I can't do this anymore

did you have a fairly normal 2021 or do you know every lyric to Welcome to The Internet by bo burnham

i like how caine saying “i never programmed you to say you love me” to the moon showed us how he had the ability to be loved by people without forcing them to love him all along. it hit really hard to me because of his fear of abandonment from being locked away and percieved as a failure, plus the way bubble (his subconscious, at least that’s what i perceive bubble to be/have been) seems to despise him and constantly be deriding him, so caine didn’t think he could be loved by someone unless he “forced” them (popping bubble every time he said something rude to him) or at least forced them to not hate him. god i love character growth.

"if Jax is a trans woman she's still an abuser so she's bad representation so the show is transphobic" you're an idiot. you want your blorbos to be perfect ideal angels, I want my blorbos to be realistic, nuanced, flawed human beings, we are not the same. I LIKE that she's messy and fucked up and problematic, I think it's a realistic depiction of how a lot of repressed and traumatized trans women are. I think the show goes to great lengths to explore how and why she is the way she is, and to evoke sympathy for this kind of person. it doesn't excuse her actions but it does make them understandable. and I think the fact women like that deserve sympathy is an idea worth stating and worth shouting. yes she's a bully and she hurt everyone around her and that may never change. she still deserves sympathy.

shoutout to gooseworx for putting three years of her life into making a show about her ocs, one of whom is trans and also a piece of shit because she knows that the two are not mutually exclusive

jax as a character doesnt really do it for me but i saw someone say that it's funny that gooseworx managed to make people care about a transfem character by disguising them as a tumblr sexyman and ykw that IS really funny actually

I kinda like the idea of jax becoming a cautionary tale of what happens when you let dysphoria and self hatred eat you alive. I've met so many of him IRL in my own circles. I think people need to hear it. I need more characters who eat themselves alive and actually have to suffer the consequences of not choosing to be better. It's pretty refreshing to see a different and nuanced take on dysphoria and how it doesn't always manifest the way you would expect.