Jul 25
i could've done so much more. i could've set boundaries. rules. i could've told you to stop. i could've stopped myself. i didn't have to do any of that but i did. i should've forced you to get up. i should've tried harder to get you to de-isolate yourself and i didn't because i was selfish over you. my stomach twists and turns and aches and feels and rumbles and turns cold when i think of you.
the truth is i love you. i'll always love you, and i want to find myself by your side someday. things could've been better- but i chose to be selfish.
