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The Golden Age of Airbenders. I painted these images for the flashback scene in Avatar Aang, showing Sonam and Tagah in their heyday.
gothic media guide
I wanted to share my findings of great (mostly free) gothic media I’ve found over the years and put it all in one place for your convenience.
My favourite type of movies is the old gothic horrors, if it stars Vincent Price or Bela Lugosi, I’m sold!! Luckily you can find loads of them, all for free on Dailymotion or YouTube
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[https://youtu.be/5K7nsn2q-48?feature=shared](https://youtu.be/5K7nsn2q-48?feature=shared)
[https://youtu.be/37b5W5Om6Hs?feature=shared](https://youtu.be/37b5W5Om6Hs?feature=shared)
Bad 80s horror is also amazing, there’s a lot of hard to find, obscure dvds/blurays on zavvi and lots of goth classics on there too that I couldn’t find elsewhere.
My favourite goth tv shows include the Addams family and the munsters which luckily you can find on YouTube for free! (Not all of them but a lot of episodes still!)
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[https://youtu.be/w0rYwfUMijs?feature=shared](https://youtu.be/w0rYwfUMijs?feature=shared)
I love kids cartoons and again….theyre on YouTube for free! Growing up creepie and ruby gloom are great and there’s mona the vampire (not goth per say but spooky kid adjacent), who my mom would let me have the same hairstyle as mona going to school when I was younger, she’d even put wire in them sometimes to make them stand up like monas did 😂my mom is a big supporter of whatever weird thing I wanted to do, I love her. There are also a lot of scooby doo episodes on Dailymotion for free, I’ve never met a goth who doesn’t love scooby doo so I will include it here as well
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[https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x88y4o7](https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x88y4o7)
[https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x7zq284](https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x7zq284)
There is a pilot episode of the Elvira show on Dailymotion for free that is hilarious. The Elvira movie is on YouTube. There’s also Elvira content on wow presents plus (only if you have a vpn and change it to America though), it is some of the original horror hostess episodes!! They have newer elvira content on shudder as well. On American Netflix they have the new munsters movie and the scooby doo mystery incorporated series, but again you need both Netflix and a vpn.
[https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4zec6t](https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4zec6t)
[https://youtu.be/K7hrApFV0Jk?feature=shared](https://youtu.be/K7hrApFV0Jk?feature=shared)
There are loads of goth audiobooks on youtube for free, if you can’t get access to physical books as well!
[https://youtu.be/KIPg_RaZwxY?feature=shared](https://youtu.be/KIPg_RaZwxY?feature=shared)
[https://youtu.be/tETWQO2UXmQ?feature=shared](https://youtu.be/tETWQO2UXmQ?feature=shared)
[https://youtu.be/9IYhiFsC8Jw?feature=shared](https://youtu.be/9IYhiFsC8Jw?feature=shared)
On internet archive you can find digital books and magazines for free including the entire billy and Mandy series and some of the gothic beauty magazines from the early -mid 2000s!
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[https://archive.org/details/gothic-beauty-magazine-042](https://archive.org/details/gothic-beauty-magazine-042)
cineby has the addams family cartoon, beetlejuice cartoon + movies, all addams family movies and tv shows, the munsters and just most tv/movies for free! https://www.cineby.app/
I also love board games, some gothic ones include gloom (my fav), gloom Cthulhu edition and flux monsters edition
i hope you find something! 🦇
On White Fear & Creating Diverse Transformative Works
So whenever fandom tries to address the question “Why aren’t there more works featuring characters of color?” there are a myriad of (predictable) responses. One of which is appearing with increasing frequency: “Because we (usually: white creators of transformative works) are afraid of getting it wrong.”
And like. I’ve already addressed how ‘thinking you’ll get it wrong’ is a failure of both imagination and of craft/skill (and a symptom of the racial empathy gap, which I forgot had a proper name when I wrote that post). Meanwhile, @stitchmediamix absolutely accurately pointed out that the ‘fear’ being discussed is fear of being called racist, not necessarily fear of failure.
Now, we could go into the whole absurdity of white fragility here, but google is a thing and “white fragility” is discussed all over the place and I trust ya’ll to do the work if you actually give a shit about this subject… which I assume you do, if you’re reading this – but if you’re just here to find a way to dismiss the issue at hand, I’m gonna save you some time and recommend you scroll past.
