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This week have been intense.
I just got back from the last day of working, involuntarily - it was a new job and i haven't even finished my probation. Truth be told, it's not something i love to do but the career path looked promising, i was willing to settle down with it for a long while - because of the pandemic, i got cut off.
A lot of us did.
There were whispers here and there for weeks and i expected to be in the list anyway - cause i was one of the newest - but when it was announced, i couldn help but felt disappointed.
For all week, i was fine to be honest. I was prepared. But getting off work today, especially hearing my, supposedly, end-probation evaluation, and being told; i did a good job, excellent job even and full of potential; yet, due to the circumstances, they can't help but let me go. All sounds so pointless at this point. I was so mad. But i kept my cool.
I told myself everything will be fine and i can get another job later, after all this is over but while i was walking home, We are Bulletproof: the Eternal was playing, i bawled my eyes out, like a kid.
i know this is a long post but i don't know where to let it out. I haven't told my family. Not yet. They have their hands full already.
Anyways, stay safe everyone.
Dreams
When I opened my eyes, I couldn’t see much.
It was dark, which was odd because it never happened after dark, but then again I never had the privilege of knowing first hand how everything was going to take place.
This time it looked like I was standing in the middle of nowhere. I had been in nowhere before but in the end, it was always somewhere – I turned around, took one more look but still couldn’t see anything that might spark familiarity – usually, it was small details like a tree, a sign or even a person,…making nowhere became somewhere.
At cue, there were rustling sounds under my feet, ruffles in my ears and an open field across the street. I said it was a street but it was more of a narrow, rocky trail. As intriguing as watching everything started to make sense, I had no interest in crossing – I must wait here. I didn’t know for how long but I must. I waited until the winds picked up until there was the moon – a crescent one – in the sky. I waited until I shifted from one leg to another for how many times I lost count. Until I wanted to take a seat…
On my right, a bench suddenly presented itself. Tilted my head, I tried to recall if it was there the last time I turned around but I could not remember. I took the seat anyway.
I sat there for a more while, or at least I believed time did pass around here – It was always hard to grasp the blurry concept of time whenever I found myself in this position, nor feel, nor anything. Especially when I was waiting.
A lamp post made everything a bit brighter, a bus sign sprouted from my right, on which read the next stop was three minutes from now – It seemed I was waiting for a bus – It had always been a moving vessel. Last time it was a boat, the other time before it was a train, some other times were either a plane or even a roller coaster. But never a bus. First time for everything I guessed.
The bus in question slowly cut through the night, approaching the station at snail pace. From afar I spied it was a piece of junk; crusty, rusty, crackling on its track. Gusts of wind picked up fast. They combed through the wild grass, making them caressed each other, hissing sounds filled the void and I shivered under the cold. I wondered if it was warmer on the bus, maybe I could roll up the windows, that unless there were windows on that thing.
Would I need a ticket for it?
The bus ate its break in front of my eyes and its door sprung opened.
Guessed not.
The steps creaked under my weights, its whole head shifted to one side as where I stood. The driver seat was empty – there was no driver, no valet – the door automatically closed behind me and the wheels started moving. I should have been hesitant, should have a chill running down my back but my legs carried my way down the back like nothing happened. Someone was waiting for me and that was all I cared,
I took a seat on the far end, not quite the last row but right above the streaky tires. The seat by the windows as I expected was already taken.
“I’m sorry for this has no glass.” The person said, implying the lack of shield on the windows.
It was a man with a familiar face, one I had seen too many times to the point I could have easily pick him out in a queue, literary in my sleep. Though his hair was a bit longer since the last time I saw him, cheek hollower, eyes haunting, sunken, deepen – hovering above the left eye there was faded line I yearned to touch, which stood out even more as his face sharpen and skin darker. He looked like he terribly in need of a goodnight sleep.
“Since when do you have beard?” I asked wryly.
He consciously touched his chin, where said beard lay and twitched.
“I’ve been busy. Don’t you like it? I think it’s cool.”
I shrugged. “It’s different.”
Some extra body hair made him almost handsomely rugged, far different than the lanky boy I had in mind.
I should have known better; every time I saw him he was a bit foreign than the last. One day he showed up taller than me, one day way tanner, sometime in the past his face was full of pimples and the next with wicked jawlines. Though he never quite grew out of the length of his limbs, even they had muscle now; strong and lean muscles.
“How are you lately?”
“Fine, I guessed,” I said, blinking a tad too fast. “I think I was finishing up the last few pages of my latest draft when you called.”
