AmaCarpio. 911

Why do I still think that going to sleep will make the pain go away?

Don’t get me wrong, I still love the sound of life itself, but… I fell in love with Silence.

Solo tengo mi corazón y mis brazos. No tengo cadenas para retenerte y, si tu deseo por irte es mayor que mis fuerzas, solo terminaré desmembrándome en tu partida.

And here I am, returning to the house of pain.

From all the world we built, I would stay in the one we begun.

Y entendí que no me querías ahí, que no querías que te buscara, que te había cansado y… solo cuando la vergüenza salpicó mi rostro, entendí que debía dejarte ir.

The messages I didn’t reply, the calls I didn’t take, the dates I didn’t go to, in those things, in those things rely the root of my regret.

My dear dear love, through the pain of your absence I found my purest version. The one that is sensitive, the one that is vulnerable, the one that fears to be abandoned, the one that desperately needs to be taken care of. Now you’re gone so I just wanted to thank you for letting me find myself.

I’m afraid of not finding you again.