Welcome to Hell

for example

someone: dazai you need therapy

dazai: no way they'll take my funny bone ! therapy is for suckers

someone: ... i think atsushi would benefit from therapy

dazai: oh yea probably

someone: but you know he has trouble asking for help but if theres someone already showing him that therapys fine...

dazai: ...he'll go... hmmm well as his senpai i should lead by example!!

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dazai: i don't have trauma - like i didn't go through anything bad

someone: well what if atsushi went through what you did

dazai:

dazai: oh shit-

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dazai: treatment wont help me - why should i bother

someone: well atsushi's been leaning towards getting it-

dazai: oh i dont want him to feel alone....

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dazai: even if i did come to enjoy life - it's the part of it i dont deserve - the ppl i've tricked into thinking theres something worthwhile in me-

someone: oh i literally just heard atsushi say he thought the same thing-

dazai, already rushing towards atsushi to explain that theyre both wrong: shit-

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like obviously he's not magically better but ya know i like the idea that dazai just doesnt understand / want to understand that mayhaps he should get help until someones like put atsushi in ur shoes

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i cant decide if itd be funner if atsushi knew or didnt know what was going on

like on one hand atsushi could be very pleased at how much dazai cares about him - on the other hand he could still be pleased by dazai's care while being confused why he comes to atsushi randomly and tries to convince him to do things he's already doing

dazai: atsushi! therapy is good for you!

atsushi, who's already chosen a therapist, confused: i mean yeah-

dazai: you shouldn't feel bad or weak for seeking it! in fact, it very brave to be able to reach out like that!