Sometimes, life's a bitch and then you keep living

"Happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts..." *** "It was an accident! I swear." | "It was all a joke." *** "I'm in a nightmare and I can't wake up." ~*~ "Even angels need angels." *** "When I was younger, I could remember anything, whether it happened or not. But soon I shall be so I cannot remember any… but the things that never." *** "But do not be scared. You are dolls. Would never hurt you. Can not hurt you." *** I̅̓̅̋s̫̮͎̳̣͙̃ͥ.͍̖͕̙̺̇̓ ̞̞̬̄̐̆̈̋ͨ̃Lͨ͋̄ͥ̚e̼̼̣ͤ̐̎̈́ͫa̩̳̠̽v͇̗͔̤e̱͎̮̅̋̍̓ͮ.̘͐͆ͦ͗̀ͤͅͅ ̠͕ͫP̃͒ͧ͑oͭͬ͆ͯ͗s̙ͭ̌ͬͦ̽s̻̦͂̆͛i͕͉̻͖̙͆̓̌b̙̻͇͇̣̖͙͆̿̐ͪl̩̜̰̝͓̰͙e̟͙̦̼̗̙̬̐̂.͙̠̭̼̳̿́ *** You could have stopped me, but you just watched. Now he's gone forever. (It's all your fault!) *** "Try to be the best you can possibly be." *** "God doesn't want you to be happy, He wants you to be strong." *** Pray For Orlando. RIP. Orlando Victims. I'm sorry that this world failed you so badly. *** "Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind.... or forgotten." "Together or not at all." I left with Kenny. Because he's family. And you don't abandon family. ♥  *** "You're as stubborn as a damn mule." "Yeah? I wonder where I got that from?" *** "I'm sorry for... for the way I acted back there...after Sarita was...I just... I couldn't handle it... I'm sorry. I mean, you did what you could. You tried to help. And I blamed you for it. I am so so sorry." "You... you really hurt my feelings...I did my best and..." "I know... I was just... in darkness... and you showed up... with some light... but I thought I needed to stay there a little longer... when I should've went with you." *** "How much do you love me?" "For miles and miles." (if you understood that reference we are now best friends) *** "I think we deserve a drink" "Have one for me." "Hey. We'll get through this." "I'm not going in." "I get it. If you need forgiveness I'll give it to you. You're forgiven. Now come inside." "Take care of them for me." "Clarke-" "Seeing their faces every day, will only remind me of what I did to get them here." "What we did. You don't have to do this alone." "I bare it so they don't have to." "Where are you going to go?" "I don't know." *Clarke kisses Bellamy's cheek and hugs him* "May we meet again." "May we meet again." #I don't even know how to tag this... #Pain? #Heartbreak? #One of the best Bellarke scenes ever? #All of the above #I'm dying #I probably won’t survive this hiatus *SOBS ENDLESSLY BECAUSE THIS SHOW AND THIS SHIP IS EVERYTHING * ♥ ♥ ♥  "Mama put my guns in the ground. I can't shoot them anymore." ♥ ♥ ♥  "It's just that every time I seem to make progress towards my happy ending, I hit another dead end. But I know I'll never find it if I revert to my old ways. I'm sorry." #REGINA MILLS BEING THE MOST PERFECTLY FLAWED AND REALISTIC CHARACTER EVER #SHE LEARNT FROM HER MISTAKES AND IS TRYING HARD TO BE A BETTER PERSON WE ALL KNOW SHE CAN BE #SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE #DON'T EVEN TOUCH ME ♥ ♥ ♥  "You're a dick!" "Excuse me?" "Yes, I just called you a dick, because that's what you are! I'm stuck here now because I can't sell my property because of your stupid bypass! I'm underwater! No one told me that before I bought it. Maybe you should talk about that at a city council meeting. Or maybe you should talk about the fact that your fancy town is run on drug money. Maybe that would be worth talking about as opposed to crazy house moms whining about whether or not their kids have read about ax murderers and whores. Welcome to the world, ladies! There are ax murderers and whores stuffed