shapeshifter

day one. introduce your muse 

kwon heera, born heera marie kwon, is the lead vocal and lead dancer of gold star media’s girl group DIARY. she has also become known for her roles in tv dramas. 

day two. talk about your muse’s childhood 

heera’s upbring was all over the place. she was born whilst her parents were on vacation to france. she spent her first few years near the palo alto area, where her parents had settled years earlier, and then moved to a permanent home in beverly hills. she also visited her mother’s hometown of seogwipo, jeju & seoul quite often. growing up, quite literally, next door to hollywood stars she always dreamt of being an actress. she quickly saw the flaw in this. one, she lacked the visuals to really make it in hollywood. two, there weren’t many people who looked like her on the big screen. three, her parents weren’t very supportive of this dream. thus her dream of becoming an actress was shelved. she realized she wanted to be an idol the day of her first plastic surgery. she wanted the fame, and she thought being an idol would be an easy way to receive love. it wasn’t until much later that she realized her dream of becoming an actress could come true as well. 

day three. takes us back to when your muse was either recruited or auditioned to become an idol? 

heera can remember that summer day in 2010 as if it was yesterday. she had just gotten back to seoul from namhae. since her body was still recovering from the latest surgery she had taken a train, the trip had lasted five hours and she was exhausted. instead of going straight to bed, her cousin took her out to eat. it was there, somewhere in itaewon, that a scout from bc ent. stopped and gave her a card. heera had already planned to audition to the company so she’d seen the scout a sign that this was her destiny. the audition was nerve wrecking to say the least. heera had never taken a dance class in her life, much less a vocal class. she practiced for a couple weeks before attending an audition. she sung tear drops in the morning by gold star soloist 1. if she were to give her past self some advice it would be to not audition at all. to walk out of that room and go back home to california, finish high school, and enroll in university like her father wanted. 

day four. remember the trainee days? 

the first year of training was crazy. she had never lived in korea for more than a month or two at a time and getting used to the culture was difficult. she worried a lot about being seen as an outsider. thankfully there were other trainees who spoke english and she mostly clung to them. school was difficult too, heera was supposed to start her senior year in 2010 and she ended up using tutors to finish high school. while in bc she worried everyday about not being able to debut soon. bee had debuted just that year after all. when she didn’t make it into lipstick’s lineup she saw it as a sign to not renew her contract with the company and moved to gold star. the change was shocking and abrupt and her time as a gold star trainee is hardly a time she likes to remember.

day five. recall your muse’s debut

DIARY’s debut now feels like the distant past. after releasing pre-debut singles she had already gotten a taste of fame. but nothing would prepare her for the hectic schedule that would come with piano man. as far as her thoughts on the concept and such...heera didn’t hate it. she wasn’t thrilled with the group’s concept at first, she worried people wouldn’t be into it, but she grew to like it.

day eight. talk about your muse’s strengths and weaknesses as an idol 

perhaps it is due to her time under bc or her upbringing in the company of socialites and business tycoons but heera is good when it comes to image management. she has great control of her expressions and never lets her guard down in public. thus she’s been able to escape any scandals, both public and within the industry, and has maintained a clean image. she’s also not greedy when it comes to her vocals or dancing. she plays her role and hones her abilities without worrying about others. however, she’s often seen as boring and detached on variety shows (if they only heard her bad puns). she’s very slow when it comes to learning new things. whether it’s a new choreo or song, it usually takes her a while to learn and sometimes she forgets (this mostly happens with choreos...she’ll be in the middle of a song and then ??? 

day nine. what is your muse’s fashion style?

heera is girly, she loves feminine styles, but she’s also a total gym rat. her closet is divided between white and peach toned dresses & monochrome workout clothes. she refuses to sacrifice comfort for fashion. most of her clothes are oversized or made to stretch. as far as colors go, she prefers to stick to solid colored clothing rather than anything too adventurous. she isn’t a fan of shopping and most of her clothing is picked by diary’s stylist or her mother’s assistant. in the rare case that she does shop she likes low classic and off-white.

day twenty-two. talk about your muse’s goals that they have for their group

she wants to see DIARY debut overseas, perhaps in japan. as far as heera is concerned DIARY is just beginning. they’ve received a lot of love but in the past year or so it hasn’t felt as though they’ve made much of an impact. she’d like to see them achieve a bit more before branching off into solo projects. 

day twenty-six. does your muse ever regret becoming an idol?

on a daily basis. heera isn’t unhappy with her life per se, but she does believe her life would’ve been even better if she hadn’t become an idol. her main problem being the fact that she did it for all the wrong reasons. slowly but surely she’s realizing that she chose this life on a whim. she’d always had everything she wanted, there was little money couldn’t buy, and fame was simply another want rather than a dream. she knows this line of work isn’t something she can be in forever and wonders if she’s wasting her time. perhaps she should be learning about the family business or attending university instead of filming dramas and performing.

day twenty-eight. talk about your muse’s low point in life

i don’t think heera has hit the lowest point in her life yet. she was definitely at a bad place before she had surgery and became a trainee, but she’s yet to experience real pain. i believe the lowest point in her life will be whenever she’s held accountable for everything she’s done to herself. both to her body and her mental health. 

day twenty-nine. talk about your muse’s most meaningful moment as an idol

DIARY’s first fan-meeting. it was the moment that it all began to feel real. the fact that she had debuted, that her hard work payed off, was enough to make her cry. she’s never ever cried again in public.

day thirty. think about your muse’s life down the road

heera’s december schedule is up over here

her drama hwayugi will begin airing on december 23 on tvn so don’t forget to watch

her birthday is on the 15th & she’ll be throwing a party (cause she def has time for that)

she’ll be taking a vacation to austria from the 27th to the 2nd (cue 25 solo paras)

life updates!

um....still a mess?

a very tired mess

plot calls!

snow things?? someone come christmas shopping / ice skating with her

someone come get drunk (or high) and reflect on 2k17

if you’re looking for any sort of scandal (attitude scandal? fake dating scandal?) heera is your girl, it may or may not make it to exclusive

also if anyone wants to do enemy/bad blood plots or angsty plots hit me up (its not like i have 564652 replies to do hahahahah