I missed him.
When I was nine, I had a crush on this boy in my class. I didn’t remember how he looked like nor how I managed to develop feelings for him – the fact I could have a genuine emotional connection with anyone aside from my family was an amazing feast by itself – there was a lot of things I didn’t remember about him but there was one thing I did; his name.
“Deondre.” It’d been years since that name escaped my lips. It left a strange taste on my tongue, yet rolling out easier than I thought. That name held no significance to me but I guessed it had always been there, in the back of my mind, locked away, waiting to be drawn back out.
I couldn’t recall much what eventually came down between us – we were nine, so I reckoned not much – just some small interactions here and there or fragments of flashbacks. He and the memories about him faded as years passed, until one day I had no recall of him down the road. It would have been fine just like that, as a ‘good old time’, as a reminder I was not always as “cold” and “unbothered” as I was dubbed.
Until one day, he stood in front of me again.
The ‘reunion’ wasn’t what I expect it to be – a cup of coffee or tea would be nice, catching up with each other would be fine but definitely not on a moving train to nowhere.
I first dreamt of him when I was fifteen.
I couldn’t recall what went down, it was seven years ago after all. But I knew who he was the moment I lay my eyes on him. Maybe there wasn’t anything with that dream. Maybe I did spend the entire time looking at his face and wondered how – he looked different – but it was brief and sweet. The boy i had a crush on was lanky and awkward at best, the young man sat next to me radiated confidence. The boy I had a crush on would trip over his own feet while running up to me with a bar of chocolate in his hand on Valentine's day. The young man sat next to me flashed me a Colgate smile brighter than my future at the time. The boy had crocked teeth, he had perfect rows.
He took my hand in his and we sat like that not saying a single word.
I woke up with damp cheeks but brushed it off as a normal dream. I also brushed off the next, one half a year later, when Deondre took us on a boat ride. Also the third time, six months after that on a cruise ship, and the fourth…fifth…sixth…
Every time I opened my eyes it was just another dream, ones that would become blurry and dismissive when I got back to reality.
Deondre averted his eyes, fondling on the brim of his shirt. He was wearing a white tee, one side of his collar fold inward. My hands itch to straighten it up but instead of reaching out to him, I touched mine.
“Sorry to disturb you. Though I feel like it was necessary.” His voice was low, too low. “You were drinking, weren’t you?”
Alcohol and me, we were like ex-lovers. We pushed and we pulled, we were toxic to each other but the temptation was so attractive.
I didn’t get surprised. Deondre knew everything.
What I wasn’t expecting was the fact he mentioned it straight out - for the past ten years we never talked about anything that was outside what happened at the moment as reality was a taboo subject for both of us, it didn’t have a place in the unconsciousness. I thought we never would. We met, we made small talks about the flowers we saw on the way, how the clouds here were always the same shapes, or maybe we should be more creative and decorated next time with cotton candy and chocolate fountains. Sometimes we went out for a few walks before he sent me on my way.
The sunken eyes of his had dark bags now, I hadn’t noticed.
He took my hand in his, brought it to his lips. His breaths were so shaky I could feel it on my skin.
“Are you okay?”
He whispered against my skin. His voice was so grave, it broke my heart a little.
“I’m doing fine.”
“You know you don’t have to lie to me right?” He said. “You can’t actually”
I didn’t look at him, didn’t dare to. Instead, I was focus on something that wasn’t here.
“When was the last time you cried?”
“A while,” I said. “I missed it. Crying. It sucks and it hurts but at least it makes everything a bit bearable.”
“Then cry.”
“It won’t come out.” Shaking my head, I said bitterly. “Besides, for what? There is no reason for me to cry.”
“Did you talk about it-”
“Don’t.” I cut him mid-sentence. “Anything but that question.”
The bus stopped abruptly causing me to lunge forward, hitting my head into the seat in front. When I turned around to check on him, he wasn’t sitting any more but stood quietly in the walkway.
“Promise me that you will be fine. And be careful – “
“Of what?”
Biting his lip, the look on his face was grim. He took my hands again, this time it felt a bit cold. Or was it always cold?
“Of yourself. After all, isn’t it why I am here?” He said. “Inside your head. Confronting you, reminding you?”
Before I could say anything, he took my face by two hands, holding my nape and leaned forwards. His lips met mine in a rush and desperate attempt. His lips moved softly as warmth spread through my body.
“I want to see you again.”
And every time, wanted or not. I melted into the kiss.
.