under every rug, so your kids better read up on it and get educated, because that's what life is! It's a cesspool you claw and scratch and fight to swim out of, but you never get to the top!" "They raped me! They put a dead man’s body in my bed. They kidnapped my child and they put him in a box in the ground. What else are they gonna do to me, kill me? I'm not going down without a fight, and no one's gonna stop me. Not you, not Bob Paris, not all of the scumbag criminals in White Pine Bay. You know what? If I was a man, one of these douche bags who lives here, you would say that it's totally doable. You're just saying it's a bad idea because you think I can’t handle it because I’m a woman. Because I’m a mother. I can. I have seen how its done. And I will handle it without you if I have to." "It's not your fault, Alex. It's bigger than us. It was my fault, anyway. I tried to hide it. You know but now it's coming out, and it's just too much to shove away. I'm not gonna lie, I'm so scared. He's my son, and he's broken. And he is the dearest boy that ever lived, and I just can't bear it if Bob Paris has this thing investigated, if they take him away. If they put him in prison just for defending me. You know, it will kill me. But I you know, in some way, I don't even care anymore. You know, maybe fate wins here. We're all doomed in the end, right?" "Go ahead, tough guy. Do what you're gonna do. Break the woman in half. Because you know what? I'm not broken. I am still standing, so go ahead. Do your best, you giant lame asshole!” ― Norma Louise Bates AKA: THE STRONGEST AND THE BRAVEST WOMAN THERE WILL EVER BE AKA: MY ENTIRE LIFE RIGHT NOW TBH (SERIOUSLY I LOVE HER SO MUCH PLEASE END ME) RIP. You deserved better my fierce queen :_( ♥ ♥ ♥  "If you’re afraid of losing your happy ending, that means you’ve found it. What is it?" "Don't you know, Emma? It's you."  #JUST STAB ME IN THE HEART #CAPTAIN SWAN WILL RULE THE WORLD ONE DAY I SWEAR #I AM FINE BUT I AM ALSO DYING #THANK YOU AND GOODBYE ♥ ♥ ♥  "No! No way. Don't even say it. I'm not going anywhere without you." "Please don't leave me. " "Not a chance." "Don't touch her! Take me! DON'T TOUCH HER!" "They can't leave if you push them away first, right?" "Welcome to the ground."  #JUST DROWN ME IN WICKEN FEELS  #Wicken is wrecking me badly #Also JASON STOP HURTING MY BABY RAVEN!!!  #SHE'S HAD ENOUGH! JUST LET HER BE HAPPY! ♥ ♥ ♥  #CLARKE GRIFFIN IS A BISEXUAL!!!!! #THAT IS LITERALLY ALL I EVER WANTED #MY LIFE'S PURPOSE IS FULFILLED AND I AM DEAD "You care about him." "I care about all of them. "But you worry about him more." #BELLARKE  #JUST LEAVE ME HERE TO DIE!!!! "Your people need you." "You are my people." "Heavy lies the crown." "She shouldn't be wearing the crown." "After everything we've done, do we even deserve to survive?" ♥ ♥ ♥  "Put her on it." "No." "No! No, please!" "You don't have to do this. There has to be another way!" "It's okay." "Marcus, it's okay. I'm here now. It's okay." "Abby?" #KABBY WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME I SWEAR #KABBY KISS IS CANON YOU GUYS YAAAAAAAAAS!!!!!!! *~~~* #I LOVE ABBY #I LOVE CLARKE #AND I AM IN PAIN BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE ATTACKING THEM BY PICKING SIDES #I AM A PART OF ABBY GRIFFIN DEFENSE TEAM #BECAUSE SHE SERIOUSLY NEEDS ONE #SHE'S REALLY GREAT, SO PLEASE STOP THE HATE ♥ ♥ ♥  "Would you describe yourself as an out-doorsy person? Oh Dave... No." "So I said to the President, 'I'm a crab!'." "Well, it's like they always say: sometimes you just gotta stop and smell the lemons." ― Eliza Taylor.  