Writers can also be fragile, especially in transformative works communities, where “if you don’t have anything nice to say, hit the back button and keep your mouth shut” is the primary expectation wrt feedback, and anything that deviates from that is considered a mortal insult (do you vageublog about my fic, sir?). But if we’re willing to deploy an array of tools to make our writing not-My-Immortal-bad, from spellcheck to wikipedia to in-depth historical research to betas and britpickers and so on, then we should be willing to employ equivalent tools to avoid writing racist stories.
Incidentally, writing stories that erase/ignore extant characters of color, especially if they’re prominent in the source text? is racist. So avoiding writing characters of color altogether is not the solution to making your writing not-racist.
And, okay. I feel it’s important to acknowledge here, as I have before, that the Fear of Fucking Up is a very real fear that genuinely does affect people’s enthusiasm for / likelihood to write, regardless of the validity or fairness of that Fear’s origins, and I’m going to be generous enough to assume that there are some people who are acting in good faith when they say “I want to, but I’m scared.”
So. This is for those who are acting in good faith, from the perspective of a white fan who has written fic about characters of color in several fandoms and never gotten pilloried for it, even when I know for a fact (in retrospect) that I’ve fucked up details.
(oh, side note: I know this is mostly tackling things from a writing perspective, but a lot of this can apply to creating transformative works overall with a few tweaks.)
First: realize that the likelihood of getting called out is actually pretty low. And fans of color aren’t as Mean and Angry and Unfairly Sensitive as some people want us to believe. (Do you vagueblog about That Dumpster Fire Meta, sir? / No, sir, I do not vagueblog about That Meta sir; but I do vagueblog, sir.)
This is not to say that there aren’t people out there who’re more than willing to make a (justified) stink about egregiously racist writing. But it’s actually very rare to get targeted, especially publicly by a large number of unhappy fans. Because you know what? most fans, including fans of color, want to just have fun in fandom as much as anyone else.
It’s just, y’know, a little harder for fans of color to ‘just have fun’ when us white fans are showing our asses with stories involving “Dragon Lady” Elektra or “Angry Black Woman” Sally Donovan or “Spicy Latin Lover” Poe Dameron. And sometimes us white fans only listen to what fans of color are saying when they make a Big Deal out of it.
That’s not a failure of their ability to stay calm. That’s our failure to listen before they get loud and organized. Because I’m willing to bet that people who get called out publicly? got a few polite, private messages about their screwup first, and they doubled down instead of listening.
Also: there is a thing where, no matter how politely they word their critique, fans of color, especially black fans, are more likely to be unjustly perceived as ‘mean’ and ‘angry’ by white fans. Again, that’s our failure, not theirs. Plus, even if they are angry, that doesn’t automatically mean they’re wrong (see: Tone Argument).
Step Two is: pay attention to discussions about racist tropes in fiction. Yes, even when it’s crit of our favorite shows/movies/characters/etc. If you understand the Manic Pixie Dream Girl trope and why it’s harmful, or you understand the Bechdel-Wallace test, or you can have a meaningful discussion about Mary Sues, or you can (justifiably) rail about how Bury Your Gays sucks, then you can develop a similar appreciation for racial biases and stereotypes. And then you can find ways to avoid them.
No, no one’s expecting you to memorize bell hooks so you can write a drabble about Iris West, or demanding you write a dissertation on media stereotypes wrt the simultaneous fetishization and desexualization of Asian women (who aren’t a monolith, either, but Hollywood doesn’t seem to know that) before you’re ‘allowed’ to write Melinda May in a story, but like. Pay attention when people, especially fans of color, are talking about common tropes so that you don’t unthinkingly replicate or perpetuate them in your fic.
Yes, racist writing can involve more than just thoughtless parroting of harmful tropes, but my best guess is, ninety-nine times out of a hundred, fanwork getting ‘called out’ in fandom involves those tropes. So avoiding them takes your chances of getting criticized from ‘low’ to ‘almost nonexistent.’ Less to fear, see?
Step Three is: more research – basically, at least as much as you’d be willing to invest in any equivalent white character. @writingwithcolor is a great blog, and has links to additional resources; . If you’re the type to get a beta or a britpicker, find a sensitivity reader or a beta of the appropriate background. Not all fans of color are willing to do this kind of unpaid labor, just as not all fans are willing to britpick/beta, but they’re out there. Approach them respectfully, and listen to them if they say that something in your story looks off.
