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Sebastian had taken up this hobby during sixth year, as a release for his stress of the previous year, as a way to clear his head and focus himself on something pleasant. Since then, he had become quite good at it. The sketches were all instantly recognizable and Sebastian thought he took great care in covering the pages as other classmates passed by, trying to get a peek at just what was on them. But it was no secret. Anyone could easily just follow his gaze back to Ominis. When he was sketching, the rest of the school seemed to melt away.

Today, Sebastian had excused himself from Ominis’s side with the excuse of needing to serve detention for disrupting a lecture. He packed up his materials and left Ominis sitting in the library working on an assignment at a table alone. He headed towards the library doors, even going as far as to open them without going through them, to really try to make it seem like he left. Then, he crept his way to an armchair that offered him a good view and the comfort he’d need since he knew he’d be there awhile.

Ominis was sitting with his head propped in his hand with his wand pointing at his book, speaking quietly to himself while his quill scrawled down his words on his parchment. Sebastian folded his sketchbook open to an empty page and pulled out a little packet of charcoal and an eraser and got to work, first taking in the shape of his face, something he could probably draw blindfolded at this point. He mapped out his hair, and the way one eye brow arched just a bit higher than the other as he focused to worked on his assignment. Merlin, he is beautiful.

Sebastian often blushed as he sketched Ominis, and now was no different. He shaded the angles of his jaw thinking about what he wouldn’t give to drag his lips along it. He sat there with a grin on his face and flushed cheeks, looking between Ominis and his sketchbook, as he got lost in his art. He barely noticed when Imelda sat down next to Ominis and started running her mouth in his ear. He just kept drawing.

“Ugh, I wish someone would look at me like that,” she said as she set her bag down on the table beside Ominis, and pulling out a textbook of her own. She rolled her eyes as she spoke and looked genuinely jealous of whatever affections she was speaking of.

“Hm? Like who looks at what?” Ominis turned his attention to her, setting his wand in the crease of his book.

Sebastian’s ears perked up at the sound of Ominis’s voice. He did a double take and met eyes with Imelda as she began to speak again. The color left his face as her words left her mouth.

“Like Sallow looks at you of course. While he’s sketching you. I don’t know how you get anything done, I’d never be able to focus knowing someones eyes are burning into me like that.” She said and gave a little chuckle, as though it was the most obvious thing in the world, not giving her words a second thought because surly Ominis had to know he was always the subject of his best friends hobby.

“Is Sebastian here?” Ominis asked her quickly and in a hushed tone. “He told me he was serving a detention...”

It was only then that she realized he had no idea. Ominis had no idea that Sebastian was drawing him... Not now, or ever. She cleared her throat and shot Sebastian an apologetic look, realizing she had crossed a line in which Sebastian was clearly not ready to cross. “Um…” She could think of absolutely no good way to answer him.

Sebastian hastily shut his sketchbook, stuffed his charcoal and eraser back into their little drawstring

pouch and tried to shove everything back into his satchel as fast as he could. His mind was scrambling, this was not a conversation he wanted to have with Ominis. Not now and possibly not ever. Admitting these kinds of feelings for your closest friend was one thing but secretly sketching them for months without their knowledge…. Oh the very thought of him finding out made Sebastian's stomach churn.

As he was cramming everything into his bag, several sketches fell from the worn binding of his book. The sounds of paper scattering caught Ominis’s attention and he just knew that it was him, that Sebastian was in fact here. Sitting just a few yards away from him, this whole time. Sebastian grabbed the loose pages, his bag, and shot Imelda a scornful look before tearing out of the library, before Ominis had even finished getting out of his seat to approach him.

But Sebastian couldn’t hide forever. Not from Ominis, anyway. Ominis actually thanked Imelda for her slip of the tongue, with a flushed face. He gathered his classwork and made his way out of the library as well, the corners of his mouth pulling upwards in a satisfied grin.

The obvious first place Ominis decided to look for Sebastian was the undercroft. He strode through the clockwork door with his wand outstretched in front of him, into the middle of the room and listened carefully. Silence. Perhaps this was too obvious a place for Sebastian to run off and hide at. Just as Ominis was heading back through the gate, he heard the exhale of a deep breath. He was here. He turned back around and called out this time. “Sebastian. I know you’re here. I heard you breathing,” Ominis stated and waited for Sebastian to relent.

