camila

we are NOT gonna survive this season

Ethel Cain is for the girls that grew up in shame and guilt for asking normal questions about God

thinking about how while jackie wasn’t the best player on the team, she was probably the most enthusiastic. like she was probably the first one to learn all of their names. she probably organized team sleepovers. maybe her footwork was not the best, but she could give a great pep talk! ofc she would do your face paint for you! ofc she would help you tie your hair or get out that knot! like this is the girl who stole her mom’s valium because, oh no, what if her best friend is too afraid to fly?? handed off her necklace immediately — here shauna, good luck charm! and like, ofc she didn’t do well in the wilderness. they are wolves, the rabbit is not like them. ofc she flinches at blood, ofc she doesn’t pick up the knife, ofc she can’t hold a gun. ofc, ofc, ofc! this is the girl calming allie’s nerves before a pep rally, helping misty feel pretty for the first time, offering shauna her last bit of food. this is the girl who had so little hate in her heart that she had to steal an insult from beaches, the girl who cried over shauna not being her friend anymore, the girl who would’ve come back inside if she heard an i love you.