It’s worth noting here that writing about characters of color doesn’t need to involve - and in fact, some advice recommends avoiding - telling Special Stories About Racism. Stories about characters of color don’t need to be about slavery or civil rights or the constant parade of microaggressions they have to deal with daily in order to be realistic or compelling (or angsty, for those who love writing angst, as I do). Research can turn up useful information that can inform our choices as writers, but if we don’t share the oppression our characters face, it’s not our job to tell stories specifically about that oppression.
Step Four is: before posting, anticipate the worst. What will you do if someone says you fucked up? If your answer is “argue with them and talk over their concerns,” stop. Remember that you’re not a victim of a ‘mean fan of color,’ but that you’ve probably written something that they consider harmful. Being told that you wrote something racist isn’t an attack on your moral fiber. You’re not an irredeemable monster if you fuck up, but your response to being told you fucked up is far more telling. Acknowledge their concerns, fix the issue if you can, learn from your mistake, and fail better next time.
You cannot improve if you don’t try in the first place. Failure to try is failure, so try your best, and improve incrementally – just as you already do as a writer with any story.
In conclusion: The 4 Steps to Getting Over Yourself as a White Fanfic Writer: (1) recognize that the likelihood of getting called out is pretty low; (2) educate yourself about the most common racist writing issues, so that likelihood will be even lower; (3) do your due diligence when writing; (4) in case of the worst: apologize, fix the issue, learn from the experience, fail better in the future.
(And again, google is your friend – there are a lot of people who’ve written about this subject, like Kayla Ancrum, Morgan Jenkins, the mods at Writing with Color, Thao Le, and Monica Zepeda, among many, many, others. I’m merely sharing my own perspective from what I’ve learned from listening to a lot of smart people, in case it might help some of you – if it doesn’t, keep looking, a ton of great resources are out there.)
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Ohh so that's why they called that one show Andor

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There was an article/study I wish I could find again that was about what men vs. women experience when watching horror films, who they identify with/root for, and how those things are linked. If I find it I'll link to it because it was fascinating.
IIRC it basically boiled down to "men often identify with or root for the killer or monster, so watching horror is experiencing a power fantasy; whereas women often identify with or root for the victim, so watching horror is experiencing vicarious terror."
Where's the article, OP?
Listen that was 6 computers, 2 schools, 2 moves to different states, and a wholeass decade ago. I don't even have the same email address as I did then.
There was a reason I started with "there was an article/study I wish I could find again." 😂
That info actually helped my search lol. This is from 2001, does it sound right?
Masculinity and Monstrosity Characterization and Identification in the Slasher Film
Okay so yes, that is an article I read which is probably the one I'm remembering. But I think I might actually be squishing three or four different things together in my head that are all along the same theme. This article, but also:
"When the Woman Looks" by Linda Williams (download link)
Visual Pleasure and Narrative Cinema by Laura Mulvey (couldn't find a link)
...and quite possibly some Julia Kristeva, upon whose theories about abjection many writers on women in horror have built their own arguments.
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everything I found brought up and supported Clover's book about horror subverting gender stereotypes, it was hard to find things critical of that
Oh god I remember Clover. SO much work led back to it. Same with Kristeva but from the other side. Even after 30ish years of pop culture studies gaining traction, there has still been so little written on horror as a genre from a feminist persepective, compared to other genres and forms of lit crit. And even less from an intersectional feminist perspective.
I will see if I can find my full source list and post the good ones. I might even do a deep dive into JSTOR to see what new stuff is out there.
Hi there! I’m in an intro Women, Gender, and Sexualities Studies class. We need to choose a top to research for the semester and give a five minute ted talk on as our final project. After seeing your commentary on women doing violence go men and specifically in horror I’m interested in further exploring the topic. Would you mind sharing any sources you looked into for your honors thesis?
Here you go! I put this under a read-more because it’s long.
Just a note that these sources are for a paper I wrote nearly a decade ago, so they may not be the most current writing on the topic of women in horror. Many of them also take a very binary approach to gender politics and representation.
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“The monstrous girl has always had to play within a set of rules—an ultimate irony, considering that [her] ultimate crime is trying to break free. She cannot find love so long as she hangs on to what makes her different. She is weak if she does not embrace the supernatural; she is evil if she does. She is ugly as a monster with agency; she is underestimated as a girl without it. She can’t be a girl, but she can’t be a woman, either. She must always suffer in order to gain power, and she must always ultimately give it up. It’s an unfair game given that all she’s really doing is growing up.”
