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introductions are in order; i am gasha. tumblr is my main creative outlet, and i don't typically reblog. the content you'll find on this blog, wordsrundry, is that entirely of my own. i am currently a student, i am studying finance and i am working towards my pcp. my primary focus with this blog is journaling my study days. writing whatever was rampant on my mind that day. introspective, clouded, emotional— there is no order. i take what i am doing quite seriously and with intention; i am native of canada. nisga'a and cree. there is a stigma held from the outside perspective, as with most ethnicities. i am ending cycles and changing paths. i am the eldest alive role model to my young siblings and my actions have significant impact.

The course set up in my opinion it is very easy however, I am having such intense burnout from the 21 hours it took to write the essay and do the assignment. my brain is shutting down into survival mode to protect itself from doing anything of the sort and all I want is a better future for myself.

Day Eleven;

Dedicated study time 4.36hr

my second longest session yet and with actual tears. i would dwell on the negative to explain however im past it and id like to stay here. the finish of module four technically marks the halfway point. self assessment is nearing, at the moment id rate my comprehension 4/10 only due to the fact i continuously rely on failing miserably. todays worksheet was rough. heres to taking a chance at escaping the long and frustrating queue of uncertainty in career-hopping.

Total dedicated time 34.29hrs

Day Ten;

Dedicated study time 1.75hr

ive said it before and i'll say it again, i wasnt going to study. i procrastinated for hours, and even considered how it wouldnt be so bad if i truly fell behind. not a great feeling. i stuck through and finished the module. self study and quiz tomorrow, i am still on track. giving up and falling behind is a pattern i am all too familiar with and this is changing day by day.

Total dedicated time 29.93hrs

Day Nine;

Dedicated study time 3.2hr

the way I see it is there is two versions of me; the one holding onto the lazy non-productive ways, scrolling rather than studying and even queasy at the thought of sitting down and doing work. then theres the one who wants nothing more than to move forward and keep moving; the writer who journals and creates non-fiction. the math nerd who enjoys studying the rules of accounting. the advantageous thinker who aspires to broaden all thoughts, travel, and career. If Ive learned anything with this accounting course is there a balance, one thing will outweigh the other. If Im here, I have no excuse.

Total dedicated time 28.18hrs

Day Eight;

Dedicated study time 2hr

straight shooter, no breaks, this was a good session and Im not here to push it. I finished the third module in seven and a half hours [not that its a race, its a log] and heres my take on accounting fundamentals so far; its a lot of common sense with fancy steps and special words. its running yourself into a wall with reverse learning. todays photo is as chaotic as my mind. I just need consistency and Im home free, I can do this. week three and its in me to keep going. i have no excuse.

Total dedicated time 24.98hrs

Dedicated study time 1.78hr

found it difficult to stay focused. it took me five hours to complete the dedicated study time. optimistic its all a bump in the road and my heavy reluctance and inability to stay focused is short lived.

Total dedicated time 22.98hrs

Day Six;

Dedicated study time 4.5hr

today I write from an extended break and as I promised, keeping it honest. currently, I am two hours into studying. I have completed the quiz to wrap up the recent module and after all three attempts, I got nine out of ten. I rapid fired the attempts out of frustration after my first attempt was five out of ten. I am frustrated with my understanding of the most recent module. everything I completed, everything I answered, was to the best of my comprehension of the teachings so far. it seems my understanding of the content is below average, and Im curious as to how I will approach this moving forward.... edit; ended the session pretty hopeful, troubleshooted the issues I had during the quiz earlier by backtracking my notes. sticky notes and rereading will have to be the start of patching those knowledge gaps. one day at a time.

Total dedicated time 21.2hrs

Day Five;

Dedicated study time 3.5hrs

I am nearly finished Module Two, I can't officially say I am done until I complete the comprehension quiz, which is all I have left to do. I feel it's best to give myself a break, pick it back up tomorrow and study forehand. I had no intention of studying. upon arrival home I found myself sitting at my laptop with not much to do. why I naturally gravitated toward pulling open onenote and my course portal is beyond my understanding and it feels wrong to question. accounting is data entry in an intense form. I need to slow down when posting ledgers, and recording (accounting) journal entries. this session marks my catch-up and Ill continue being honest when my reluctance is forthright; there were many times I had to restart the practice worksheets. finishing them in complete, checking my work, and scrapping it all. my main issue wasn't entirely the division of assets, liabilities, and equity; it was sales revenue and service revenue being a credit account under equity, that was something I couldn't comprehend for a long minute. get this; revenue is not an asset. simple enough, but honestly I ran myself up the wall repeating phrases until they caught wind of some sort of meaning.

Total dedicated time 16.7 hrs

Day Four;

Dedicated study time 3.6hrs

I started Module Two today, we covered recording transactions, t-accounts, ledgers + posting, and journal entries. there is more to cover however, I capped out. I've found my threshold and we'll continue building it from here. three hours is substantial and perhaps by the time I am done with this course, I can build to about five hours of stamina. my comprehension is far better than I gave myself credit for and I am pleased with my progress so far. I chose to study from home knowing its something I am capable of however, I snack like no tomorrow and its easy to lose myself in the things to be done around the home; i watered my plants and did some laundry with my breaks other than snack.

Total dedicated time 13.2 hrs

Day Three;

Dedicated study time 3.00hrs Today, I studied at home. Module One, seventeen sections. Comprehension Quiz One results, a ten out of ten; In a total of 9.6 hours of dedicated study time. I couldn't tell you if that timeframe is good or bad but I can tell you I am behind on schedule. There is eleven weeks, one module per week. I have used an entire session of Module Twos time catching up on Module One meaning we'll have to double down tomorrow. I didn't want to study today. I wasn't going to study today. What got me to sit down for three hours was being entirely forgiving knowing I am behind schedule, and keeping in mind the end goal; a new career. Not that I have been stagnant long, two years as a care-taker, it's something I am ready to move on from. I can do a little over one year more.

Total dedicated time 9.6 hrs

Day Two;

Dedicated study time 3.75hrs

Today was a challenge, I am not going to mislead you. Having graduated highschool in twenty-sixteen, this is the first I have pushed myself to learn something new in this way. Through todays learning process, I applied business terminology to the slight practice in the basics of financial statements. To be kind to myself, even if it is English, the business language is still a new language which is reasonable why I can't quite wrap my head around a few definitions. Packed a nice lunch and treated myself to a drink to escape the library. I'd say the day was well balanced. Received a call close to three letting me know there's a photography opportunity at a local field, shut off the timer, and headed out.

Total dedicated time 6.6 hrs