2019

i love the part of growth that allows you to look back on a previous period of your life and recognize that parts of it were unhealthy. something that felt so normal wasn’t in hindsight. you’re not supposed to feel that tired all the time. you’re not supposed to be treated like that.

there’s so much joy in living a private life. looking really pretty and not posting it, going to a new city and not telling anyone, getting a fancy dinner by yourself dressed up.... like it just feels like life.. i feel alive and less preformative

Remember to appreciate the baby steps. They all add up. They’re important. No matter how small.

relationships are so much healthier when the goal is to experience life together and not to try to make the person into who you want them to be or to make them do what you want them to do. 

once you stop fantasizing about that ideal version of yourself and start working towards becoming that person by setting your alarm clock earlier and actually going to the gym and actually volunteering at places and actually eating healthier and not procrastinating and working just a little bit harder you’ll realize that it was so easy all along. becoming your ideal self will only ever exist in your mind until you make the decision to work towards becoming that person. get up!! get going!! it’s now or never!! there is no light at the end of the tunnel!! get that flashlight and pave your own path bitch bc no one else is going to do it for u!!

Do the little things; do them every day. Get better, get stronger. Improve every single day, physically and mentally. Run all of the miles. Cross train your ass off. Do all of the core. Lift all of the weights. Expand your mind. Read anything you can get your hands on. Write everything down and let it heal your soul. Focus on yourself. Focus on being the baddest, fiercest bitch that you can be. Because the only person that can give you everything, the only one that can accomplish all of your dreams, is you.