a few days ago i was playing tf2 with my friends and one of them is well known in these sorts of circles and a person in the casual match started sucking up to her like craaazyy it was really funny. like her girlfriend was right there and everything, which was made clear, yet it continued. cucked forever. anyway i almost said 'we are lowkey laughing about you' in text chat after not using it once the entire match but realized last second i shouldnt. then i got very much talked out of it by several laughing peoples who found it funny but way too fucked to inflict on someone

Remembers a childhood memory of running a floss along my tongue and cutting off a bunxh of tastebuds

voting on the how often are you getting a head/tummy ache poll witha head and tummy ache and smirking

it is awesome imagining people following me off my most survivorship-biased posts then realizing i dont post that good very often and all my posts is just me only me.

This is why you follow me I lie in bed for several days wallowing in misery Then I emerge from my cave and start banger-posting Then I lie back down and let the blankets swallow me up

that last post didnt make sense because a fatal thorn of a remnant of a discarded sentence fragment cut into it at the start but i excised it now so its ok

i think what frustrates me most about the construction of servants in reference to the figures they represent is that its unspecific. they seemingly juggle 'this is the actual person with all their memories, and this is now what they really looked like .' , 'this is the global populaces perception of this figure, legends compressed to form' , 'this is a specific regions perception of this figure, legends etc' and an out of universe slider for how much they specifically lift from the real life inspiration. and its just that the servants are on like. completely random configurations on this. and this is completely independant of how Good the design/character is. so. its sort of a nightmare for me because i do like Fran but i think she fails fundementally at adapting or even understanding frankenstein. but like. as her own thing i like her.

there is definitely a sort of comfort in seeing my notes get much lower when i post like this theres definitely a sort of comfort in believing less people care about you less eyes .. i remember when i'd constantly try to maintain likes with everyone but this became unmanagabke and then i stopped caring aboutthat so i stopped now i post do many things not worth and unpleasant to read through content context and formatting so now

Ive Been Feeling So Constantly Sick Recently

i remember wearing tights and a sweater and an oversized leather jacket and shoes and nothing else outside to go feed ducks with prepared mixture of oats and seeds and i was the most paranoid and afraid i'd ever been in my life i'd switch sidewalks when there was a pedestrians and be afraid each car was looking at me but once i got there there was a bench facing away from the road towards body of water so no one would be able to see me so for a moment i could just sit there and feed them and for a moment i could be this without being afraid then after a few minutes i got a call and i full on sprinted back home as fast as i was capable of going then laid down for a long while