i'll be willing.

[name]? what are you doing here?

nothing could ever take me away from you.

i thought you said you would never return.

i fought to find you again.

what made you change your mind?

it was a mistake to leave your side.

you came back for me. i knew you would.

i can't believe you're here, right in front of me.

[name], in the flesh. i never thought i'd see the day.

i was hoping you'd hear my call.

i never should have left you in the first place.

what took you so long?

i had a feeling you couldn't stay away.

promise me you'll never leave again.

[name]? it can't be.

you shouldn't have to deal with this mess on your own.

i'm real. touch my hands. i'm right here.

you're not dreaming. i came back.

come a little closer. let me see you.

am i dreaming? pinch me.

i should have known you'd end up in some trouble.

it is you! you came back!

i waited and hoped and prayed you'd return.

they told me you'd never come back here.

you showed up just in the nick of time.

i thought you'd never show up!

you actually came back for me.

so you do care after all.

let me get a good look at you.

we've gotta stop meeting like this.

something told me i should go back there and find you.

i'm sorry i keep touching you, i just can't believe you're really here.

this is a dream. you're not real.

i thought you were dead. i saw you die.

how did you know i was in danger?

you're the problem! i just can't stay away!

there's always been something about you that pulls me right back here every time.

i just couldn't get you off my mind.

it was as if i could hear you calling for me.

you visited me in my dreams every night, and that's how i knew.

leaving you was a terrible mistake.

i don't believe it. [name]? really?

will you ever forgive me for leaving you?

you shouldn't have to fight this alone.

i told you not to come back for me.

you're wasting your time coming here to find me.

did you just throw yourself into danger to get me to save you?

now i'm being tortured with visions pretending you're back.

Even when Michael was pushed out, Gina stayed because she knew that even the worst thing imaginable wasn't going to break them.

"You're impossible." She had said things that were worse to her, about how she should have been home with her wife and how it was a wonder why she was on her third marriage. She let her tear into her after Danny passed because of all the pain that she was in, but now, after everything that she stood by and excused.

“ I'm... ”　There's a pause as Amy recoils, tucking her legs under herself as she shrugs, trying to play it off.　“ That's not what I meant to say...　I'm all over the place lately.　Ignore me. ”

Apologising felt weak.

What good would it do?　It never fixed the problem.　All she heard after Danny's death was an abundance of sorry's.　Sorry, sorry, sorry　―　it didn't mend the ache inside her chest, it didn't fix the emptiness , and it certainly didn't bring her son back.

“ Besides, I've hardly seen you since you got married. ”　Amy reaches for her glass again, bringing it to her lips, swallowing back the dark liquid in order to give herself time;　What was her name again?　Asking would only drive that wedge between them even further.　Not Alice, that's the last one... Shit, wasn't it...　As if a light bulb had gone off, Amy recollects the countless times she's seen the other woman's name come flashing up on Gina's phone.

maybe it was one of us. come on.

get off me gaywad!

i'm just not gonna freak out.

they were doing weird cult shit in the woods.

i really think you need to talk to them.

don't shut me out.

fսck it. you want to just get a pizza and a quart of fudge ripple? we can eat it on the roof.

i literally just told you to go fuck yourself, and you're asking me out?

[name], have you been chronic smoking?

you knew.

i was just decoy, biyatch.

do be quick, every minute away from you is torture.

they worked for 12 days and nights to feed the very fire that destroyed their home.

you can't… you can't just doordash human entrails.

what the fuck, [name]?

i know he doesn't want to talk to me, but if you could just put him on for one second.

you know, it's okay to be angry about what happened to [name].

handy lesbians for the win.

i deeply appreciate it, my queen.

i know it's disgusting but i think we should start eating more of it.

loser says what?

are you asking me if i want to go or telling me i have to?

give it to me!

please, come stay in my room.

we call to [name]. now with the wilderness, guide us.

they've just returned to a place that waits for all of us.

after everything that's happened, you're worried about the dishes?

did you just say chronic?