— Karen Han, “From ‘Carrie’ to ‘The Lure’: Monstrous Girls in Cinema” (via baredmirror)
This article was written before Midsommar came out, but I feel like Dani’s story fits well within the themes discussed here as well. Dani survives and is smiling at the end, but the message we’re “supposed” to take away from that last shot is that her ending is still a tragedy. Never mind that she’s alive. Never mind that she’s seemingly found a place within the monstrosity of the Harga, a place she never had among the “normal” people in her life.
Never mind that, even if you buy that she’s truly lost herself, the very fact that she’s alive means she still has the future possibility of escape and recovery. What’s lost, after all, can be found. Dani’s ending is not unsalvageable but for the scores of people, the director included, who want to insist that it is and call anyone crazy who identifies with her.
so women are supposed to grin and bear the books, the comics, the movies, the plays, the tv shows, the stories, the sci-fi, the translated ancient poems, the fucking millennia of men writing about their self inserts torturing women and it being declared as High Art by other men, we’re supposed to read it in our free time, study it in classrooms, include their styles in our own writing, accept their cultural influence as natural, watch it in the cinema, write about it, talk about it, accept it, aspire it, but men can’t tolerate three seconds of female wish fulfilment of a woman snapping the wrist of a creep without feeling personally kicked in the balls.
This reminds me of something I observed in college while I was doing my honors thesis on women in modern horror films. I watched a LOT of horror during that time as part of my research, and sometimes that was done with my family around.
And my dad and brothers? Were deeply disturbed by the movie Jennifer’s Body. I was flabbergasted. It’s not scary! It’s not even that gory. But they were horrified by it. These men who grew up on 70s slashers were legitimately shook by 90 minutes of Megan Fox eating a few teenage boys, mostly off-screen.
Similarly, my all-male reading panel for my thesis? Were so disturbed by my synopsis of the film Teeth that they couldn’t even talk about it. One of them said he couldn’t look at his wife for a week after reading it.
Again, grown-ass men who study and teach media for a living. Who definitely watch and enjoy horror movies. One of whom was a huge Tarantino buff. We watched and read worse in his intro to mass media class! But one movie about a girl whose vag could bite was enough to haunt him.
Then of course you have things like the Gone Girl backlash–men yelling that Amy Dunne is evil and women clamoring to assure everyone that they know she is not someone to emulate–the backlash against Carol Danvers, and, more recently, the griping from MRAs against the upcoming film Hustlers, which is about strippers scamming their Wall Street clients.
My conclusion? Most men–at least most straight, cisgender men, who are both my sample population and most of the ones whining that Carol is a “villain”–are perfectly fine with, and desensitized to, media where men do violence to women (horror movies), or men do violence to men (horror and action movies). They’re even sort of fine when women do violence to women (“ooooo cat fight!”).
But they get intensely uncomfortable when women are depicted doing any kind of violence to men, especially in films that tilt the balance of power to the other side of the m/f gender binary beyond a single moment or scene.
So woman as flesh-eating monster with men as her preferred cuisine? Woman who responds to unwanted sexual contact by biting it off? Woman who frames her cheating husband for murder? Woman whose response to harassment–behavior that many of the loudest whiners know is both creepy and reflective of their own thoughts/actions–is to break something?
Too scary. Unacceptable. Disturbing. These men hate being presented with the idea, even in fiction, that their position of power is socially constructed, that it could easily be flipped the other way. It terrifies them.
In feeling that terror, they experience a tiny modicum of what living, existing, moving, being perceived as a woman in the world is like.
And they flinch every time.
I mean to be fair, off-screen kills are often much scarier than on-screen kills. But otherwise I agree
But that’s kind of my point, right? Like the men I encountered who were so upset by films like Jennifer’s Body, Teeth, Gone Girl, etc. have spent their lives watching a wide range of violence depicted in film. From early slashers like Halloween, which featured a mix of on-screen kills and off-screen or poorly-lit kills, to later slashers like A Nightmare on Elm Street (and frankly most slasher sequels) which went all-out with the on-screen blood and gore.
The difference isn’t so much whether the violence is explicit or suggested. The difference is who is doing the violence, and who is subjected to it. The “man-disturbing” films I mentioned above all vary quite widely in their depictions of violence. Teeth is fairly explicit, going so far as to show the severed appendage and bloody crotch of one of Dawn’s victims. Jennifer’s Body, on the other hand, is far more subtle. Most of its violence happens off screen or in silhouette.
