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Hi everyone!

Figured it's time to introduce myself properly again. My name is Phoenix, I'm a weird gross fanfiction writer turned weird gross horror/erotica/horrorotica author, and a homesteading lesbian in my thirties. It's my mission to bring unapologetic, uncensored, unrepentantly bizarre speculative and literary fiction back to the uwu hellscape of indie publishing.

It would mean a lot to me if you bought my books. Particularly if you have read or enjoyed the over 300 free fanfics I've lovingly bestowed upon you over the last decade.

I currently have two "short" (most are 7-10k) story collections out. I call them horror but I use the word loosely--don't go in expecting gore or ghosts or vampires or Lovecraft rip offs or immortal deities or anything like that. My horror is for people who think Eric Lar*cca is overhyped and boring and Saltburn was weirdly milquetoast.

SALIVATION: Barnes and Noble/ Amazon

A group of teenagers meet God at an abandoned amusement park. An immortal, child-eating monster grows too close to his prey. A clandestine tryst in a Chuck-E-Cheese ball pit takes a turn for the revolting. A grieving man sets out in dogged pursuit of the artist he blames for his fiancé's suicide. These ghosts and more reside in this electric debut short story collection by Phoenix Mendoza. This anthology's aim is to explore the profound union between hunger and loneliness, told in a series of voyeuristic meditations on human longing. All at once sincere and absurd, tender and disgusting, hilarious and heart-twisting, Salivation is an unapologetic foray into the lengths we go to in order to seek even the pantomime of connection.

Yellow Wallpapering: Amazon

In this scathing feminist horror collection, readers will encounter ten short stories featuring ten different women with ten distinct manifestations of patriarchy-induced madness. Blending sci-fi, speculative fiction, horror, and the achingly mundane, Phoenix Mendoza explores what it means to be a woman teetering on the edge of sanity.

Watch two childhood best friends develop a dangerous sex game inspired by their fathers’ suicides. Accompany Kyrie as she visits her grandparents' home, where she skinned her very first deer. Spend several delirious, hallucinatory nights with Carolyn at the train station she haunts whenever she cannot sleep. Dress a mannequin who might not be a mannequin at all. Let these madwomen invite you, one by one, into their complex interior worlds. Let them function as a mirror, a reflection of the self and of society.

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I also teach a writing class called BLOOD/INK/BONE, which you can learn more about here. It is designed for hobby writers looking to find joy in their craft and shake off the shackles of performing for a fickle, bad faith audience.

Other important links:

My website: you can find playlists, interviews, and podcast appearances here

My substack: you can subscribe for writing exclusives, nonfiction essays I don't post anywhere else, and general updates here.

My writing IG: this is the best place to stay updated about all my writing ventures

my goodreads: if you have read my books, please review them here, it really does help indie authors!!

@spern-awel: the tumblr for my upcoming DEBUT NOVEL (!!!), Thorngale. Right now its just aesthetics posts but there will be more soon.

as you can see, Midge has a magnetic pregnancy belly that contours to her unpregnant body

now inside the pregnancy belly of course is the barbie baby. it comes right out, no vagina to exit through. and if you look closely you can see that her underwear is also painted across the bottom of the belly. there is no mistaking this for a woman with any genitalia. just underwear.

here is the baby within the belly. i don’t think either of these is the correct way a baby should sit in a uterus but do i look like a fucking doctor to you?

the clearly very happy mother and child. and discarded magnetic belly. with underwear band.

A group of teenagers meet God at an abandoned amusement park. An immortal, child eating monster grows too close to his prey. A clandestine tryst in a Chuck-E-Cheese ball pit takes a turn for the revolting. A grieving man sets out in dogged pursuit of the artist he blames for his fiancé’s suicide. These ghosts and and more reside in this electric debut short story collection by Phoenix Mendoza. This anthology’s aim is to explore the profound union between hunger and loneliness, told in a series of voyeuristic meditations of human longing. All at once sincere and absurd, tender and disgusting, hilarious and heat-twisting, Salivation is an unapologetic foray into the lengths we go to in order to seek even the pantomime of connection.

HELLO EVERYONE!! My debut weird gay horror anthology, Salivation, is officially available to purchase!

A group of teenagers meet God at an abandoned amusement park. An immortal, child-eating monster grows too close to his prey. A clandestine tryst in a Chuck-E-Cheese ball pit takes a turn for the revolting. A grieving man sets out in dogged pursuit of the artist he blames for his fiancé’s suicide. These ghosts and more reside in this electric debut short story collection by Phoenix Mendoza. This anthology’s aim is to explore the profound union between hunger and loneliness, told in a series of voyeuristic meditations on human longing. All at once sincere and absurd, tender and disgusting, hilarious and heat-twisting, Salivation is an unapologetic foray into the lengths we go to in order to seek even the pantomime of connection.

Alice, you’ve disappeared, like everything else. Who else can I talk to? I’m lost.