the abyss

the sad thing about orikan is that, by the very nature of chronomancy, he actually is capable of controlling everything perfectly to some extent. it probably would have been better if he were incapable, then he'd have to accept the fact that you can't control everything. but he is capable. he is very capable. he is arguably the best astromancer the necrons have. he can infinite monkey theory his way through problems by turning back time again and again until he gets it right when most crypteks would have been able to do it only 2-3 times at best. he has millenia of experience enforcing the idea that he is capable. it probably gives him efficacy, keeps him sane. but it also means that he'll never let go of the punishing expectations he forces on himself. he's in a time loop of his own volition. he made his own hell.