So it wasn’t how the violence was depicted that these guys found disturbing, because it was no more or less explicit than anything else they’d already seen. They themselves didn’t talk about how violent the films were. The professors who read my thesis didn’t even see the films. They just read my synopsis. What disturbed them was that the power dynamics were not what they were used to.
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drop some stabbing as sex academic articles please I am an avid believer in using an undergraduate education to analyze spn
You got it!
Obligatory disclaimers: Most of this material was written in the 90s-2010s by third wave feminist academics who were overwhelmingly cis and white. They primarily use the gender binary as it is enforced in modern Western culture as a lens to examine the cultural messages and worth of horror films, usually American horror films, from the 1960s and later. Most of them--not all but most--don't interrogate that binary itself very much.
I tried to find links to free PDFs or HTML pages, but it was taking WEEKS and I only found one, so I'm just giving you basic publication info. That being said, if you really can't find something get back to me and I'll try to source it for free or cheap.
Lastly, yeah...a lot of these are about Buffy or mention Buffy, because it was a show built on subverting the usual gender binary-based internal logic and structure of the American horror film and, well...her weapon of choice is a pointy phallus. Also media scholars were obsessed with the show in the 2010s, which is why we have Buffy Studies. I can't help but think we're going to end up with an SPN equivalent, which is. Fitting I guess? Anyway.
The Third Wave's Final Girl: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Vampires, postmodernity, and postfeminism" by Susan A. Owen. Journal of Popular Film & Television; Washington Vol. 27, Iss. 2, (Summer 1999): p. 24-31.
"'Bite Me': Buffy and the penetration of the gendered warrior-hero" by Sarah Buttsworth. Continuum: Journal of Media & Cultural Studies. Vol. 16, Issue 2 (2002): p. 185-199 | Published online: 01 Jul 2010.
Staking Her Claim: Buffy the Vampire Slayer as Transgressive Woman Warrior by Francis H. Early. First published: 05 March 2004 by Wallflower Press.
The Lure of the Vampire: Gender, Fiction and Fandom from Bram Stoker to Buffy by Milly Williamson.
Men, Women, and Chain Saws: Gender in the Modern Horror Film - Updated Edition by Carol J. Clover. Copyright Date: 1992. <- this one is nigh inescapable when researching gender and horror, especially slashers or any films post-1960s.
"Introduction The Phallic: “An Object of Terror and Delight”" ed. By Padva G., Buchweitz N. Sensational Pleasures in Cinema, Literature and Visual Culture. Palgrave Macmillan, London (2014).

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And speaking of Sophia Tolstoy, her diaries are just so depressing.
“I am to gratify his pleasure and nurse his child, I am a piece of household furniture, I am a woman. I try to suppress all human feelings. When the machine is working properly it heats the milk, knits a blanket, makes little requests and bustles about trying not to think […].“
She wrote this when she was 19, one year into her marriage to Leo and as she was pregnant with the first of his 13 children.
A few years later, when she was 25 or so:
“I am so often alone with my thoughts that the need to write in my diary comes quite naturally … Now I am well again and not pregnant—it terrifies me how often I have been in that condition. He said that for him being young meant “I can achieve anything”. For me […] reason tells me that there is nothing I either want or can do beyond nursing, eating, drinking, sleeping, and loving and caring for my husband and babies, all of which I know is happiness of a kind, but why do I feel so woeful all the time, and weep as I did yesterday? I am writing this now with the pleasantly exciting sense that nobody will ever read it, so I can be quite frank with myself […].“
During her 12th pregnancy she wrote about taking scalding baths and jumping from high pieces of furniture to try and miscarry. And at one point while reading her husband’s diary (which he told her to read) she found the sentence “There is no such thing as love, only the physical need for intercourse and the practical need for a life companion.” In her own diary she wrote “They ebb and flow like waves, these times when I realise how lonely I am and want only to cry…”
A few years before her husband’s death, she published a cycle of prose poems titled “Groans”, under the pseudonym “A Tired Woman”.
the most depressing quote from her diaries:
“I have served a genius for almost forty years. Hundreds of times I have felt my intellectual energy stir within me and all sorts of desires - a longing for education, a love of music and the arts… And time and again I have crushed and smothered these longings… Everyone asks, “But why should a worthless woman like you need an intellectual or artistic life?” To this question I can only reply: “I don’t know, but eternally suppressing it to serve a genius is a great misfortune.”