Mahan's 27th Heaven

"Oh, my beautiful Starlight's... Come to my presence, and glorify my unknown beauty! For I am nothing without you, but a freak in the void of space..."

1. I saw some people having headcanons that Caine bites Jax when he is frustrated with him, and most of the circus crew don't do much to correct him or anything like that cuz yk, Jax is a d!ck, and he deserves it most times.

But what if Caine bit Jax, people start telling him to stop and because he was too focused on it, or he was under the assumption they were on the "nooo, stopaaaahhh" kind of thing or whatever, making him not let go until someone went and were able to separate them and starts to scold Caine.

I've been into this situation sometimes, mostly trying to defend someone or thinking we were playing, and people would say stop and my brain would take too long to process it or it would interpret them as just people being silly/not really meaning it, and only when they got real mad at me would I really what I was doing and be filled with guilt and shame. I've never seen anyone else have any problem like this, and especially as time has passed I think that it's been quite a few years(?) since something like that ever happened again, but it's something that shaped me to be very careful all the time with how I protect or joke around people.

2. Which I think would be better with irl Caine au's, especially cuz it's something that I've been struggling a lot with especially more recently in my life. Not knowing/being unable to identify whether someone is expressing genuine interest for me or just wants to take some kind of advantage of me.

Jax would come over to Caine and start asking questions about him, like his past life, things that he likes and etc, but the longer they talk (and in the ctrl-alt-del au ver, the longer Caine gets paranoid), he notices that Jax's smile looks weird... I don't know how to describe it even, it feels kind of malicious, ready to laugh or something like that?? Idk how to describe them, but he notices it and now he is confused if Jax wants something more than just know more about him, or not...

I've been getting this a lot recently from people around me in this new inviroment I'm in, and it feels weird, really weird... Idk how to describe it further.

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I guess that's all that I had to really say. Just somethings I struggle/struggled with that may give some people some writing/drawing inspo? Idk..

I'm currently having every wednesday a neuropsychologist appointment for the suspicion of autism, and dawg.

Whoever put chemicals in the water keep going, them frogs need to be GAYER!!!

Honestly tho, I love this au :3