i love you guys

hi :),

SO, as some of you may have noticed i’m not being very active here as i once was. this site was my refugee for 7 years but nowadays it’s just like a photo album that i visit from time to time and feel nostalgic all the way. as i’m writing this it feels like i’m writting a goodbye letter to a friend and it’s SO WEIRD bc this is just a site you know asdfghj but i did meet some amazing people here and i always felt welcomed by everyone that i interacted with, and i do miss this friendly fun crazy enverioment, but “real life” is requiring more responsability from me, so i don’t have the time to make gifs or to be here queueing posts and scrolling all day asdfghl also i feel good enough to face my problems instead of hiding here and pretending this is an alternative reality where everything is fun and good, i’m very happy for that!! ANYWAYS, this blog will become an archive (if something really shitty happens i may come back as a defense mecanism ? but i hope not lol) 

and to END this just wanna say thank you to my beloved mutuals for being incredible i miss reading your ramblings or going crazy over some badass edit you make or some masterpiece you write!!!!! if any of you wanna keep in touch somehow here’s my insta (if you request to follow me, let me know who you are there so i can accept - also i will soon be running an artsy insta to share my drawings, its called a.doreart 🥺 it would be great to have yall there) spotify, twitter…i think that’s all! NEVER FORGET YOU’RE AN AMAZING PERSON AND DESERVES EVERYTHING GOOD! Hope you have a nice life, stay hydrated, etc

love u, 

nic <3

hi :),

SO, as some of you may have noticed i’m not being very active here as i once was. this site was my refugee for 7 years but nowadays it’s just like a photo album that i visit from time to time and feel nostalgic all the way. as i’m writing this it feels like i’m writting a goodbye letter to a friend and it’s SO WEIRD bc this is just a site you know asdfghj but i did meet some amazing people here and i always felt welcomed by everyone that i interacted with, and i do miss this friendly fun crazy enverioment, but “real life” is requiring more responsability from me, so i don’t have the time to make gifs or to be here queueing posts and scrolling all day asdfghl also i feel good enough to face my problems instead of hiding here and pretending this is an alternative reality where everything is fun and good, i’m very happy for that!! ANYWAYS, this blog will become an archive (if something really shitty happens i may come back as a defense mecanism ? but i hope not lol) 

and to END this just wanna say thank you to my beloved mutuals for being incredible i miss reading your ramblings or going crazy over some badass edit you make or some masterpiece you write!!!!! if any of you wanna keep in touch somehow here’s my insta (if you request to follow me, let me know who you are there so i can accept - also i will soon be running an artsy insta to share my drawings, its called a.doreart 🥺 it would be great to have yall there) spotify, twitter…i think that’s all! NEVER FORGET YOU’RE AN AMAZING PERSON AND DESERVES EVERYTHING GOOD! Hope you have a nice life, stay hydrated, etc

love u, 

nic <3

hi :),

SO, as some of you may have noticed i’m not being very active here as i once was. this site was my refugee for 7 years but nowadays it’s just like a photo album that i visit from time to time and feel nostalgic all the way. as i’m writing this it feels like i’m writting a goodbye letter to a friend and it’s SO WEIRD bc this is just a site you know asdfghj but i did meet some amazing people here and i always felt welcomed by everyone that i interacted with, and i do miss this friendly fun crazy enverioment, but “real life” is requiring more responsability from me, so i don’t have the time to make gifs or to be here queueing posts and scrolling all day asdfghl also i feel good enough to face my problems instead of hiding here and pretending this is an alternative reality where everything is fun and good, i’m very happy for that!! ANYWAYS, this blog will become an archive (if something really shitty happens i may come back as a defense mecanism ? but i hope not lol) 

and to END this just wanna say thank you to my beloved mutuals for being incredible i miss reading your ramblings or going crazy over some badass edit you make or some masterpiece you write!!!!! if any of you wanna keep in touch somehow here’s my insta (if you request to follow me, let me know who you are there so i can accept - also i will soon be running an artsy insta to share my drawings, its called a.doreart 🥺 it would be great to have yall there) spotify, twitter…i think that’s all! NEVER FORGET YOU’RE AN AMAZING PERSON AND DESERVES EVERYTHING GOOD! Hope you have a nice life, stay hydrated, etc

love u, 

nic <3

heliophilia: (n.) desire to stay in the sun; love of sunlight

ecstatic shock: (n.) the surge of energy upon catching a glance from someone you like—a thrill that starts in your stomach, arcs up through your lungs and flashes into a spontaneous smile—which scrambles your ungrounded circuits and tempts you to chase that feeling with a kite and a key.

flaneur: (n.) a person who strolls the city in order to experience it .

heartworm: (n.) a relationship or friendship that you can’t get out of your head, which you thought had faded long ago but is still somehow alive and unfinished, like an abandoned campsite whose smoldering embers still have the power to start a forest fire.

wanderlust: (n.) a strong desire or urge to wander or travel and explore the world roam and be free.

xeno: (n.) the smallest measurable unit of human connection exchanged between passing strangers—a flirtatious glance, a sympathetic nod, a shared laugh about some odd coincidence—moments that are fleeting and random but still contain powerful emotional nutrients that can alleviate the symptoms of feeling alone

aesthete: (adj.) someone with deep sensitivity to the beauty of art or nature.

keyframe: (n.) a moment that seemed innocuous at the time but ended up marking a diversion into a strange new era of your life—set in motion not by a series of jolting epiphanies but by tiny imperceptible differences between one ordinary day and the next.

sanctuary: (n.) a comforting place of refuge and rest in a noisy, chaotic world.

raison d'être: (n.)  the most important reason or purpose for someone or something’s existence.

avenoir: (n.) the desire that memory could flow backward. We take it for granted that life moves forward. But you move as a rower moves, facing backwards: you can see where you’ve been, but not where you’re going.

afterglow: (n.)   good feelings remaining after a pleasurable or successful experience.

dusk: (n.)  the darker stage of twilight.

euphoria: (n.)  a feeling or state of intense excitement and happiness.

ATONEMENT | 2007, dir. Joe Wright

Forgive me, little sister. I should’ve come back for you.

Ring the bell, and no one’s coming to help Your daddy lives by himself He just wants to love you as well, oh

GOLDEN