#28onthe27th
Another year. Another birthday. I am kinda sad that I am growing old each year. Sad because I think I am still not doing great. I am still in the search for genuine happiness. I sincerely hoped i would be able to attain that last year, but alas, it’s a day before I turn 28 and I haven’t gotten the “genuine happiness” yet. Don’t get me wrong. I am happy, no doubt about that. But you see, I do things to make me happy. Happiness does not come to me naturally. I am happy with my life, my family, my friends. Again, no doubt about that. We may have too many different definitions of what genuine happiness is but I don’t know, maybe for me I will just feel it. I know it will come one day like a sound of a bell from somewhere and then I would know that is genuine happiness. Anyway, talking about genuine happiness and how I am not able to get there yet is just too much and too sad when I will be turning 28 in a few hours. Yay! So life update! I got a new job. I am officially a week and 2 days old in my new job. Hope I will be able to do well and gain a few friends I can chitchat with whenever the day gets a little too boring. I have been very anxious about gaining friends at work that I pester my friends almost every hour via messenger. You see, I am lonely. I still have that lunch buddy ordeal, like always. Hope someone I know and someone I can be comfortable with gets to be onboard in my new workplace. I am really praying for it. It’s not that I wasn’t trying hard to get to know my new officemates. It’s just that I did try and I got rejected! A couple of times! I am just so happy that A and J are always there even though we are not in the same company. I love friends! <3 Little sister is graduating later. So sad I won’t be able to attend and be the best stage sister that I am. Haha. I have work and I am still new and I don’t have leave credits yet. But I guess we will be celebrating courtesy of the brother. Speaking of the brother, horns are growing still. But sometimes he is that kind brother that would look after you but most of the time he pisses me of that he treats me like i’m not his sister. That jerk! Anyway, it’s my day, no one can ruin my day. Parents are doing well but too worried that we are tight on the financial side. I have to work real hard for them. Hope I can be the best daughter though. Mother Yads kind of worries me because she’s alone in her home and I know that she relies on me too much. But I have to be away from her for a couple of reasons and that is making me so sad. Why won’t her grandchildren stay with her? For the record, I am still “phat” and that is very, very sad! I am trying to diet though. No rice and a little exercise. I just hope I can keep up with that. I am really trying hard to lose the extra pounds. T_T I still don’t have the significant other although I wanted to see him already. I am not getting any younger and I just wanted to be with someone who can calm my storm and would take a leap of faith with me. Because I get too lonely most days and I have no control over that and I think maybe If I have someone I may appease the loneliness because he will be there. I will take care of him like i want to be taken care of. I know I haven’t experience being in love yet or I don’t know, maybe I have. One thing i know though is that i will love him like no one has ever. Can he please come already? I think I am ready now. 28? year 2019? I hope all is well and everything will be great from now on. Let’s cross our fingers and hope for the best shall we? Thank you God and happy 28th birthday to me! :)