Sebastian scoffed, but before he spoke, his voice softened. “Listen, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you-”

Ominis cut him off, “You don’t have to apologize, Sebastian.” His voice sounded… sweet. Too sweet, in Sebastian’s opinion, for him to be angry about the bomb Imelda dropped on him out of no where. He sounded flattered. “I… I don’t mind if you sketch me.”

“Well, thanks. That… that certainly makes things easier.” Sebastian replied and gave a nervous chuckle.

“I wish I could see your sketches. To see how you view all of your friends, you know? I find the concept of art very interesting. Who else have you drawn?”

Oh of course. Of course Ominis wouldn’t assume he’s the only one Sebastian has been sketching all this time. But he was. That didn’t mean Sebastian was any more ready for that question. It hit him like a spell to the chest. Sebastian ran his hand along the back of his neck and paced a bit, trying to think of an answer that wouldn't be absolutely foolish.

But Sebastian was nothing if not foolish at times, and he settled on putting honesty above his pride this time. He felt he owed Ominis some honestly around this for a change. “I haven’t sketched anyone else. I haven’t sketched anything else.”

The thick silence that hung in the air felt crushing. Surly Sebastian should have said anything else. He should have lied. Ugh what a way to break your feelings to someone. But when he finally replied, Sebastian felt a rush of relief, Ominis again, sounded flattered.

“Oh.”

“Mhm.”

“Why me… why only me?”

“I mean…” Sebastian sighed and let that nervous laugh fall from his lips again. “You just look like you were born to be drawn. Your features… Your… bone structure.” He swallowed hard after answering. He wasn’t lying. Ominis already looked like artwork walking around the castle everyday. He deserved to be recognized for the beauty he was. “And I mean, you’re my best friend. I feel more comfortable just drawing you.”

“I see.” Ominis sounded only half convinced, mostly because Sebastian was only giving him half of the truth. But his curiosity was sufficiently satiated for now.

Before he even knew what he was saying or why, Sebastian blurted out, “Maybe you can pose for me at some point.” He felt his skin get hotter as he spoke and could feel his heart race in his chest while he waited for Ominis to answer.

“Sure, I guess. I… Wouldn’t mind that.”

Sebastian let out a sigh of relief. “Alright then.” He cleared his throat. This was incredibly awkward, but, at least he agreed. “Well… I’ve got class. I’ll see you later in the common room, then.”

“See you.” Ominis replied.

Sebastian headed out of the undercroft quickly, and made his way to his NEWT Potions class, where he’d be able to completely focus his mind on something else for awhile. He welcomed the distraction. Ominis paced around the undercroft a bit more now that he could be alone with his thoughts. He didn’t want to jump to any conclusions, but if his best friend felt so strongly about sketching him, indulging him in his hobby didn’t seem like it could hurt. He would leave the timing up to Sebastian and discuss it with him later. He headed back to their common room to resume his classwork that Imelda had interrupted earlier.

Despite spending dinner with each other as always, and spending the evening in the common room together, they let the topic of Sebastian’s art lie for the time being, chatting about other things instead, as they usually would. Sebastian was intentionally trying to avoid the topic, and still feeling a bit embarrassed over the way his little habit got revealed to Ominis, while Ominis didn’t see it as too big of a deal, was still feeling flattered, and was not thinking it was something that needed further discussion, at the moment, anyway…

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The following morning was another story however. Ominis always rose earlier than Sebastian, and he readied himself for the day quickly and headed down to the common room, where Imelda could also always be found stretching and having some tea, before making her way to the grounds for flying time before breakfast.

Assuming she’d be there as usual, Ominis called out for her as he entered the common room.

“Over here.” She called back and he let his wand guide him towards the sound of her voice. She was sitting on the couch.

“Are we alone?” He asked as he sat beside her.

“Mm, mostly. Couple of lower years about. Only a few. What is it?” “How long have you known about Sebastian sketching me?” He asked her quietly, leaning in towards her slightly as he spoke.