AKA: The most awkward, adorable, dorky and perfect person that has ever lived. ♥ ♥ ♥  "Can I say something crazy. I'm happy." #And then they literally drove off into the sunset #God bless Olicity #For being endgame and being the only one of my ships who are actually happy and together ♥ ♥ ♥  "You're doing that biting your lower lip thing you do when something's bothering you." "We are quite the pair, Mr Allen." "I'm not much of a singer. And you're not much of a drinker."  "You're fast and you can sing? What can't  you do?"  "I sang."  "Will you stay with me until I fall asleep?" “It’s time for me to move on and find someone else to be crazy about.” — If 1x12 episode of The Flash wasn't foreshadowing Snowbarry, then nothing in this world makes any sense to me anymore.  #KEEP CALM AND WAIT FOR SNOWBARRY TO HAPPEN #SUMMER LOVIN - OFFICIAL SNOWBARRY SONG ♥ ♥ ♥  "I can't lose you too." "The dead are gone, Clarke. The living are hungry." #I have been killed by The 100 and Bellarke #Patiently sitting here waiting for season 4 *~~~* "I was afraid that I wouldn’t see you again." "I had those fears myself." "This is not who we are." ♥ ♥ ♥  "Sorry for compelling away the memories." "We'll make new ones." #Just sitting here waiting patiently for Elena to wake up #And so is Damon #Dammit ♥ ♥ ♥  "They know that tragedy is not glamorous. They know it doesn’t play out in life as it does on a stage or between the pages of a book. It is neither a punishment meted out nor a lesson conferred. Its horrors are not attributable to one single person. Tragedy is ugly and tangled, stupid and confusing.” — E. Lockhart, We Were Liars ♥ ♥ ♥  “And so it goes, day after day. Every sharp word and every angry, impure thought. You press them down, pretending they’re not a part of who you really are – the sweet, good girl, the smiling, happy person but the truth is, that anger is more real than anything. It burns and blooms and blossoms, twisting tighter with every faked smile until you wonder, what would it be like to just let it free? Stop pretending. Stop hiding. Stop being the girl they all said you should be. Imagine that freedom. God, can’t you feel it? What harm could it do?” "Some pieces couldn’t be glued back together. Some people weren’t for fixing. Sometimes, the only thing to do was burn the whole fucking world down and start again." — Abigail Haas, Dangerous Boys. ♥ ♥ ♥  “Shall I tell you a story? A new and terrible one? A ghost story? Are you ready? Shall I begin? Once upon a time there were four girls. One was pretty. One was clever. One charming, and one...one was mysterious. But they were all damaged, you see. Something not right about the lot of them. Bad blood. Big dreams. Oh, I left that part out. Sorry, that should have come before. They were all dreamers, these girls. One by one, night after night, the girls came together. And they sinned. Do you know what that sin was? No one? Pippa? Ann? Their sin was that they believed. Believed they could be different. Special. They believed they could change what they were--damaged, unloved. Cast-off things. They would be alive, adored, needed. Necessary. But it wasn't true. This is a ghost story remember? A tragedy. They were misled. Betrayed by their own stupid hopes. Things couldn't be different for them, because they weren't special after all. So life took them, led them, and they went along, you see? They faded before their own eyes, till they were nothing more than living ghosts, haunting each other with what could be. With what can't be. There, now. Isn't that the scariest story you've ever heard?”  ― Libba Bray, A Great and Terrible Beauty. ♥ ♥ ♥  "People don't get better, they just get smarter. When you get smarter you don't stop pulling the wings off flies, you just think of better reasons for doing it." "And suddenly it didn't seem to matter any more, nothing would matter if she could turn over, turn over and see the stars, turn over and look once and die."  ― Stephen King, Carrie. ♥ ♥ ♥  "Settle for nothing less than a werewolf space angel who gifts you flying rollerblades and treats you like a fucking queen." ―  Jupiter Ascending. ♥ ♥ ♥  "There is only one God, and his name is Death. And there is only one thing we say to Death: 'Not today'." ♥ ♥ ♥  "As fait would have it, I adopted two boys, and they grew up great. They grew up heroes."  RIP Bobby Singer - the most loving and dedicated parent and the most amazing character that ever lived. #Gone but never forgotten ♥ ♥ ♥  "Go. Save your brother. And...My unicorn." RIP Meg Masters - most flawless, amazing, beautiful and good demon you will ever know. *cue endless sobbing over the death of this awesome, wonderful girl* So much character potential... Wasted... *sigh* Side note: I'll ship Megstiel till the day I die (even though she's dead... *sobs*) ♥ ♥ ♥  "I think you're full of crap. Look, you've convinced yourself that you've traded away your humanity, but I think it's because of your humanity that you made it through. You wouldn't have survived, much less come out a hero - somebody that wants to do good - if you didn't have a light inside of you." #FELICITY IS HIS LIGHT #SPREAD THE WORD #OLICITY ♥ ♥ ♥  "If death has no cost, then life has no worth." "Blood must have blood." "Who we are and who we need to be to survive are very different things." {100♥100 } Always a Feminist. Awkward. Introvert. Blacks Lives Matter supporter. Terfs can go get fucked (not in a good way). Moderate amount of crazy. [update: I am now a 3rd year uni student so changing that to FULL ON INSANE (and crying. send help pls)]. Studying Psychology with Forensic Psychology at the University of Lincoln (UK). Not english. Lithuanian. I believe in equality between everyone. I support and defend people of all sexuality and gender orientations, ethnic groups, religions, etc. 21 years old. Identifying as a female (she/her). Aggressively refusing to label my sexuality as anything. (I'm sure as hell not straight though. My best guess would be bi/pan ace, but who the fuck knows tbh). “Labels are for cans, not people.” ― Anthony Rapp Love strong women + villains with issues. Still trying hard to keep this blog in multi fandom form, but The 100 is slowly taking over it. I blog a bit of everything, unless I'm binge watching a show. Then that show pretty much takes over my whole blog. Currently obssessed with: Crying (exams and essays... 3rd year university student... send help) Currently crying over: UNI WORK Also: NORMERO :____( *sobs helplessly for all eternity at how unfair it is and at how this ship deserved better* Side note: Ziva is ALIVE and living a happy life with her family (Tony and Tali) in Paris. (Screw you Gary!!! That shitty episode = himym finale. Yeah it was that bad. I was not ready. :_( Leave me.) Currently watching: My life pass me by. TV shows that I'm going to binge watch during the summer (after exams): House Of Cards and Elementary. TV shows I want to catch up on/finish, but never have the time: Mad Men, Suits, Scandal and Glee (update: all of them tbh) Currently reading: Nothing for now. Honorary Mention: THE WALKING DEAD GAMES (both seasons)!!!!!! GO PLAY THEM NOW AND LET THEM RUIN YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!! My life