Yaoi Pilled

First off, both are represented as the bad thing. Both are represented as both hurt and hurting.

Except for the fact that if you pay a bit of attention, you'll realise that these things do not have the intention to hurt.

A flame does not mean to hurt a moth, but the moth will still look after the flame even if it hurts it.

The worm does not mean to hurt the apple, but it needs it to survive.

The waves do not mean to hurt the cliff, but its constant slowly deteriorates the cliff (:

Neither of them have ever meant to hurt each other truly, but they can't keep themselves from doing so.

Except that Shane hates every moment of it. He doesn't understand why there even has to be singing in the first place. Isn't this based on one of those old books they make you read in English class? Why is Oliver Twist dancing? He has one speaking line in the whole show and his director keeps trying to make him say it more excitedly. But he's not excited. And even after Yuna coaches him on it, the director is still like, "With more enthusiasm, Hollander!".

The only, ONLY, reason Shane doesn't quit is because it counts towards his English grade which means he gets more ice time.

And the only thing that makes it all worthwhile in the end is when Yuna digs out the old VHS of his performance and Shane, burning alive with embarrassment, turns to see Ilya with the biggest smile, fighting back tears.

"You were just so fucking cute, Shane. The cutest thing I have ever seen."

Grace: I’m her carer.

And you know what's even more delicious?? Ilya DOES know!!!! He KNOWS that what he's doing with Shane is different!!! He DOES know better!!! And instead of acknowledging that, he sets the tone and takes advantage of Shane's ignorance to do shit with him that blurs every boundary of intimacy there is.

It's juuuuuust 😩😩😩😩 it introduces this unspoken power gap of experience that one party isn't even fully aware of, and fics that pull on this thread of their dynamic are always sooo buzzy.

BEST DAY EVER ☀️🌸❤️🦋

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