She let out a hum, as though she was expecting more questions on the subject since she had inadvertently let it slip yesterday. As expectant as she was, her first instinct was to deflect. “Why don’t you talk with him about that?”

“I did. I found him yesterday after he left the library. I just wanted more clarification than I felt like he’d have been comfortable giving me in the moment.”

This little bit of coaxing was enough to get her to answer him. “Hm. Well. I’ve known for awhile. He thinks he’s slick covering the pages with his hand when someone walks by, but he doesn’t ever take his eyes off you. It isn’t his best kept secret, that’s for sure. That being said, I thought you were aware. Obviously.”

“Have you seen them? The sketches. What am I doing in them?”

“Everyday things. Just… being. Nothing inappropriate, if that’s what you’re getting at.”

Ominis nodded. He appeared to have thoroughly satisfied his curiosity now. He thanked her before getting up and heading to get himself some tea of his own.

It wasn’t long before Sebastian had awoken and made his appearance around the common room. He blushed at his first sight of Ominis for the day, and thought back on their chat from the previous day.

He was feeling more confident now, given that the rest of their evening the day before went smoothly and without awkwardness. He felt ready to plan a time for them to meet for their little arrangement.

“Morning, Ominis.” Sebastian greeted his friend as he approached him. He had been sitting in an armchair along the common room wall.

“Good morning, Sebastian.” He said with a little smile.

“I was thinking this evening after dinner we could meet at the room of requirement, if you’re still willing to pose for me, that is.” He spoke in a low voice, a hint of trepidation present.

“Of course. Yes, I’m still willing to do that.” His reply came easily, much to Sebastian’s relief. And Sebastian couldn’t be certain, but he was nearly positive that Ominis’s face reddened slightly as he assured Sebastian he was still on board.

“Right. Ok then, I’ll see you there this evening.”

The rest of the day went on as per usual, breakfast, classes, lunch, studying in the library, more classes, and finally, dinner. Sebastian found as dinner was nearing an end, he was becoming ever more nervous. He couldn’t pin point why, when he had drawn Ominis countless times, and now, finally, he had Ominis’s permission. Not only that but approval. Willingness to participate, even. But that’s what made it so nerve racking. Why was Ominis so willing? The possibility of him returning Sebastian’s feelings was absolutely too much to even consider. The mere thought of it made his knees feel weak and his heart palpitate. No matter how enticing the idea, Sebastian forced it from his mind as quickly as it crossed it, else he may not have had the strength to climb the seemingly infinite number of stairs to the seventh floor.

Despite leaving the Great Hall at the same time, the two did not make the trek to the seventh floor together. Sebastian first had to go back to his dorm room to gather his supplies. When it wasn’t on his person, he kept his sketch book at the bottom of his trunk at the foot of his bed. He pulled it out and packed it up, along with his charcoals and an eraser, put everything into his bag, and then he was off to meet Ominis, who headed off right after dinner.

When Sebastian approached the hallway, he faced the blank wall he paced, thinking of his need to meet with Ominis to get the door to appear, and it did. He headed inside. This was a version of the room he’d not seen before. There were already art supplies here – an easel, new sketch books, jars of fixative, weaponously sharp sticks of charcoal in more variety of hardness than Sebastian held in his personal collection. He shouldn’t have been surprised… the room does provide what’s needed. The room was smaller and more intimate that it had ever previously appeared to Sebastian. Ominis was inside, in the middle of the room, sitting on a stool with the most perfect and most magical lighting cast upon him. It was though the lighting was tailor made to highlight the bone structure of Ominis’s face, the glistening of the golden strands of his hair, and the angular cut of his jawline. All of Sebastian’s favorite features to draw. He had never seen Ominis look more perfect than he did in this moment. He looked like an absolute treasure.

“Wow,” Sebastian muttered.

“Did the room deliver?” Ominis wondered.

He quickly snapped out of his trance and gave an appropriate answer. “Did it ever. My own little art studio. It’s perfect.”

Sebastian dragged a small end table over to the provided easel and began perusing the stash of supplies shelved along the walls for what he wanted to use, and setting things up on the end table. Ominis sat on the stool, tipping it back and forth with his heels pressed to the floor.

