You Have Lupin?

Anon, I’m sorry to hear this. Your PCP doesn’t seem to be taken your symptoms rather seriously. Are you young? I ask only because doctors tend to have a flippant attitude towards youth that only changed with something dire pops up. Anxiety has it’s own signs and symptoms that can work in conjuncture with lupus or RA if the central nervous system is involved, they seem rather ignorant and ready to pass you off to a Rheumatologist. I would honestly keep a rather detailed symptom journal, notate everything, everything that don’t appear “that serious.” You’d be surprised what a doctor who is willing and able to look at such a thing can find in correspondence. I know it’s scary prospect, but you need to be your number one advocate. If you’ve been doing what your doctor has suggested with little to no benefit, you need to say as much. Only you know what it is that you’re feeling, do not let the dictate such a serious thing to you. 

I’m alive, and maybe a little less than well, but I’m back. I’ll be cleaning things up, posting new stuff, and getting to everything I left behind last year. Of course, I made a post about that, but to reiterate--I lost someone I loved in the Orlando Pulse shooting. I’ve spent over a year mourning for them and my community, but I feel it’s time. 

I spent the first twelve hours frantically trying to reach all of my friends and relatives who might have been there that night. Unfortunately, I would learn through the news that someone I knew was one of those who lost their lives, and with the Westboro Baptist Church making their unwanted presence, I--and most of Orlando--have been trying to lay our loved ones to rest with the peace they were not afforded in life. I am emotionally and physically exhausted, and my heart is heavy, but I am here.

I just need a little time.