the reality was that even if rescue came, they could never go home again.

i've scouted every inch of this place for miles.

how's this story for you? once upon a time, a bunch of teenage girls got stranded in the wilderness and they went completely fսcking nuts.

happy? that way, when i flatline, everyone will know they can go to lunch.

if you're up for it? i feel like we could both stand to get out of this house.

that's backwards, moron.

can't believe we didn't eat that bitch first.

my best friend is dead.

if i died tomorrow, what would people say at my funeral?

oh, what is even happening right now?

yeah, it's a miracle she survived… before, you know, we survived.

i deeply appreciate it, my queen.

have you seen anything while you're out there?

before we get started, congratulations to the winners of capture the bone, a name i still think we should consider workshopping further.

handy lesbians for the win.

like, sorry i'm not psyched to hear some bullshit story about our adventures in the woods.

fuck, just run.

i've fucking had it with this shit!

the fact that you even think i would is insulting.

i know someone smokes in here. who's got a lighter?

this is insane. we're not doing this anymore.

i just... wanted to teach them a lesson.

EVERYDAY LIFE / DOMESTIC

📋 : how organized is your muse?

✅ : what do they pretend to have together that they don't?

🕰️ : what time do they naturally wake up when no one needs them?

☕ : what's their morning ritual, and what happens when it's disrupted?

🧺 : how often do they do laundry?

🪞 : do they look at themselves in mirrors, or avoid them? why?

🍽️ : do they eat to survive, for pleasure, or as comfort?

🏠 : what part of their living space reflects them the most?

🌱 : do they keep plants, and are those plants alive?

🧼 : what's something they're weirdly particular about being clean?

📺 : what do they put on when they don't want to think?

SOCIALIZATION / CONNECTION

🗣️ : are they better one-on-one, or in groups?

📱 : do they text back immediately, or let messages rot?

🫥 : how often do they pretend to be fine to keep the peace?

🎭 : how different are they with strangers versus people they trust?

🤝 : do they make friends easily, or accidentally?

🧠 : what do they assume people think about them?

🌘 : how hard is it to really know them?

🎉 : do they enjoy social events, or endure them?

🪑 : are they the type to leave early without saying goodbye?

INTROSPECT / INTERNAL LANDSCAPE

🕵️‍♀️ : how often does your muse think about death?

🧩 : what part of themselves do they not understand yet?

🫀 : what emotion scares them the most?

👣 : do they believe they deserve good things?

🧱 : what walls are they aware of building? which ones are they not aware of?

🕳️ : what do they spiral about at night?

📉 : what's their most common self-criticism?

💀 : do they trust their own memories?

🌊 : what emotion do they drown in when they're alone?

PERSONAL / DEEP / TRAUMA-ADJACENT

🩸 : what wound shaped them the most, even if they won't admit it?

🔥 : what moment do they replay when they're ashamed?

🧷 : who failed them first?

🕯️ : what do they grieve that no one else sees as a loss?

🪤 : what pattern do they keep falling back into?

🧨 : what pushes them past the point of restraint?

🧬 : what did they inherit emotionally from their caregivers?

🕶 : what lie do they tell themselves to survive?

🩹 : what actually helps them heal, even if it's unhealthy?

HABITS / VICES / COPING

🚬 : what vice do they justify the most?

🍺 : do they drink to socialize, numb, or celebrate?

💊 : what's their relationship with substances, past or present?

🏃 : do they move their body to feel alive or to punish it?

🛏️ : how do they sleep when things are bad?

🎧 : what kind of music gets them through the worst days?

🖊️ : do they write things down or let thoughts rot in their head?

☔️ : do they intellectualize pain instead of feeling it?

🕳️ : what habit would unravel them if taken away?

SEXUALITY / INTIMACY

🫠 : is it easy for them to get turned on, or do they need emotional safety first?

💞 : do they separate sex and feelings, or blur them dangerously?

🛑 : what's an immediate turn-off for them?

🔥 : do they crave intensity or stability?

