sex metaphor did explode me 'cause I didn't think that far, but aLSO

anyways in conclusion theyre both switches but it's Important that when they start having sex hirano gets to have the high ground literally or figuratively at least until he gets more comfortable with sex. and kagi is all too happy to oblige since he loves having hirano above him and being dominated lets be honest. wait thats probably what those panels- looking at it again hirano starts to put his arms around him before kagi has even turned around but kagi does as he was told and lets hirano hug him from behind and they have a good time. so good hirano even lets him hug him from the front afterwards. im uh im cooking something wait that panel literally has hirano on his knees taking kagi from the back. the first time they touch as lovers. and then doing it from the front afterwards tl;dr this whole scene as a metaphor for sex ok bye

LITERALLY BEING SO SO SERIOUS WHEN I SAY I WROTE THE EXACT SAME CONCEPTS IN THE TAGS OF ANOTHER POST THE OTHER DAY but then I had a moment of oh my god. I gotta stop being so horny on main, and I deleted them all. They're switches, and they do their first time with Hirano taking Kagiura from behind (maybe researched, I think I've heard that's the easiest position), but then from the front because wanting to see his face (who's face? yes). But also!!! I bet it'll go exactly like this chapter, with Hirano being able to handle it when he's in control, but being far less sure about letting Kagiura take control.

Not! because he doesn't want it!! It's just like all of their touches. Every time, Kagiura begs, Hirano balks, they look for what they both want, let Hirano be in charge, then Kagiura pushes a little more. I don't think he tests things necessary like Sasaki does who said that but he Asks. Takes what he is given, maybe a little more because!! neither he nor Hirano really know where the lines are!! At least Kagiura knows what HE'S comfortable with--which is basically anything and everything--but Hirano doesn't know!! He doesn't know what he himself is okay with! Especially since it's evolving! Hunger theory of desire. He's not starving the way Kagiura is, so when presented with a whole buffet, he doesn't know What looks good until he eats it. And what's unfamiliar and weird on first bite might actually be pretty good.

I can't wait to see them develop. Poor Kagiura. Like the parallel chapters recently, Hirano was relatively cheerful--confused, but excited by his own progress!! Meanwhile, Kagiura was in the mental TRENCHES, so so afraid and confused. That's probably going to keep happening, stressing, looking for where they overlap, Hirano actively getting used to things. I think I am repeating myself just like a lot.

back then i made a bunch of these but by now i lost the pic and dont know how to find the original post anymore

so anyway here is the diagram for anyone else who is interested!!

this requires pretty big carboard pieces, if you have a really big box or something you can make it from one piece, but if you don't, you can also just make each of the pieces individually and then tape them together

and then in the end you put it together like this!!

and then when you make a bunch you can put them all next to each other and stack your books like crazy

Clothing company Patagonia is currently sueing drag queen Pattie Gonia for "irreparable” harm to their brand.

To be clear; Pattie named herself after the region in South America.

So Pattie is asking people to politely ask Patagonia to drop the lawsuit.

I'm extending the invitation to all of you, because sueing a drag queen for 'infringement' in the current political cultural landscape is vile. Especially a drag queen who has raised millions of dollars for non-profits, uses her platform to raise awareness for climate activism, and fully aligns with Patagonia's apparent climate-conscious mission statement.

They're claiming they're sueing for $1. They're actually asking her to stop using her name, and pay over $1 million in legal fees. They're straight up harassing her.

In contrast, drag queen Jan Sport has a Jansport bag line. It's that easy to just... work with a queen.

Anyway. Be respectful(ish), but feel free to be annoying on Patagnoia's socials, asking them to 'DROP THE LAWSUIT'

"Pattie named herself after the region in South America." Come the fuck on. https://www.self.com/story/pattie-gonia-backpacking-drag-q

Patagonia is not trying to "take away her name." Patagonia has no problem with her calling herself Pattie Gonia or performing as such, or using it for activism, or whatever. They are suing her to stop her from directly competing with them with a substantially similar trademark in clothing sales.

You can read the complaint here.

