between the bars

currently in a state of 'I just don't want to exist anymore' y i k e s

that feeling when you're too anxious to stay awake yet too anxious to sleep

I know I've been telling myself for four years that I'm a survivor and I think it's finally time for me to admit to myself that I'm a victim as well and that it's okay to say that because it's part of everything

I don't know whatever it is that I'm feeling right now but I haven't been this angry with me in a long time

she said she would go out with us tonight and then she canceled and it shouldn't make me as sad as it does right now. ugh,, are these feelings or what

I don't know what I'm feeling but there's too much of it

I've never really wanted to pin someone against a wall and make out but her GOD YES PLEASE I'D LOVE THAT

I just had a moment in which I realized that I was actively thinking about ending everything and ajskdnd my brain just can't take this rn. I kind of want to talk about it with someone but it's probably better if I don't. Not that my flatmates would care for me anyways.