🤲 : do they like being in control, or giving it up?

🪶 : are they gentle with people they desire?

🍒 : how do they feel about their own body during intimacy?

🎱 : what do they need to feel wanted?

🔒 : do they guard intimacy, or give it too freely?

💔 : have they ever used sex to avoid something?

MORALITY / CHOICES

⚖️ : what line will they never cross?

🩶 : what line have they already crossed and justified? or regret?

🧭 : do they believe they're a good person?

🔪 : what would they do if survival demanded cruelty?

🪙 : what do they value more, loyalty or truth?

🚪 : who would they abandon if forced to choose?

🕊️ : do they believe in forgiveness? for themselves? in others?

🧨 : what would make them snap permanently?

📜 : what promise do they regret making?

deep down, she knows there's a reason that goes beyond friendship that she's willing to risk her life to see her one more time.

brown eyes darken as jj turns towards her and she doesn't let her mind linger on why she's willing to risk the perfect life she had back home. it's never been just platonic and deep down, emily knows it would never be just sex, even if it's all that it could be in this moment.

she closes the remaining distance between them, she couldn't get lost in the way jj looked in her or she wouldn't be able to let herself have this. she loved her and the longer she looked at her, she knew she would come close to saying it. she wanted to give her something to remember her by, not something that would haunt her, what could have been if emily had been braver before will came into the picture.

She'd known from the moment they met　―　from the second their eyes connected, a flower bloomed beneath her chest.　[　the empty field inside her finally felt the rain after decades of drought.　]　It terrified her.　Never had she felt something so intense, that all it could do was push her towards something she now can't regret, not if it means regretting the best part to come from it all:　her son.

The taste of salt lingers as JJ turns her body further into Emily's, not realising they're falling from her own eyes as reality settles down on her.　Not right now.　Please, not now　―　don't ruin this...

𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐒 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐎𝐍 𝐄𝐃𝐆𝐄 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐒 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐍𝐀 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓. 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 winter means but it reminds her of what happened to jackie ... what they all did to her ... & of her baby who remains buried somewhere on his own. it was no secret to anyone, even herself, that shaun has struggled with everything that happened---she's meaner, she's harsher, she demands more even if it isn't her place as the leader. she can't help the way she feels or this need to put it somewhere, but does that justify making it everyone else's problem ? hand continues to hold onto the wood travis had given to her as knife scrapes across the very end she was sharpening. beside shauna, who is seating on a stump, is a growing pile of them. ❛ you've been acting weird lately, misty. ❜ calls shauna without looking up as the other passes by her. ❛ got somethin' to say ? ❜

“ I think the others would argue I'm always acting weird. ”　Beyond the exterior thrusted upon them in the darkest hours, through the coldest nights　―　all Misty could see was somebody far more broken than her;　somebody she definitely didn't want to fuck with.

Somebody she definitely didn't want knowing about what really happened to Crystal.　None of them would believe her if she said it was an accident.　They'd be too blinded with rage in finding out why that accident occurred.　That would be the end.

“ I don't have anything to say, Shauna. ”　Trust she'd be noticed now, not the countless other times when desperation bled through her.

it's the sight of a million regrets mounting over years.

now we have to pretend we didn't see what we saw.

do not forget your knives to save your lives.

we don't need another hero.

you never want this to be over.

and if you wanna go to heaven, well i'll see you right.

do you see the face on the tv screen?

i'm watching you fall!

you can do it any way you want.

the road that leads to nowhere is long.

if you got to say it, let me leave this room.

buy a piece of paradise, and you buy a piece of me.

it's the noise of the righteous dogma that hides the handmaid's tail.

had you had the chance today you could've sold out too.

it takes one to know 'em.

tell 'em all it is time.

was quite a scene, wasn't it?

it ain't always there to please you but he's the guy you wanna do.

there stood my god before me, do you know what they said?

we were speeding together down the dark avenues.

all we want is life beyond the thunderdome.

watch your step, he's out to get you.

wherever i go you're always there.

