medli

and i get to feel like this all over again tomorrow. but much worse

if im being honest i want to kill myself and im fucking exhausted of having to be normal. im tired. im fucking tired of this shit snd it keeps happening

im a fucking loser and im so tired of it but nothing can make a difference

im tired of feeling like this. i hate it. ihate this i hate myself

i think im just doomed to be like this. i dont think there's any fixing me and i dont think there's a future

the frequency and speed with which i go from hyped as fuck to wanting to kill myself is astounding. cest la vie

its one of those nights where everyone hates me

EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLAR MIMICRY BLADE

been thinking a lot lately. about leaving all of my accounts behind. i dont know if i actually will. but ive been thinking about it. its not like anyone ever sees this shit!! nobody gives a fuck. i only really even use tumblr and discors and i dont even LIKE using tumblr anymore it just makes me feel like shit most of the time. and people dont even really message me anymore and i cant even blame them!! i suck to be around!! im an asshole all the time and expect to still be wanted around. i talk over everyone. im frequently hypocritical and selfish!! i wouldnt want to talk to me either. i cant blame you if you dont want me around.