longer tldr I’m kind of fuckin sick of drawing. With art school and the work owed hole I dug myself as well as my mom shoving internships I’m not even qualified for down my throat every time I even pick up my tablet or even a god fucking pencil I get mentally exhausted. Art isn’t fun anymore. Drawing isn’t fun anymore. Not even fan art which is all I fucking do isn’t fun anymore. I feel like unless I’m busting my fucking balls every hour of the god damn day drawing I’m not worthy enough or I’m not trying enough and PLEASE do not reply with “everyone deserves a break!” Yeah they do but me moping around feeling sad for myself for over a month isn’t a break. I have no work ethic anymore and my desire to even stay at UNI for this has gone in the shitter. If it wasn’t for my fear of my mom kicking me out or worse I would probably drop out too.

Blah blah more feeling bad for myself. I built up a lot on this blog and all the people I’ve meet and all the zines and projects I’ve been apart of have been so fucking insane to me. I’m no one huge but I’m so appreciative of you all so please do not take this as me blaming my follower count not being high enough or not getting enough notes or whatever. Making art now especially on social media is just so exhausting. Unless you hit the ground with a running start you’re left in the dust and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of this pressure of needing to produce content or I’ll become irrelevant even though I already am.