revolution 🎠 or revolution 🏎️

Getting abused as a child literally rewires the way you see and move through the world and the way that Revolutionary Girl Utena makes that warped vision the reality is probably why I enjoy (or enjoyed as a teen) it over any other media about middle/high school and romance. When you’re a child going through abuse, everything is that scary, dramatic, and unreal. Every relationship becomes a duel when you believe your suffering is eternal. If you’re just a means to an end, isn’t everyone else? You just have to go to school the next day after an event, but at least there is a little reprieve. You trudge through the day knowing the bullshit you have to look forward too. Very few are willing or able to understand what’s going on so you give up on close connection so young to not get your hopes up. Lock everyone else out in the meantime, who cares what anyone else thinks, it’s so cozy in the coffin. Adults are utterly useless. Reality will sooner break apart than you make healthy, long lasting relationships because you are a witch, deserving of eternal torment.