always the cow

Going to dinner with a bunch of people from work, I've been there 2 weeks but like if I'm able to connect w people it'll be ok. A bit scared that I'll mess it up BC I am not the best at maintaining relationships but I think I've grown up/learnt to deal w my stressers but the hardest thing abt work friendships is that you see those people for upto 60 hours a week and you can get annoyed with people you wouldn't when you're overworked and especially on night shifts. But if that happens I can deal with it; only there for 2 weeks and I've gotten on really well with all my coworkers from my last 2 jobs I just got socially rejected 2 years into my first job and I think that kind of sticks to you esp when you don't want it to

Anyway being invited out is nice. I am going to have one drink and it's gonna be a single. Coworker even drove me home to save me the hour cycle today

Confidence is so shook up dont know if ill ever get a new job