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I’m so sad I gave away my book of czeslaw milosz poems when I moved. Gonna buy another

I really want to learn how to still be content with and show up for your life as it currently is, even after you’ve admitted to yourself that you really want to be in a different place. I’ve lost the ability to just put those thoughts away and do well at my job, be present, and take advantage of the gifts that I do have in front of me. I think it’s just hard because I know there’s no escaping the monastic feeling of my life, at least not until I find a way to move out, but even then. I don’t know how to not notice or let it affect me that I’m 26 and I’m watching my friends in other places experience some of the most textured and exciting parts of their lives while mine just seems to be passing me by. I hope gratitude and meditation and shifting my focus will help, but I don’t know if those things will be enough

I love blowing people’s minds by telling them that Harmony Korine is an Iranian Jew lol nobody believes me but I think it’s the funniest celebrity claim to fame that we have