Random Observations of a Wanna Be Rockstar.

Until we meet again, sweet girl, at the Rainbow Bridge.

I went to the Geek Craft Expo on Saturday. There was a fellow there who takes toys and does photos of them and tries to make it look real. He had superheroes and Star wars just to name a little bit of what he does. I picked this up and I love it. Now I just need a frame for it.

When I was feeling my worst mentally, I was very negative because nothing good would ever happen to me so why even try and be positive. At least that is what my brain had convinced me would happen. I'm here to tell you that your brain will LIE to you. It is so hard to break out of that cycle. I tend to think in what I call circular thoughts, when my brain is overthinking it thinks itself into circles. It becomes stuck in that thought pattern just like driving in circles on a race track over and over again with no place for a pit stop. Here is an example of the kinds of thoughts I would have; I'm worthless, the ways I'm worthless (Naming them off), the reasons no one can love me (naming these as well), and its all because I am worthless. Then the circle repeats. It took some therapy to make an exit to that cycle. I still sometimes struggle with it and I likely always will. But I made myself a promise that I will keep getting up and finding the exit again. I may be broken but I am not defeated. So I guess what I am trying to say is that yes what you think you become. If you think things suck then they do, but they do not have to. You just need to find the exit to that race track thought pattern. Maybe your exit is a therapist, maybe its a walk in nature, maybe its a good friend, or it could be anything that helps to change your mindset. My hope for each of you today is that you are able to find your exit to that race car track way of thinking and move to something more positive in your life. Have a fantastic day.

Perfection is over rated. I used to tell myself that if it wasn't perfect it wasn't worth doing. I was lying to myself. Progress not perfection is a much better way to look at it. Life is messy as hell. I grew up in a time when you were bombarded with fairy tale crap. Fairy tales are just that tales you tell when telling a story. Its not real. Life is nothing like that. Relationships (of all kinds; romantic, friends, coworkers) are complex. They take work on both parts to survive. You can try and plan for an outcome but nothing that happens is certain. Things change, people change and you just never know what will actually happen. People can be completely irrational usually when their emotions get involved. All we can do is to deal with the changes that come our way. We hang in there and do the best we can at handling the craziness that comes with life. So my wish for each of you today is that you find a healthy way to cope with life. Have an amazing day!

A smile can expresses delight, sociability, happiness, joy or amusement. For a lot of us a smile from a stranger can mean a lot especially when you are feeling alone and forgotten. We actually can convey a lot with a smile and body language. When someone is struggling mentally a smile can mean the world. It lightens your mental burden even if its just for a few moments. Believe it or not that helps tremendously when you are hurting inside. So keep that in mind when you go out into the world, that your smile can have an impact on others around you. So my wish for each of you today is that you are able to smile more as it not helps others but yourself as well. Have a great day!