thoughts on sjm possibly making nesta apologizing to the circle even though she was exiled? feyre seems to force her to do things even though nesta clearly doesnāt belong. i donāt like that everyone expects her to join their group, they expect her to be ok after the war and seeing her father die in front of her eyes, and expect her to be like them. feyreās always been the brave one, elainās the people pleaser who will fake a smile but nesta isnāt and i love her for being so raw and realistic.
Iā¦ feel a bit icky about the idea of Nesta apologizing to the inner circle.
I think that it would be kind of Nesta to apologize to Feyre for her behaviour during those hungry years in their cabin. It would show a lot of growth in her, and it would surely be a little knife against her pride. However, I do feel like Nestaās actions speak much louder than any apology she could say to Feyre, because even though Nesta always pushed Feyre away, she was the one that went out in search for her sister when Tamlin took her. Nesta shows Feyre that she loves her, and that she is sorry for the way she treated her youngest sister. An apology would only be a reflection of that - I think what really counts, and what Feyre should damn well keep in mind, is that her sister risked her life to save her.
In my opinion, Nesta has no need to apologize to the inner circle. She owns them nothing. I get it, I do. In her eyes, itās their fault that sheās lost her humanity. Itās their fault that her father is dead. Itās their fault that sheāsā¦ different. Remember how much Nesta hated the Fae even before her sister was taken. Remember how afraid she was of them. She will put Tamlin, Lucien and all of the Night Court in the same bag. She doesnāt give a flying fork whoās better than who - and I get that.
All in all, I wonāt mind if Nesta shows Feyre that sheās sorry. Is an apology necessary after she risked her life for Feyreās? Well, like I said, her actions speak louder than her words, and we know Nesta has trouble with voicing her emotions. If Feyre canāt see how her sister is trying, then I say itās Feyreās own damn fault.
I actually despised the way Feyre treated Nesta in the last book. She was judgmental, rash, hateful and even cruel at times. She treated Nesta as if she was an inconvenience - something to be dealt with. I donāt care how many times Feyre defended Nesta in front of Rhysand - to me, that just makes Feyre a hypocrite. But I mean, letās not talk about Rhysā and Feyreās characterization in acofas because both went miserably downhill for me. My point is, Nesta is in pain.
And no one can look past this wall that Nesta built around herself - not even Cassian. Except for Elain, and at times Cassian, the othersā reactions when it comes to Nesta is look at her as if sheās the problem. Why arenāt they trying?
Fuck, why do they all coddle Elain and leave Nesta out in the cold?
I will say this: when someone is as broken down as Nesta is, they donāt donāt know the difference between a hand thatās extended towards them and a hand thatās ready to snap their neck. For her, everytime Cassian tries to reach out, her mind instantly goes to hell, because instead of thinking heās trying to help me, the only thing she can think of is, he feels pity and feels obligated to help me. And to someone as proud as Nesta, you can see how that would only add to her pain.
She asked for none of this.
She simply wanted her life back. A life that was taken away from her without her permission. Hell, first, her mother who never spared her a second glance perished right in front of her, second, she lost her house, forced to live in the cold, hungry and helpless, and was looked down by everyone else. Third, she lost her sister, faced dangers to save her, only to be captured and then thrown into a world she never wanted to know? She was violated.Ā
Of course she is in pain. Of course sheās enraged.
Now add to all that suffering Feyre scowling at her, judging her coping mechanisms when Nesta doesnāt know any better with a hint of her sisterās new perfect little family looking at her like sheās a beast that needs to be leashed.
Add to all of that, being exiled from somewhere she doesnāt even consider home.
And sheās supposed to thank Feyre? To say,Ā āOh, my, thank you, really, thatās all I ever wanted, to be forced to deal with feelings I donāt understand and be dragged to only fuck-knows-where with a male I have confusing feelings for.ā
Nesta owns no one an apology.
If she wishes to say,Ā āFeyre, Iām sorry I treated you the way I did.ā Fine.Ā
But more than that? I will not accept it.
What I would like to see? Feyre apologizing. Rhysand apologizing. Cassian trying a little harder, without pushing her too far. The inner circle respecting her boundaries, for once. And for Nesta to be extended a hand without being forced to take it.
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