I Could Be Better, Im Considering Becoming Worse

security called me at work today and told me they saw me outside chasing a frog around on the security cameras. i wasnt in trouble they just wanted to let me know they saw me. i didn’t catch him.

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

actually im doing really well except for the fact that everything makes me sad and the things that dont make me sad make me angry. but other than that im fine

reverse gaslighting where i pretend to know exactly what you are talking about

masculine energy this feminine energy that. well i’m out of energy

need me some of this "renewable energy" I keep hearing about

forever in awe of people who pay attention. people who wait for you while you tie your shoes while the others have walked away. when they continue listening intently while the rest of the group stopped listening. noticing your moments of silence when everyone else hasn’t. “this made me think of you” noticing things you never even noticed about yourself. people who say “text me when you get home safe.” people who make you laugh until you cry. childhood friends who keep in touch. people with genuine intentions. people who are soft when the world has given them every opportunity to turn hard. the “let’s get ice cream” at 3am friend. the turn up the music in the car and sing friend. people whose actions match their words. people who make the world feel less chaotic. kindred spirits. the trustworthy and honest. hard workers. good listeners. clear communicators. people who love you for who you are. people who don’t ask you to be anything other than yourself. people who choose you. people who stay.

“it’s not that deep” it’s not that shallow. now what

honestly no offense but I love falling asleep and sleeping. its like. ok goodnight

you don’t gotta tell me to boycott the Nintendo prices by not buying bc i don’t have the money to get them anyways

‘guys don’t spend 600-700 dollars on the new nintendo products to send a message’ im way ahead of you man

i blew up the journal factory. tell me everything

yikes 😬unfollowing rn sorry… i didn’t realize they didn’t support sinister and evil women with huge boobies my bad 

i feel like i deserve more credit for getting up in the morning

making heavy use of a technique i like to call "bothering my cat" which consists largely of bothering my cat

they should make a version of socializing that doesn’t make you feel like you’re still the weird 12 year old kid that doesn’t know why she’s not normal like the other kids

choosing to engage with my despair in new and playful ways

just finished learning how strong i can be if i have to!! i hope the next thing i learn is something fun and awesome 😁😁😁