My Poetry Outlet

Little things about me

As you grow up, you realize that the friends that said they would always check up on you- never let you fall apart or be there when you felt hopeless are the same friends who'd post themselves having the time of their lives with other people or going to exotic places without even bothering to invite you; as you grow older you realize that sometimes its better to not bother at all because eventually they forget you- cause you were never important to begin with; just a stepping stone to their ladder in life.

Things get dark inside, so dark like the night sky- the darkest shade of black and all I can think off is how to bring the brightest piece of light inside of me.

"The darkness calls my name, it speaks to me in ways that haunt my mind. The darkness is like a snake, wrapping itself around me squeezing the life out of me. The darkness loves it's role, to kill me slowly without loosing control."

I'm not good enough, not good enough to be called yours, not good enough to lay in your arms that look like sunshine to my dark days, I'm not good enough to be loved by your body in ways I didn't know existed. I'm not good enough to feel your heart under my palm and know it belongs to me, I'm not good enough yet I love you.

I fear love, I fear the undying moment you have with each other. The moments of weakness, the hopeful promises and the late night conversations about your dreams and future together. I fear the dates, moving so fast and the time together getting longer and the feeling of it being so fucking real. I fear it might end, I fear love but I couldn't live without the feeling of being in somebodys arms.

She was a delusional mess, enchanted by the pages of a dream she couldn't escape because she was loving the way his fingers ran through her hair and his lips touched every part of her soul. He loved her, she didn't want to leave and so fucking be it. She would stay in this fantasy world until her last dying breath, entangled in the arms of the man she couldn't live without.

💔I love you, I don't want to be who I was. I don't want to be the controlling girl I was with everyone else, yet I want to the only girl in your eyes and the only body in your soul but I also don't want jealousy to become my enemy. They are just bodies, while I am your girlfriend the one you rather be with. This relationship is perfect, I will not become a monster again. That is my biggest fear, becoming the girl I once was and you realizing who I truly can become, absolute destruction by the thoughts haunting my brain. 💔

Realized

I looked in the mirror today, and I realized I didn't know who I was. It's never to late to change who you are, or how you look as long as you know who you want to be don't change yourself for anybody else's unrealistic standards.

I know I don't fit in, that's not what hurts...no what hurts is when your surrounded by a bunch of people who don't even know you exist.

❤️🔥"There are some people with a small flame burning inside, not many people come close because they believe they cannot keep warm or they might freeze. But then there are people who believe in that small flame to keep them warm in the cold, because that small flame is burning with all it's might to survive."❤️🔥

Sticks and stones might break my bones, but remember my fist can break your nose.

The Dark

"Don't be afraid to stop and look at who you are because you might not like who you've became."