Nerd Wonder

I post constantly about how my multiple disabilities hinder me and have actively prevented me from working consistently.

My disabilities prevent me from doing things constantly, because they are disabling. That’s the reality of being disabled.

I don’t do things to overcome my disabilities; I achieve things alongside my disabilities at a pace that does not harm me mentally or physically because I am done with pushing limits. I tried. It almost killed me. I will not do it again, so that temporarily abled people will think better of me for keeping pace with them, or can feel inspired, or whatever the fuck.

And maybe you didn't mean it to come across like that, but please don’t erase what I accomplish alongside my disabilities, not in spite them. And especially please, if you’re also disabled, chronically ill, or just plain old struggling because the world is a dumpsterfire, don’t use me to guilt yourself into doing more.

I would never tell you to push through pain or fatigue for the sake of wildly unsustainable productivity because that shit’ll kill you.

• Review: What the River Knows •

I'm not quite sure how Isabel Ibañez has done it, but she has taken one of my least favorite plot devices – withholding information to purposefully keep someone ignorant of a situation – combined it with the chronic folly that is being a teenage girl, and turned it into an addicting tale that you'll want to devour in one sitting.

The story follows Inez, a railroad heiress who has spent her life in Buenos Aires while her parents largely live in Egypt, funding her uncle's excavations. But when she receives a magical artefact from her father and then the sudden word of her parents’ mysterious deaths, Inez goes to Cairo and inserts herself into their world – only to find that her uncle absolutely does not want her there, and there is Lots of Scheming afoot.

And of course, there is Whitford Hayes, a charming, rakish, British gentleman who works for her uncle. Inez knows she can't trust him, but she is outrageously attracted to him anyway.

Though none of the twists and turns here necessarily came as a surprise to me, Ibañez creates an evocative world of magical realism, and characters that are easy to love – Inez, though young and too trusting, is audacious and amusing, and Whit is very swoony, if a complete mess.

Set during the archaeological boom in Egypt, What the River Knows is an intriguing read that seamlessly blends historical fiction with magical realism, adventure, and a strong dose of mystery. Though the book will likely frustrate you to no end as Inez tries to learn the truth about her parents' fate, what her uncle is up to, and who she can trust, it's a hard book to put down.

And the epilogue? It'll have you screaming.

4.25🌟

currently reading ↝ what the river knows by isabel ibanez

Never say you know the last word about any human heart

just imagining someone pushing my head into the pillow by gripping my hair from behind while she’s thrusting her thick and huge strap inside me and the only sounds that can be heard inside the room are her grunts, our skin slapping, and my moans and whimpers of pleasure

fuck, i’d even get wetter for her if she degrades me so much

OP tags above, Steve’s parents below lmao

it's being used as shorthand for "as someone who has done a lot of research on the topic" but it's funny because ppl have such a hard time realising they're capable of being wrong about their special interests and they're not just magically more able to aquire correct information than everyone else.