W O N D E R L A N D D E R E A L I Z A T I O N

Isn’t it just lovely when you have a great day and then you hate yourself again

Honestly I’m just done with everything. Bye!

I got a huge stuffed animal as a birthday gift. I love it with all my heart. But then again, looking at it makes me sad. Why? Because I am so used to being unfortunate and miserable. Calling it mine feels unreal and like a dream. I am waiting for myself to wake up, so that I can get over the disappointment as quickly as possible. But in fact, it is no dream. It’s just that I’m not used to being fortunate in my life anymore. It’s sad that I’m already in a state where getting a big ass stuffed animal is something so wonderful to me that I know for a fact it must be a dream because good things don’t happen to me.