Every Thing Ever

when hayley williams said "i wasted all my teenage years being a misery factory" and marina said "wish i'd been a prom queen fighting for the title, instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible" and mitski said "instead of pursuing something or going out and learning about or changing the world, i directed all that fire inward, and burnt myself up"

Literally fetch the bolt cutters I’ve been in here too long

I’m sorry!!! I’m sorry that we can’t go back!!! And for all the things we can’t remember. But I’m glad we did it!! The love will always be there!

unfortunately if you are an old friend of mine i will always care about you no matter what even if we haven't seen each other in forever because i still remember what you were like 7 years ago and i still remember how it felt to be young with you and i still have a lot of love for you in the back of my mind

I miss everything and will never get any of it back. whatever

i like to pretend i already died and asked god to send me back to earth so i can swim in lakes again and see mountains and get my heart broken and love my friends and cry so hard in the bathroom and go grocery shopping 1,000 more times. and that i promised i would never forget the miracle of being here

this pride month I am wishing everyone a very stop overanalyzing yourself and just have fun with it. have gay sex. don't have any sex. try on a new gender. stop caring about gender at all. talk to your doctor about hormones. go on a date. break up with the person you dont love. whatever it is you have been putting off doing by dithering about it in your head. just do that and fully experience how it feels without trying to put it into words. if you still need a word for it later there will be one. they aren't going anywhere. but people were here before language and there's only so far language can go in giving you a fulfilling human experience. so if you are hiding behind finding the right words for whatever it is your heart wants i hope this month you get the courage to just do it instead.

i hate fashion and makeup i hate trends i hate pop culture i hate weight loss culture i hate neon heavy netflix movies i hate advertising schemes. none of it is real. nothing is real anymore. i want a teak cutting board and i want to slice cheese on it. i want to eat the cheese and feed it to the people i love. i want to exist without lying to myself or anyone else. i want art with integrity and i want to find it because someone i trust shows it to me. i want to choose the things that pull me and not to have to second guess. do you understand. i want to buy an old leather jacket secondhand and have my woman wrap herself around me and slide her hands into the pockets. is that really so much to ask

seeking jobs that are ethical and fun for women with mental illness. part time hours and a minimum of 5 grand per month pay (non negotiable)