The relevant prayer for relief is on page 34-36. It asks the court to stop Pattie from selling, distributing, or advertising, "any goods or services that display any words or symbols that so resemble the PATAGONIA trademarks as to be likely to cause confusion, mistake, or deception;" destroy the merch she was selling that would so cause confusion; and to not do it again in the future. It doesn't ask for damages more than $1 and for attorneys fees (aka pay us back for making us have to file this stupid lawsuit).

It also asks the court to stop Pattie from trying to register her drag name as a trademark specifically to sell branded apparel that says "PATTIEGONIA" - aka the same market, to an overlapping sales base.

2. Yeah this is 100% a "brand conflict." Patagonia had no issues with her existence, her drag name, her activism. (According to facts in the complaint, which she has not denied) it had no issue with even her partnering with competing brands, as long as

When Pattie started selling her own branded merch, Patagonia tried to reach out to her to resolve things informally. They were not able to do so. (And in my opinion, the email from Pattie in response looks really really bad - as I read it, it is essentially a threat to try to use her fanbase and progressive credentials to attack and harm Patagonia's brand if they try to enforce their trademark. And to be clear - if she has issues with Patagonia's actions as a brand, using those as a private threat against the company to advance her commercial interests while continuing to publicly directly associate herself with the brand - examples both in the lawsuit and in this thread: https://bsky.app/profile/kathryntewson.bsky.social/post/3mnbadc2egk2e - is. Well, I don't think it's behavior that looks good for Pattie.)

They filed this lawsuit b/c she filed to trademark the "Pattie Gonia" brand to directly compete with Patagonia in the same market. This is 100% a brand conflict. She's just lying to people.

Two other quick comments:

OP above used scare quotes around "irreparable" harm. This happens every time there is a lawsuit for injunctive relief and the person posting about it wants to make the plaintiff sound unreasonable and absurd. Irreparable harm is just literally the legal standard for injunctive relief.

I think OP's comment that, "In contrast, drag queen Jan Sport has a Jansport bag line. It's that easy to just... work with a queen," is ironically a good demonstration about the potential for brand confusion. Based on this comment, OP is demonstrating that their assumption, should they see "Pattie Gonia" branded clothing, is that it would be a collaboration. But Pattie Gonia wasn't trying to work with Patagonia. She specifically said she did not want to do so. She wants sell her own merch.

On Pattie's website, she says about this lawsuit,

I agree with Pattie on this point. But right now, while there are so many attacks on both the climate and on queer people, especially trans people? To lie about a (legally speaking, entirely reasonable, lawsuit from a brand that was - as far as any actual legal analysis I have seen ) and to use people's fears and concerns in the - as OP says - "current political landscape" - to try to sell you her own merch? (Because that is what the lawsuit is about. She is telling you to harass Patagonia so she can sell you branded merch instead.)

Sign-ups for the 2026 SSMY & HRKG Mini Bang are now closed! Thanks so much to all the interested participants and to those who helped share the event. We've received a total of 33 submissions! ☆

Within the next few hours, we'll be reaching out to all the writers via DM with a link to the Writer Summary Submissions form. This form will be open for the next two weeks and will close on June 15th. As a reminder, please make sure you are following this blog so we can message you!

Summaries will be shared anonymously with participant artists during the claims period. More info about writer summaries and artist claims can be found here!

Thank you and we're so excited to have you all! ☆彡

also im super duper sorry if anyone already asked this ✌️

I'm SUPERRRR LATE BUT THANK YOUU ANON!! AND YES I HAVE SOME RECS TEEHEE these are the first fics I always recommend for hirakagi!!

You Are So Colorful by CureKururun

Crevasse in the Night Sky by Moonsliver98

Not Enough by Cecentre

i'm not quite ready to let you circle the drain by ibrokeeverything

And since you said any ship... here's some rarepairs 🫪

We'll Scream Loud at the Top of Our Lungs by chromyrose (Sasahira)

Corruption by OfWinterCream (shameless plug) (Sasakagi)

alphabetic agonies by aranarumei (Hanzashiro)