So I haven’t been active on this blog in quite some time 😂
- told my crush I liked him last June
- we started dating last august (the months in-between we hung out but it was like being stuck in limbo, a bit awkward but like not too bad 😂💀)
- we dated for about 10 months. That’s the happiest I’ve ever been, I gained weight bc I felt safe and loved by choice and not obligation; it was amazing
- he broke up with me in early may, because he is gay (not bisexual like he thought 😞) (I could feel him having to tell me something for like 3 weeks before then too, like I kept having nightmares about him breaking up with me and then assuring myself that that wouldn’t happen, right? Ahahaha, silly me. Like I kept asking him that one Saturday before we broke up what was on his mind while we were sitting in my car in front of the dorms, but he kept saying “oh, nothing.” Liar 😂😂😂) (he broke up w me 2 weeks before prom when I had spent so much fucking money on my dress and bough his ticket ($65) and he didn’t ever pay me back for that, but I can’t be mad at him, no matter how hard I try, guess I’ll always like him in some aspect 💀)
- I don’t have any hard feelings towards him, but I miss hanging out with somebody every weekend and actually doing shit instead of staying in my room now that it’s summer again, finding a job is hard, and all my friends have money and are on family vacations. I miss what we had, but I don’t regret any of my decisions at all.
- we met up after a month with some friends and went to a Will Wood and the Tapeworms concert in Chicago back in June ‘25, and that was nice. Enjoyed his company a lot
- need to ask him what tea he made for me all those times bc it s delicious and I miss it
- I do miss him but like he’s literally not into women so how can I fault him for that 😂😂😂
Woah holy big rant Batman lmao
Now it’s July 2025, and we haven’t talked in like 3 weeks, and that’s sad to me but I get it if he wants to just move on and forget me tbh, idk how I would go about a breakup bc it’s my first one, and it’s also his first breakup but i doubt he cried at all like I did bc he never felt the same way about me that I did about him 😝
I graduated high school, and completed my first year of college at the same time; and I got my welding certificate (which would be really nice if places were hiring under 21y/o)
Now im dealing with a friend (chopped) who is sorta flirting w me but I DONT LIKE HIM 😂💀 I only flirted w him when I was drunk like Really white girl wasted just to feel anything again lmao and now I feel bad bc I led him on just to see if I could 🥀
Yeah, that’s what’s going on with me
We stay silly, guys. That’s all we can do 😝🫶
blakekathryn
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