Poems, Stories and Texts

And tonight I’d love to be hugged,

Rite of passage

Because we need to stand united!

Entangled,

Whatever happens, I experienced a love that shakes the earth, sets fire to seas, and spreads light into the darkest corners. I experienced You!

And suddenly I fell for you

I saw your name and was reminded of you… What we once had, What we were, Who I turned into while being with you, How you treated me, How I thought you loved me as I loved you. Lies. All lies, Breaking my trust, Turning me into someone I didn’t want to be; Someone fearful, doubtful, frightened… Frightened to be hurt and used again by someone like you. Someone who questions other’s motives, Thinking thrice before letting down my walls. Why do I still allow you to have this power over me? All we have is memories. All you were was a lesson. All I want you to be is nothing more but a fading shadow in my heart. All you are, Is nothing!

When I meet her 30 years after I let her go Fear- The pessimist We might almost pass by each other without noticing, But something, may it be fate, a subconscious knowing or simply coincidence will make us turn heads. We will look into each other’s eyes. Her face will look weathered from the sun, The piercing she used to wear will be gone, Her hair will have begun to turn grey, But her eyes will still express the same youthful and cheeky nature that lays beyond her walls I used to climb. She will smile at me the way that used to make my knees go weak, They will go weak this time too. My brow will arch and I too will smile. As shy as never before we both will say “hi”, Neither of us knowing what else to say. Thousands of questions and stories will race through my head, “How have you been?” “Last year I finally did the thing we always talked about.” “Did you ever get that tattoo?” “I think I missed you more than I ever noticed” Slowly we will both take a step forward, Towards each other, Another step, Another. Suddenly a movement catches my eye, A hand reaching for hers. Another one touches mine. We will turn away from each other, Both going our separate ways Once again. And the future of us, I envisioned a second ago, will have faded as quickly As we spoke our goodbyes 30 years ago.

When i meet her 30 years after I let her go Hope- The optimist We might almost pass by each other without noticing, But something, may it be fate, a subconscious knowing or simply coincidence, will make us turn heads. We will look into each other's eyes. Her face will look weathered from the sun, The piercing she used to wear will be gone, Her hair will have begun to turn grey, But her eyes will still express the same youthful and cheeky nature that lays beyond her walls I used to climb. She will smile at me the way that used to make my knees go weak, They will go weak this time too. My brow will arch and I too will smile. As shy as never before we both will say "hi", Neither of us knowing what else to say. Thousands of questions and stories will race through my head, "How have you been?" "Last year I finally did the thing we always talked about." "Did you ever get that tattoo?" "I think I missed you more than I ever noticed" Slowly we will both take a step forward, Towards each other. Another step, Another. Ten inches apart from each other. "Hi" we will say, once again.

One of the hardest things to hear must be “you are too good for me”; So you’re telling me that you feel that I’m too good of a person and that’s why you can’t be with me? You feel intimidated by that? Please, see your own worth!!! Appreciate that I’m, in your eyes good, take it! Please do! I’m like this towards you because I see something special in you and this is who I am - And probably also because I’m in way too deep in feelings- But being told “you are too good” over and over again and having that as a reason as to why people don’t want to be with me is devestating! I’m not a god! I’m not better than anyone else! I’m me! And the person who is me does care a lot, true - But that doesn’t make me any better and it shouldn’t make you feel less!- You are amazing just the way you are - Otherwise you wouldn’t have caught my attention!- So see your own worth! See yourself as I see you: An amazing, strong, kind human being - Okay maybe you’re an undercover alien, so let’s correct that- An amazing, strong, kind being!!! You are perfect in being you! We all are!

Remember when we were kids, And something as simple as a kiss, Was enough to prove our love?

I feel stagnant, Like air in a closed room. I’m moving, Though only twirling around the same spot. I stand still, Captured in this place. I’m changing, But I’m hostage to my feelings, For you.

You told me I should probably tell your next girl to run. I won't- I'd tell her to stay. TO MAKE THE MOST of the time she is given with you. TO LOOK OUT for that subtle look to the ground when you feel uncomfortable. TO APPRECIATE the smiling followed by the tiny pulling down of the corner of your mouth when something cute touches the deep places of your heart. TO MAKE SURE to hug you even if you don't ask for one. TO NOT GET SCARED by your temper or react the same back- because most times there's a simple explanation and things can be solved within minutes. TO REMIND you of meditating, working out and breathing when you stress too much. TO LET YOU sleep at least 8 hours. TO GIVE you space during an anxiety attack but carefully lay a hand upon your heart so you relax. TO ASK what you feel and think and listen to what you have to say- because you have a lot to say that matters. TO NOT TAKE ADVANTAGE of your incredible selflessness. TO REMEMBER all the small things that make you smile. TO BE THERE for you when you need it even if you don't mention it. TO BE THANKFUL for all the love, kindness, respect, honesty, and compassion you give. TO LOVE everything about you- and the things you dislike about yourself even a bit more.

Made out with someone, That wasn't you. It didn't feel like you, It didn't taste like you. "Just let it go" he said. I can't, you're still the one inside my head.

You do have the possibility to know me as deep as I know you, you just need to dare!

And as beautiful as a sunny day is, As wonderful is a day with rain. And magical as the sunset is, As sure is the sunrise. And as mesmerizing as your smile is, As intriguing it is to learn about what makes you cry. And as much as I love you on your bright days, As sure will I be there on your dark ones. And as much fear you have to be hurt again, As much patience I have to show you otherwise.