i'll eat you up

I be wanting to crash my car so fucking bad

im so tired of being lonely but not wanting to be around anyone because i dont deserve it

at the point where im genuinely considering sh just to feel something instead of just fucking hollow all the time

maybe i am just unworthy of love and thats why it will never come my way lmfao. being literally actually ugly doesnt help either. i should die

nah. nahhhhhhhhh fr i need to die

holy FUCK i really am never going to be able to behave normally am i. thank you dad i cannot ever socialize because of you

Crazy to think that everything wrong with me is because my dad just couldnt be a good fucking dad. Like thanks to you being an asshole I will never be able to socialize properly and always struggle with any kind of relationship. Thanks.

realizes its been almost 10 years since i tried to kill myself. i will get it right this time 🫡

The urge to self destruct so that it cant possibly matter to anyone when i die

Im never going to matter to anyone as much as they matter to me so I should just. kill myself already. Why am i even waiting.

I dont know why i ever thought life would get better I dont deserve any of the people I have and theyd be better off without me and frankly I dont know why i keep entertaining the idea that they even tolerate me

Why cant i just die without it being my fault