“How do you want me?” Ominis asked, definitely not meaning for this to be construed in the way that Sebastian’s mind did initially.

Sebastian almost choked, stifling a giggle before shaking his head as though to rid it of the nonsense in his brain. “How you’re sitting is fine. But…” He approached Ominis slowly, and reached nervous fingers forward for the clasp of his robe. “Let’s take this off…. It really... inhibits your form.”

“Ah, of course.” Ominis replied, shrugging his robe off into Sebastian's hands, a playful tinge to his voice. He smiled as Sebastian pulled the robe away and walked to hang it over another chair in the room.

“You know, I haven’t done very many full body sketches like this. I appreciate you letting me do this.” Sebastian thanked him and readied a sheet of sketch paper on the easel. “Just, try to stay still, and I’ll get started.”

“Mhm. This is an interesting feeling, you know?”

“What, exactly?”

“Knowing that you see me as something worthy of… appreciation, like this.”

Sebastian had barely began stroking the charcoal against the paper before he set it down to digest Ominis’s words. “Well… does it feel good?”

“Well it’s certainly not a bad feeling.” he chuckled, “Just an unexpected one. But, I am very flattered.”

Sebastian smiled, and was thankful for the fact that Ominis couldn’t see the blush rising on his cheeks. “You do make a good subject. I’m not sure I could stand to stare at anyone else for so long.”

Ominis chuckled a bit and fidgeted with his hands in his lap. Sebastian was back to working the charcoal against the paper, his dark eyes floating between Ominis and his sketch. Time passed slowly, with the two mostly in silence from then on.

An hour must have passed since their last words. Sebastian took a step back and admired his work thus far, deciding he wanted to change the placement of one of Ominis’s arms. He walked towards him and muttered a quick “may I?” before taking his right hand and moving it from his lap to resting on the edge of the stool at his side, with his elbow slightly bent.

This time Sebastian was certain, Ominis blushed as he arranged his body, and Sebastian could feel heat rising in his own cheeks in response. “That’s nicer.” Sebastian said finally, taking a step back to admire the updated pose. “You look relaxed. Why don’t we roll up your sleeves, too?”

“Alright.” Ominis agreed and began to reach a hand towards the other to pull his sleeves up before Sebastian caught his wrist and put it back where it was.

“You stay still, let me. Can’t have you moving too much or it will mess up my shading.” Sebastian instructed. Maybe it sounded believable, he hoped it did. But really he just wanted another excuse to put his hands on Ominis. He unbuttoned the little button at Ominis’s wrist and folded the sleeve up a few times to his forearm. Sebastian inhaled shakily as his fingers dragged against Ominis’s pale skin as he moved up the fabric.

“Ah, of course. Can’t mess up your shading.” Ominis’s other arm laid across his lap while Sebastian did the same to the sleeve on that arm, the gentle and light brushing of Sebastian’s fingertips against Ominis’s skin sent goosebumps down Ominis’s arms and left him undeniably red in the face.

Sebastian grinned as he stepped back to the easel. “There. This is a good look for you, you know.” He said as he picked back up his charcoal and got back to work.

“Is it now? Well, it’s definitely outside of my typical styling.” He replied with a soft laugh.

“I know, that’s why I like it so.” Sebastian said, his smile must have been audible because Ominis gave him one in return right away.

“You know, if you’re wanting to style me outside of my typical fashion, I could do this…” Ominis offered, his voice heavy with mischief. Sebastian directed his gaze away from his sketch to see what Ominis was talking about. He looked up in time to see Ominis had brought his fingers to the buttons of his waistcoat, and began to undo them slowly.

Sebastian crossed the room to him quickly, grabbing both of his wrists gently and stilling them, before speaking to him in a quiet playfully scolding tone, “Keep your hands in place, Ominis.” He guided his hands back to their posed position. “Let me do it.”

“Be my guest, then.” Ominis permissed with a grin crossing his face as he felt Sebastian’s hands move to his buttons.

