i have never seen someone like me on tv.
never ever. and i try to watch lgbtq rep, but still. i am a young butch lesbian, very short hair with the tips bleached. i wear men's clothing. i am nonbinary and use neutral pronouns. i bind my chest sometimes. my legs are hairy. my whole body is hairy. i look like a cliché I know, I'm fine with it. but i never saw someone like me on tv. sometimes i saw similar butches irl, when i really tried being more involved in lgbt spaces, but never within my close friends circle, never on tv. we, masc lesbians, butches, studs, are the most visible lesbians outside and yet no one wants to see us on tv. i get called slurs when i go out, literally everyone knows I'm a lesbian because of how i look. and yet i don't exist in the media. it hurts a lot, you know, to only exist in people's minds when they see you, so they can insult you. i never seem to exist as someone who can be beautiful. as someone who deserves to be put on screen. i seem to be too much to handle to be put on tv, how do you think i feel about myself when i go outside ? i want to see myself on tv.
