arabella

“Who do you think you are?” Good question, I don’t know.

sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and im losing sense of time

The version of you right now is deserving of love. Not you two years ago when you had more of your shit together, or the five years later version where you’ll surely be thriving. The version of you right now. The one that might just be okay, or is really struggling, or is bored and unproductive. That version deserves love. Having trouble accepting this is fine, but actively denying it is not. Your value is intrinsic, and finding confidence in that is mandatory.

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

girls will have one (1) good day when they convince themselves they've never been unwell in their life and the next day the horrors will return

you deserved a good childhood. you did not deserve what they put you through. it wasn’t your fault even if they blamed it on you. you were just a kid who should have been given a chance to just be a kid.

sometimes life puts you in the same situation again to see if you’re still a dumbass

the generational gap between me and the people my age who use chat gpt

My five year plan is to just see what happens

it renews every five years

see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.

brainfog girlies make some noise if you're fuckin uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i don’t like myself very much right now. not for any real reason. i just don’t love how i look or feel or am functioning. but i know it’ll pass and there’s no reason to make myself feel worse about it. there are off days. off weeks. off months. they’re little storms of negativity that will pass by.

idgaf if my parents are disappointed in me I'm not impressed by them either

Why does being really sleepy either make u feel mellow and content or like you're going to actually kill yourself for real this time & no in-between