your looks and your feelings are just the remains of your past.

i should have known not to give in.

i won't back down.

can you hear me say your name, forever?

don't you stray, don't fade away.

put it back where it belongs.

you don't even have to leave your house or get out of your chair.

don't you forget about your friend, death!

i've been looking so long for you now.

back in the old cemetery.

don't you forget that you will die!

i wanna bewitch you all night.

she's just hanging around.

every day that you feed me with hate i grow stronger!

i have always kept you closer than you've known.

though my memories are faded they come back to haunt me once again.

those ivy league dopes, they wanna mock us.

god will take good care of you.

suffering for the lord is not an easy thing.

i've been talking to jesus all my life.

you tried to rid your mind of malediction.

see, the palace built of frozen tears is your own built prison.

i am afraid of eternity, too.

if only love could break these chains, life could go on.

can't make the same mistake this time.

if you choose to run away with me, i will tickle you internally and i see nothing wrong with that.

all the powerful magical mysteries never gave a single thing back.

besides all the stardom, all we got was blues.

light up in the middle of the day for how else could you see me?

i can never run and i cannot hide.

i'll get you everything you wanted, i'll get you everything you need.

every new generation hails a grand usurpation.

nothing ever lasts forever.

join us.

many a sin i have witnessed, and in many indeed i have been.

right here where it feels like i'm actually living, you are with me.

i just want you to see.

it keeps on giving me chills, but i know now.

i'm loving it!

all life is gone.

will you walk the line?

i've been quelling my urges to burst.

i'm with you always.

i'm number one, you're number two.

you will never walk alone.

you wanna shake it off but you're stuck inside.

if i could pause right here, i would open my heart and tell you with no fear that the path we have walked led us into the dark.

in your eyes it's gone before you know.

if you wanna get closer to him, get on your knees and start praying.

i will make you my angel.

through all the sorrow we've been riding high.

i don't wanna end like this.

you don't need to believe in hereafter, just believe in me.

there will be no doubt in your mind you'll believe in everything i'm saying.

my missiles are aimed to launch at your heart.

there's a darkness at the heart of my love.

i want a nice little boat made out of ocean.

can you feel me longing for you, forever?

i ain't talking about forgiveness.

would you let me touch your soul, forever?

you want a seat by the pyre?

there is a better place.

listen up, hatchet man.

who walks behind?

so, what do we do with our lives?

save me from the monster that is eating me.

wherever you may hide away, i'm gonna hunt you down.

it's the words that were never spoken that echoes through the times.

it ain't always what it seems when you cling onto a dream.

you wanna play with the sire?

tell 'em all this is war and not fighting a war is for suckers.

everybody goes away.

that glitter wasn't gold.

although it stinks, feels, and looks identical, a pack of fools can take the stand.

i keep on dancin' with the one i love.

if i could turn back the time i'd make all right.

we're leaving this city, so this is farewell.

listen up you motherfuckers.

ask yourself, are you righteous?

can you see what i see?

it ain't over now.

you won't get away from my grasp.

like your father in hell, what you've sold you cannot unsell.

you damaged my mind and my soul, it just floats through the air.

i know the light grows darker down below.

i wonder did no one hear the distant thunder?

what you've done you cannot undo.

i hope you're feeling it too.

i see your light shine through.

i'm coming back for you.

on the cover of the magazine there's no question why i'm smiling.

hey, baby!

we will go softly into the night.

you try to mask it but fall back in sin.

one day, fate will find a way through the marches of death.

we were searching for reasons to play by the rules, but we quickly found out it was just for fools.

you go down just like holy mary.

it's the continence of bishops with their choirboys en suite.

won't find me practising what i'm preaching, won't find me making no sacrifice.

now it's time for me to strike again.

you're standing in the wings, there you wait for the curtain to fall.

was i not all you were dreaming of?

i feel your hands are cold.

it is the end of your sadness and pain.

it's the sound of another deadline whistling past your ears.

luckily he wants to do you too.

so you want out now, don't you, love?

