If I Could Cuddle My Dogs All Day I Would

air all grievances I have about any and everyone to tumblr. Because elriels deserve to know why I'm mad.

make survivor style videos explaining why I felt the need to block someone

Everyone has free will. Period. Unless you’re Ella Enchanted or something and under a spell of obedience (and even she has LOTS of free will,) we all make all our own choices and those choices have consequences. What free will does not give us is the gift of foresight. We cannot see the future. We cannot know what the consequences of our choices will be, we make them with the best information we have and then we see what happens.

Fate is not a removal of our choices. It is not a prison or a pair of handcuffs or a slave master. Fate is the force that CAN see the future. Fate sees the path *we have chosen* to walk. Fate knows where that path leads, and it puts things for us on that path to help us. Sometimes it’s gifts like a lucky chance or an unexpected benefit. Sometimes it’s lessons that teach us something we are going to need later. But the choice of the path is always ours. The consequences are always ours too.

An author *is* Fate to their characters. And free will too. The act of writing is choosing the path, knowing where the path will lead, and putting interesting and valuable things on that path - for the characters and for the readers to find.

Choices made in anger, resentment, or fear are NOT free will. That is you being controlled. Either by the forces of emotions you have not mastered, or by other people who can use those emotions to manipulate you. This is the path of the Jedi. To master one’s emotions, not so that you don’t feel any. But so that they don’t control your free will and you can’t be manipulated with them.

When you have any character who is dealing with big emotions they haven’t processed or healed, you have someone who is making or will make some very bad choices. Fate knows this. Fate will still put things and people and experiences in their path, dark as that path may be, that will help nudge them towards the light. In some stories this may be a fated mate. Fate knows the future. Fate knows what you will need. Fate will keep offering it to you until you see that you need it (a story with a happy ending,) or you die (a tragedy.)

I don't regret extending my empathy for someone who I witnessed get publicly bullied multiple times, because that's who I am. I extend empathy to others while their intentions is their own.

And because I don't wish it upon anyone. I know what that feels like from firsthand experience in the past 5+ years. I always tried to have my friends' back and supported people who were treated unfairly and cruelly, because it can fuck you up if you didn't have a support system. Because let's not forget people receive death threats in this community and there are people that find absolute joy in harming others. And by saying that, it does not absolve Katie of what she did, I have defended countless of Gwynriels and Eluciens and other people. I don't need to make a list.

What I will not do, not now or ever, is excuse someone who screwed over co-commissioners (my friends included) and artists by not paying or treating them unfairly based on what has been shared (because I was not in spaces where those issues took place or addressed). I will never forgive her for it. As someone who has been commissioning for a long time and has wonderful friendships with artists, my stance is known so I don't even need to say this. Again, we all had different experiences with the same person and we were not aware of the issues other people have picked up on (not until it was brought up just a day ago).

Instead of supporting the commissioners who were affected by this, what I'm seeing is blame. "Guilty by association" is not a fair verdict to throw around when some of those commissioners covered the costs of someone who screwed them over. Those commissioners spent time and money wanting to give something beautiful to the community. It's human to give someone the benefit of the doubt or hope they'll do better so are you going to blame people for showing an ounce of decency and humanity? Again, it depends on your experience with that person. The topic is shifting into harassment and blame rather than focusing on how we protect those artists and commissioners and that is unfair to me.

I have nothing further to say or would rather protect my peace because everything that needed to be said and done has been accomplished.

To add:

If you have a personal score to settle with someone, if you had a bad experience with someone, you have every right to speak about your experience, but I am not your scapegoat in your angry rampage. Especially if you have not interacted with me, don't know me personally or what my own experience was or my level of interaction with other people. I don't owe you an explanation for that.

Gwyn looks absolutely majestic as Freya!

Art by @junepage and commissioned by @booknerd87

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"I CAN HEAR YOUR HEART BEATING THROUGH THE STONE, CAN YOU HEAR MINE?"

"MOST BEAUTIFUL FEMALE HE'D EVER SEEN"

FOR NOTHING??? Oh pleaseee make it make sense

But when it came to Azriel and Elain, he immediately warned Azriel to stay away.

“You and that ribbon,” Nesta muttered, shutting the tome. Of all of them, Gwyn had become the most relentless about succeeding.

to

“Remember how Gwyn was with the ribbon?” Nesta winked and clapped the shadowsinger on the shoulder. “You’re the new ribbon, Az.”

SJM:

Steph: They asked me if there were any Sarah J Maas ships that I disagreed with? Sarah: Are there? Steph: No, because you and I are of like minded folk. Sarah: *Smiles and places a hand on her chest* Steph: Like, every time you've introduced a character that ultimately ended up as the [endgame], like Rowan, I knew exactly, like he needs to be with Aelin. Sarah: *nodding along the entire time and smiling*

Fandomtastic Podcast (link to full podcast episode here)

Steph: [Prior to ACOSF] I was an Elriel stan hardcore. I loved the contrast between Elain and Azriel. [...] Me shipping Elriel was really me loving Azriel. Ava: So Steph, what are your thoughts about Azriel and Elain or just Azriel, you know, depending on where your thoughts are landing following up on the bonus chapter? Steph: So I would be lying if I said I wasn't intrigued by Gwyn and Azriel. [...] I would be open to a Gwynriel relationship for sure. I don't personally think that after the bonus chapter that Elriel are happening anymore. Ava: I personally feel that Gwynriel, like, coming out of that chapter, I think that will be the ship that Sarah goes with moving forward. Just because it feels very much like, Sarah's MO. I feel like Sarah, usually, quite confidently, introduces new ships.

like hi, miss you and @amandapearls

"Elain only shrank further into herself, no trace of that newfound boldness to be seen."

Then this is the fan and author's favourite mated couple in the start of their romance (Book 2)

“Don’t bother,” Rhys crooned, linking elbows with me. Every spot of contact was abhorrent, unbearable.

Feyre found Rhys' contact abbhorant and unbearable and she flinched from him:

Rhys gave no warning as he gripped my arm, snarling softly, and tore off the glove. His touch was like a brand, and I flinched, yielding a step, but he held firm until he’d gotten both gloves off. “I heard you begging someone, anyone, to rescue you, to get you out. I heard you say no.”

Love you bunches 😘😘

I love you too @amandapearls you are easily one of the best people I have met through this fandom. So grateful to call you a friend for life ❤️

You are the Enid to my Wednesday 😂