has been taken over and ruined by: THE 100 (if you're not watching this show yet, YOU SHOULD!!!! GO WATCH IT NOOOOW!!!! ♥), Arrow, Once Upon A Time, Vampire Diaries, NCIS, Breaking Bad, Orphan Black, Friends, Community, Masters Of Sex, Hannibal, Bates Motel, Stranger Things, Game Of Thrones, Supernatural, Jessica Jones, Daredevil, Shadowhunters, Sherlock, Doctor Who, Supergirl, The Walking Dead, Fear The Walking Dead, Dexter, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, Wynonna Earp, UnREAL, Hemlock Grove, Narcos, Zoo, Scream Queens, Faking It, LOST, How To Get Away With Murder, Empire, The Flash, Legends Of Tomorrow, Carmilla, House MD, Scandal, How I Met Your Mother (minus the finale, of course), Scream, The Big Bang Theory, Gilmore Girls, Charmed, New Girl, Mindy Project, Awkward. My favorite OTPs are: Bellarke (*cries forever because they are PERFECT* ♥), Olicity, Captain Swan, Delena, Tiva, Swarkles, Kabby, Wicken, Outlaw Queen, Rumbelle, Red Warrior, Normero, Jopps, Septiplier, Skate, Adlock, Bethyl, Richonne, Clairedevil, Kastle, Karolsen, Reamy, Spuffy, Megstiel, Bechloe, Jesse St Berry, Carenzo, Holstein, Snowbarry, Hameron, Shenny, Densi, Olitz, Malec, Jalec, JessicaxTrish, DoctorxRiver, DoctorxJack, TenxMartha, NinexRose, AnnalisexEve, AlanaxMargot, VictorxThomas, GemmaxKartik, RachelxQuinn (from UnREAL), WynonnaxDoll, NormanxPeter, ConnorxOliver, JennaxMatty, JeffxAnnie, BillxVirginia, MitchxJamie, Marty xDana, DebraxLundy, JaimexBrienne, JorahxDaenerys, TheaxRoy, DigglexLila, BuffyxGiles, LaurenxTheo, SchmidtxCece. My OTPs that actually became canon and/or endgame: Delena, Olicity, Captain Swan, Outlaw Queen, Jesse St Berry and Holstein. My OTPs that never sailed and/or were ruined: Swarkles, Tiva, Normero, Megstiel, Skate, Spuffy, Hameron, MartyxDana (although I choose to see them as endgame) and DebraxLundy. *cries forever* My favorite books: Gemma Doyle trilogy by Libba Bray, Carrie by Stephen King, Dangerous Boys by Abigail Haas, Dangerous Girls by Abigail Haas (ABIGAIL HAAS IS SO AMAZING GO READ THOSE TWO BOOKS GO DO IT NOOOW!!!!!),We Were Liars by E. Lockhart, Beauty Queens by Libba Bray, Far From You by Tess Sharpe, This Perfect World by Suzanne Bugler, Killing Me Softly by Nicci French, House Of Night Series by P.C.Cast and Kristin Cast, The Talented Mr Ripley by Patricia Highsmith (there are bunch of others but I can't think of them now :P). My favorite characters/inspirations are: Clarke Griffin (my sun my stars my EVERYTHING!!! ♥), Bellamy Blake, Regina Mills, Damon Salvatore, Felicity Smoak, Gemma Doyle, Carrie White, Felicity Worthington, Raven Reyes, Abby Griffin, Marcus Kane, Lexa, Monty Green, Octavia Blake, Emma Swan, Killlian Jones, Norma Louise Bates, Alex Romero, Snow Queen Ingrid, Jessica Jones, Carmilla Karnstein, Tyrion Lannister, Arya Stark, Daenerys Targaryen (Khaleesi), River Song, The Doctor, Sherlock Holmes, Irene Adler, Kenny (TWDG), Lee Everett, Clementine (TWDG), Magnus Bane, Alec Lightwood, Dean Winchester, Meg Masters, Sawyer Ford, Kate Austen, Desmond Hume, Ziva David, Jethro Gibbs, Abby Sciuto, Tony Dinozzo, Alison Hendrix, Cosima Niehaus, Felix Dawkins, Annie Edison, Abed Nadir, Jeff Winger, Barry Allen, Caitlin Snow, Gregory House, Alison Cameron, Hannibal Lecter, Sheldon Cooper, Barney Stinson, Robin Scherbatsky, Amy Raudenfeld, Shane Harvey, Lauren Cooper, Mitch Morganetc, Marty Mikalski + all the actors who play them. I babble a lot, I'm sorry :P If anyone actually read through all of this then: Wow! You dear person, have a patience of a saint! Here have some pizza and puppy *gives you them* :) *