Ok, fine, controversial yutti time. This is long, personal, and not like my usual posts, so, warning there.
Iâve never been to a pride parade, and I donât want to. all that said, my info could be off here, but Iâve just heard this multiple times without valid refute.
I donât care how âfor the outcastsâ pride parades are, people cannot go to pride parades visibly sexualizing themselves or showing off their kinks when thereâs KIDS around. And yes thereâs going to be kids around! Is it not a space for all? Is it not the goal to prove that being gay isnât perverted and is normal and pure? Itâs not a âwell those kids are not my problem. Iâm here to express myselfâ sort of thing. Dude, not showing sexual things to kids is a CIVIL DUTY. More than that itâs illegal to do the opposite! End of story. Thereâs no valid rebuttal to that. I donât care if that makes your life harder!
I donât know, honestly thereâs a lot of sketchy stuff going on in the lgbtq community that people just overlook because theyâre already hated on enough. And I am SO off kilter about it right now. Itâs really starting to make me think that being gay or trans is rightfully bad because this is just the core of the community. If âjust two boys in loveâ is the same as whatever that is then gosh stay away from it.
Drag queens are another thing. The idea itself isnât inherently bad (dressing up as a campped out version of something), but the drag queen connotation? Actually sexual. Most of them are from clubs, most of them sexualize their outfits because clubs, and most of them talk in a dirty way per their persona. These arenât good things to be doing, but this isnât like super bad for adults to see. But I understand why parents would not want drag queens with easily accessible explicit history to be going to schools talking to their kids. Or otherwise itâs easily accessible to learn about drag queens then find the wrong path of them quick. Listen, drag queens do some really cool stuff, but the fact still remains that most of them are a club presence, which the adult club scene is not for kids. I donât think showing kids someone dressed up extravagantly in sfw drag is bad, but itâs the connection. Itâs important, and I feel itâs brushed off to the side once again because gay people have been through too much. Drag queen idea = cool. Drag queens unfortunately being inherently still connected to explicit material = BAD. NOT FOR KIDS.
and yes Iâm gonna bring up THE OTHER controversial thing and thatâs allowing kids under 18 to take HRT. I get it they may feel lost in their own body, but goodness theyâre still growing let them cook! Everyone feels a little weird in their growing bodies! A lot of people take HRT by mistake because theyâre too young. Let them experiment, let them learn who they are, but donât let them permanently change their body until theyâre sure. I wouldnât recommend it until someone is like 21 actually. If they really are gender dysphoric, thereâs other things to do. How many health complications will this cause? How many people are pushed to do HRT just because they think itâs the next thing to do? Also, Iâm gonna be honest, Iâm not sure HRT is the solution to body dysmorphia. I donât like plastic surgery unless itâs truly needed, and I donât like putting chemicals in peopleâs bodies when theyâre healthy without it. I mean, do we really know what the long term side affects of this is? Doesnât it neuter people? Isnât that bad?
and unfortunately I have had gender dysphoria! And I have considered testosterone. And I hate admitting that, Iâve never admitted that on here despite stating Iâve wanted to be a man, but my friend pointed it out to me a bit ago that thatâs what it was: gender dysphoria. I always said I had gender euphoria not gender dysphoria, but apparently thatâs the same thing. I wanted to be a man so bad. I wanted the physique, the voice, the overall ability to be a hot man. But gosh if I took T that wouldnât be me. I am a woman, and being a girl is what made me me. I know itâs not the same for all trans people, but I just canât get the thought out of my mind that if it was like that for me, it was probably like that for a lot of people. After all, you sorta do research on if youâre trans or not based on other peopleâs experiences. And the internet, gosh the internet makes things so happy. But how nice is it being trans in real life? Itâs not nice! For multiple reasons (I will say usually hate which does suck)! But the idea of at least pretending to be a man online⌠it was so tantalizing. I would keep thinking of ways to do it even after agreeing Iâm not a man. Heck I thought of a new one today. But, gosh whatâs the point if itâs not me! I donât wanna live a life online, I wanna live a life irl! Which is why I hate social media sometimes. Ultimately I pretend online to let my creativity flow, but I want my creativity to flow in real life!
Listen, with all this, Iâm just saying conservatives are asking valid questions, and they gets tossed to the side too easily. And I came to the gayest site to talk about this because of course I did.
Okay, Iâm a Christian, and Iâve been struggling on whether being queer is a sin or not for YEARS. Probably since I was 10. YES Iâve prayed about it, but I donât feel like Iâve gotten a clear answer. Every time I try to live like itâs a sin, Iâm pulled back, and every time I try to live like itâs not a sin, Iâm pulled back from that too. And Iâve covered it up on both sides for so long. In real life, I act like of course being queer is a sin. Online, I say words of affirmation that being queer isnât a sin, but I donât really know. I think, âthere is good in being queer, so it canât possibly be a sin!â Then I think âthere is obviously something wrong with it, which makes it not the way God designed, which makes it pointless, which makes it a sin.â And then of course thereâs how unChristian affirming Christians act, like actually a lot of them say a lot of major things that are not correct, and it makes me lose hope that queerness was ever anything remotely good. But of course then thereâs homophobes who actually just hate for no reason! And a bunch of fake Christians on that side too! Which really makes me never want to be a homophobe! But if I donât affirm queerness then I am a homophobe, and Iâm lumped together with all the actually hateful people. If I affirm queerness then Iâm a heretic, lumped in with all the people just saying soothing things.
I lean more towards conservatism because Iâm drawn toward some liberal ideas that Iâm not sure are really good (like queerness), and if I donât think theyâre good, thatâs draw of the flesh, and I donât want to live that way. But some conservative things are so stupid, and history has proven that progressive progression is usually the right way to go (ahem ahem SLAVERY) that I also canât help but feel thereâs some good in some liberal ideas. And there are things on both sides Iâm absolutely sure are not good. But queerness, being gay, being trans, is one of the things Iâve noticed is MOST controversial to talk about. And that messed me the heck up. Cause I havenât been able to talk to anyone about it except anonymously for ten years.
And I HATE that itâs so controversial! Weâre saying talking about two consenting adults being together is more controversial than ABORTION which is controversial because it may or may not be KILLING A PERSON??? BECAUSE YâALL DONâT LIKE THE FACT THAT GAY PEOPLE EXIST? ARE WE SERIOUS RIGHT NOW? Thatâs why so many people become âqueerâ when theyâre not, because you donât let them TALK about it and EXPLORE. Iâm in college now, and Iâve met a lot of people who donât like Trump, but they donât like gay people either. Iâve met people who are pro-choice, but they agree being queer is a sin and is not natural. It seems like the last line people cross before becoming liberal is whether you affirm queer people or not. People who are minding their own business living their lives it seems. Why? I mean, no I get why, but itâs still so baffling to me. It seems the most controversial thing you can talk about is your own lifestyle. Or not even that but the theoretical lifestyles of others cause you donât usually work up the courage to talk about yourself. Thatâs why I shout about gay people all the time on here, cause I canât do it irl. And maybe if I could have talked about it irl, I wouldnât be so confused about this now. I hate saying that too: confused.
anyways. Thereâs my crazy rant. I donât care anymore about being too scared to say what I wanna say. Iâm gonna try not to be. Even if Iâm wrong, I gotta say something to figure out whatâs right. I donât mean to treat this as my personal diary btw, but I kinda do anyways. So Iâm sorry about that. I know most people donât wanna read all that, and you definitely donât have to, but Iâm gonna post this. I need to get it off my chest. I love you guys, and God loves you too. Cya later!