Sebastian stood close to Ominis, leaning over him slightly, Sebastian's warm and unsteady breath finding Ominis’s forehead, giving him chills, as Sebastian undid the buttons of the waistcoat, letting the garment hang more casually from Ominis’s shoulders. The tension between the two was undeniable, but Sebastian did his best to ignore it. He exhaled deeply as he adjusted the fabric just right, and made his way back to the easel.

The only sounds in the room were the scratches of the charcoal against the paper and the quiet breathing of the two. Slow, intentional breaths, both of them trying to appear calm to the other. Sebastian’s hand trembled every so slightly now, as he looked over Ominis with an insatiable desire in his eyes. He let his gaze rest on his forearms. Such an inconspicuous part of him, yet one that was so rarely seen under Ominis’s typically more formal dress. Sebastian took care to add the details of the lean muscle and protruding veins along his arms to his sketch, and took equal care to chisel the actual form in front of him into his memory.

He kept on and kept on. Sketching wasn’t usually this slow a process for Sebastian. He didn’t mean to, but this time, having his muse actually pose intentionally for him, he indulged his eyes greedily for far too long, apparently. Ominis’s posture slowly sank, and his expression grew tired as time passed. It was late in the evening now, definitely past curfew. Even in his viably tired state, Ominis didn’t complain.

Sebastian was nearly finished, with his sketch, but not quite. His eyes were tired, but so fulfilled. “It’s almost done,” He assured in a soft voice. “I know it’s late, I appreciate you sitting for me for so long. Truly.” Ominis smiled at him and gave him a nod as he straightened up his posture.

About twenty minutes later, Sebastian set his charcoal down and roughly brushed his hands together trying to rid them of at least some of the excess charcoal dust. He took deep breath and sighed happy as he sat back and admired his work. It was his best sketch yet, he was proud of himself and he beamed thinking of how lucky he was that Ominis agreed to pose for him like this.

Ominis could feel the mood shift in the room. While he was sketching, Sebastian grew serious and mostly silent. The air felt lighter now. “All finished?” He wondered.

“I am.” Sebastian confirmed. “It’s my best piece yet.”

“I’m glad.” Ominis said, sounding genuine. He shifted in his seat, stretching out his back and rolling his shoulders a few times. His body was stiff from posing for hours now.

Sebastian crossed the room over to him. “I just, I don’t know how to even thank you for letting me do this… How can I repay you?”

Ominis chuckled and shook his head slightly, “You don’t have to repay me, Sebastian. Like I said… knowing how you see me, as something special… It’s a nice feeling. That made be happier than you could know.”

“Is that so?” Sebastian asked, raising a brow, his voice growing playful. As quickly as the playfulness came on, it had passed, his next words sounding much more serious. He didn’t want them misconstrued as a joke. “I’m glad I could make you feel happy. You make me feel… more than just happy.”

Ominis’s cheeks flushed and he let out a sigh. He tilted his head up towards Sebastian’s voice. He could tell he was standing close in front of him. He slid forward off of the stool he had posed on, making Sebastian take a step back, else get bumped into. They were still standing closely enough to feel the others soft breathing.

They didn’t need words anymore. It was clear after the hours in this room together, their little bouts of flirting punctuating the long stretches of silence while Sebastian worked, their most recent sentiments towards each other... Their feeling were mutual and there was an understanding between them finally.

Sebastian smiled and exhaled the smallest laugh. He brought his hands to cup Ominis’s face, just holding it tenderly for a few moments, taking in the feel of his warm skin, before closing the gap between them and pressing their lips together firmly. Sebastian held the kiss for a few seconds before letting up, still holding his face gently, stroking his cheeks with his thumbs.

Ominis grinned and leaned his forehead against Sebastian’s and brushing their noses together. He rested his hands on Sebastian’s hips and brought his body closer. He spoke softly to Sebastian, “Well… I’d say you’ve thanked me for my time sufficiently, now.”

“I don’t know… You sat there for an awfully long time,” Sebastian reminded, bringing their lips together again, keeping him longer this time and humming in satisfaction as he took in the feel of Ominis’s lips with his own.

“And I’d do it again, if this was my repayment,” Ominis told him through a grin when their kiss broke.