.
When I opened my eyes again, I saw my messy desk with scattering drafts and books. The computer was still on, my fingers lingering on the keyboard for when I felt asleep I must be typing, which I would have to look over the whole page once again to got the feel back and knew where the hell I was in the story. But before that I needed to get rid of the feeling of loss and disorientation from blurry memories and incoherent patches of what I was dreaming, clouding my head.
There was no bus, no empty field or sign of another person in my room. Everything was a dream, like it always had been. Nothing seemed real except for the fathom touch on my lips.
I reached out for the cup of water I always kept on the stand nearby and downed it in one go when a small bottle of white pills caught my eyes, ignoring the golden whiskey right next to it.
In the back of my mind – a very, very, very far back section – I had an idea why he said what he said by the look of the full pill bottle. I couldn’t recall the last time I took one of those as I was prescripted. Right now I bet if I trade my way back to my schedules and emails, I would have a full inbox of notification plus reminders for unattended sessions.
In my defense, I was busy. The story couldn’t write itself and Mia – my editor – would have my ass if she didn’t get a full draft of it by the end of this week.
Once again, all the red flags were ignored. And I couldn’t remember what I was dreaming about.
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Reminiscing
When i was thirteen, whom i called my best friend back then, back stabbed me by “asking” her “friends” to hit me.
I am a stuck-up brat now but after life beat the shit out of you, you have to be a bit bratty to survive. Thirteen years old me was an angel - quiet, timid with fucked up family but nobody at that point knew. There was nothing that i did could make anybody want to “teach me a lesson”. Not that i’m aware of.
Thinking about it now, sitting down and recalled everything just to find out why and why she decided to do that; what did i do? how did she feel, towards whom to be the reason why she hit me? I know exactly why - yet, it was nothing, but for a thirteen years old, i guessed it was something. My “best friend” then was not as clever and discreet as she thought she was, as in my thirteen years old self was fully aware of the message and causes and the why(s) i was being bullied. But you know what was outrageous? I continued being her friend for the next two years, all the way until i graduated - watching what i said, how i should act, was my smile around her seemed too fake she will noticed? I was her “friend” but something in that thirteen years old mind of mine died a little with our “friendship”
Thinking about it now, it no longer triggered anything from me, not anymore, not for a long time. I don’t feel bitter or sour on the tip of my tongue saying her name, i don’t keep contact with her. I see her around on my feed here every now and then but since when did i feel a bit disgusted seeing her face, though - disgusted not scared? Then again, i do not have the wish to look into that, not anymore. It happened and like it or not, admit it or not, that two weeks of constantly having to watch my back ten years ago,one way or another, traumatized me - such event at such young age might have shaped my unconsciousness to be terrified of having “friends”
I have friends, not a lot, just a hand full of them but they are far more better than any “friends” i had. Yet, i couldn’t seem to make myself reach out to them. I trust them, i respect them but at any point they decided not to be in my life anymore, i don’t think i will miss them. Can i really, confidently say, i can turn to them anytime and believe they will always be there when i need? To not think twice about calling them? To be 100% sure they will take good care of me? No.
A lot of times, when i have to face hardships, when i struggled to wake up every morning or when i feel overwhelmed or suffocated of the highs and lows, i just sit there and realized how alone i am - sometimes i just couldn’t breath and i just craved; craved for any contact, a hug maybe, for warmth, for just a presence, for someone i can cling onto without being afraid they will think i’m pathetic and know, the “me’ they know weren’t even a scrap of the surface of how much of a mess i am.
I imagine it would be nice.
To have somebody you know you can always count on, to have somebody you know will always be there for you, someone you don’t have to think twice about reaching out, to have somebody who make you, no, you will want to do it yourself, dedicate your time and care and love for, to have somebody you genuinely be happy and proud of. Platonic or otherwise, does it even matter?
People talk about having “soulmates’ and if such thing exists, i’m jealous of people who found theirs - of someone you carry with you forever and nothing will ever change that.
More of Yuzuru’s interview at ACI 2019 above. Japanese article: https://www.jiji.com/jc/article?k=2019091600404&g=spo Note from translator, Shuko Doyle in YHIFG: This includes a lot more Q/As than the one I previously translated. I excluded the Q/As which I had already translated here. (posted here with her permission) (much thanks!)
Supporting you always, Yuzu!!!
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This is the full translation of the P&G Yuzu Day interview. 😃
Q: Your favorite place in your home?
Yuzu: My bed. I’m a lazy bum.
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