there is something inside me and they don't know if there is a cure.

you're the devil, you're just out to scare.

we all need something to believe in.

all you gotta do is call me.

she doesn't know about my girlfriend or the man i met last night.

you've been daddied by all the dudes that wanna dad.

we're here in the after of a murderous crafter.

but of all the demons i've known, none could compare to you.

i've been fighting the notion to, by love, be coerced.

keep your distance, walk away, don't take his bait.

it's the smell of the burning temples swept away by rhymes.

communication is key.

will our story shine like a light or end in the dark?

how could it end like this?

a man of faith is hard to find.

i'm victimized.

don't you forget about dying!

you're the phantom of the opera.

you keep a casket buried deep within.

you've got a lot of god's work to do.

all those dads never gave you the things that you should've had.

i'm counting my blessings and i've found true happiness.

you're the next in the chain of command.

the truth of the matter is i never let you go.

there is still time to make peace with your friend.

i get your point.

it is the end of a life grieved in vain.

i know that you're gonna scratch me and maim me and maul.

i'm done crying over someone like you.

one day he will come back from the bowels of hell.

we don't need to know the way home.

i can get you a pocketful of miracles if you promise to be good, try to be nice.

it's the tongue soiled in adulation that licks to no avail.

i have begged god for the remedy but i'm no longer sure.

this is what dreams are made of.

of all these dark roads that i roam, none could compare to you.

everybody leaves one day, i know it hurts.

what i want, i want now.

you've been playing around with magic that is black.

i'm runnin' wild with the one i love.

you know, and i know that you ain't got that long to last.

it's killing you.

you'll soon be hearing the chime close to midnight.

i see no evil.

it's the cruel beast that you feed.

when tomorrow comes, you will know.

we are the ones they left behind.

call me, little sunshine.

i'm done.

i'm runnin' crazy with the one i love.

you've been living so long in hiding and hiding behind that false mask.

just do as i say, not as i do.

you're so sharp, getting good reactions with your evil talk.

you can find me in the phone book, just call my toll free number.

drink me, eat me, then you'll see the light.

i put my love in you.

your desolation led you into this vile incarnation

a prophecy told we're building our empire from the ashes of an old kaisarion.

while you sleep in earthly delight, someone's flesh is rotting tonight.

she's trying to impress us.

do you believe in god?

you don't even have to touch that dial 'cos i'm everywhere.

remember always that love is all you need.

i've invested my prayers into making me whole.

i wonder when we are ever gonna change?

don't you vomit savage slurs, spewed up wickedly to hide from me.

if i could turn around i would've told you the truth.

something within your eyes said it could be the last time.

this is the moment of just letting go.

we will break away together.

you haunt me, you taunt me.

you can always reach me.

i am riding in the shadows behind you on a pale white horse.

i know you need it now to make you feel alive.

here they come.

many a rat i've befriended.

you shine like the sun and the moon and the stars in the sky.

many a mind i have haunted, and in many a way i have been.

will you spill the wine to summon the divine?

you have never stood this close to where you want to be.

i believe in the family with my ever-loving wife beside me.

i'll be the shadow, you'll be the light.

come with me to the holy land.

i'm dying to see you one last time together.

your beauty never ever scared me.

it's been a long time coming.

but it's not over yet.

it's just abracadabra, some hocus pocus sham.

put on the smiles and throw your holy rocks right at her.

long ago yet too close to forever.

is it all or nothing?

i'm dying to see you.

i'm your rock, baby.

there's a sting in the way you kiss me.

you know i'm helpless from your mesmerizing cat call.

it seems so perfect.

you have always waded in the shallows between me and the deep blue sea.

there's gotta be something better out there.

it is the end of your penitence.

there is still time to love once again.

that those who seek to go there are lost.

it's the truth of candour shown through a prism of deceit.

do you see the face on the billboard?

you know that it takes two.

you'd never want me to appear.

tell me who you wanna be and i will set you free.

this is the end of the avenue.

call out in the middle of the night, for when else would i hear you?