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Tbh I’ve been having some mental health crises and had a good old menty b on new year’s, so I’ve just been focusing on getting through the day. I’ve been really depressed about all the misogyny, homophobia, and racism I see in general, and how they’re leaking into my fandom spaces, and when I started spiraling, I couldn’t stop and it did a number on me. But I’m trying to pull myself together and keep on doing what I think is critical in the current political climate—making queer art and boosting queer visibility, even if it’s just on tumblr and AO3 for now.

I know there aren’t many of us left, but fuck it. Maybe I’ll be fortunate enough for at least a few people to stick around, or maybe my content will help draw in new fans. All I can do is post my gay little truths and hope for the best, right?

It’s been hard on me to see such a lack of interest in the gay karate nerd boys after the show ended, but it’s ultimately outside of my control. All I can control is what I do, and how I choose to take care of myself in what’s (for now!) a lonelier space. I’m hoping that if I make an effort to be more active and engage with the fandom more, it will energize others and encourage them to do the same! I myself am terrible about interacting with other posts as much as I’d like, and since this is a sideblog, I can’t just give a like and come back later :( I’m going to make an effort to change that. What I miss the most about Elimetri is the community we formed, but I’m as crucial as anybody in bringing that back.

I can’t predict what’s going to happen with my ship’s fandom, and I’m not sure I want to know. I do enough worrying about the future of our planet and society at large! Right now, I’m trying to be cautiously optimistic about the binary boys and “live the moment,” as Eli’s dumb Matthew McConaughey ass would say. I mean hey, I still get comments on AO3, and people still read and interact with my stories—the Elimetri community DOES still exist!! And ultimately, as long as I have an audience, I will write. And I will talk about the lads. And the girlies, too, and the headcanons and the theories I have for these blorbos.

SPEAKING OF. Something BIG is coming!!! I have no idea when, but I’ve been cooking on an analysis that I hope will be this account’s magnum opus, and I’m so excited to share it with the internet. I feel like this is what I’ve been building up to since I started this account, and the time to release it is now.

Or. Yknow. In a few weeks. Whenever I have the energy XD

Possessed.

Closeted.

Fell off a fucking tree slamming against branches and almost got hung by his own backpack.

Shot a demogorgon.

Flayed.

Got burned alive internally.

Has an abusive father.

Got bullied harshly.

Has to watch his lover get with another girl who is his own sister and he thinks he’s undeserving of the love bc he’s gay.

Got treated like he was invisible.

SA’D BY VECNA AND THE MIND FLAYER.

DIED.

CAME BACK TO LIFE.

HAD EPISODES.

HAD HIS FEELINGS THROWN AWAY BY HIS BEST FRIEND WHO IS ALSO HIS LOVER.

HAD PPL SAYING THE REASON HE WAS MISSING WAS BECAUSE HE WAS HATE CRIMED FOR BEING GAY.

CALLED SLURS.

BOTH STEVE HARRINGTON AND TED WHEELER MADE HOMOPHOBIC COMMENTS ABOUT HIS DISAPPEARANCE.