my existence is my biggest failure....
i live it every day.... wanting it all to be over....
i want to die, but i dont want to kill myself.... i just want my body to just give out in my sleep....
the days drag on and im tired.... i just wanna go....

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my existence is my biggest failure....
i live it every day.... wanting it all to be over....
i want to die, but i dont want to kill myself.... i just want my body to just give out in my sleep....
the days drag on and im tired.... i just wanna go....

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I am now diagnosed with depression
At least I can stop gaslighting myself into thinking I'm overreacting
I LOVE how the side effects of the medication I take for depression and anxiety are depression and anxiety <3 hm: suicidal thoughts
I don't think I feel very well...
I hate social media, it distracts me from how miserable my life really is.
After every doomscroll, every interaction I'm back to the dark corners between the walls.

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-Early Morning Sunshine-
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The patio door is open.
Humid ocean air slowly frills the curtains.
Empty bottles on the counter.
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I haven't slept.
Deep down it seems fitting.
I stand up from the couch.
One foot after another.
Till im gone forever.
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TW: ALL FAKE AI
I hate family holidays, I want to go home, I want to go back to isolating myself from everything and everyone, I can't wait to lock myself in my room, I won't go out for days and leaving the room will be a similar experience to leaving the house.
small ones unfortunately becouse family vacation is living hell (so small that idk if i can even call that relapse)
It will be okay right?
Right...?