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its been some days since i didnt talk to yall but i was hella sleepy plus school so didnt post a lot, i will maybe do a face reveal dont really know, do yall want it ???

but i will tell you about the update with my father, so everything has happen good, everything has got well ??? Weird cuz i thought i was going to get on fire but we talk, he of course start talking bad on my mother back but i said stop, and i was hella happy cuz that show how much i evolve.

Now i got something to talk...So ! its been some weeks i wanted to talk about it but i have start to wear "reveling" clothes or clothes that just show of my body whiteout showing clothes. And ive been getting some weird things on my body, ive got a cool ass, proud of it and sometime talk about it to joke about it but recently there's a girl on my class thats been lowkey is starting to make me uncomfortable, like not really but in the moment its embarrassing.

Like i was playing with my boy friends and she say something about my ass and i dont remember but i was lowkey playing along but thats was lowkey embarrassing. Of course i dont hate her, i even do pecks on her cheeks every time i see her but thats just lowkey weird here.

even my really close friends have starting to be lowkey weird about my body like this other girl when, theirs was a time i put a corset and gaine my body but recently stop and i dont know she lowkey said something about it and it wasn't really embarrassing but theirs was people with us and i dont really want people to hear about this phase of mine...

thats lowkey unwanted attention, the unwanted "compliment" when you dont really know if its jealousy or admiration or just want to make a funny joke.

HI !! so its my day one to post my life here and tell you about my day, im suppos to do it tonight but im too excited to wait !

So ! for me, right know it 9 am and i need to call my dad att 11 pm or am idk how it is for the English people cuz im not English im french, so ! why im writing about it ? Cuz its been two years my dad and i are not seeing each other cuz he was violent verbally and i think in your head you are thinking, "but that's shit ? Plus how he can be so violent that you had to stop your relation ? You a SOFTIE ?!"

SO ! My dad i think has bpd but is undiagnosed, why do i tell you this ? Cuz when he was yelling at me it was really bad...When i say really bad its bad...Like...BAD but then it was calm like a river, i know i should say this but my grand mother from his side has it, and when my mom left him he was really depress plus my psy is saying that i might have adhd or tdah.

And my mom has see it when she saw that i didn't wanted to see my father anymore so she ask me question and i tell her that my dad is violent etc...(it didn't really happened that way but that's how officiel it happen)