Welcome to the Void

summoning fellow ants...

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keep reblogging this! Idc who you are! we can't have these freaks around!

I have been told by a mutual of mine- about Max's post. (Mutual has requested to remain anonymous) vvv

And it is suddenly clear that I have to speak on things... publicly.

I'll start with my original post. I had intended to make a clear message to me and Max's mutual friends that we were no longer friends. Yes, I encouraged them to ask why. That's because I feel they have the right to know. And in my opinion, that didn't seem to invasive. But, I couldn't ask max how they felt about it because she had already blocked me on everything. So, I posted it. I had only blocked her back out of spite. In my original message I told her I didn't want to stop talking and that we just needed a break. But she didn't listen.

Admittedly, when I was asked by the first mutual (who will not be named) about this- I had sent her screenshots of the messages between me and max. Because I wanted her to see what happened for herself. This was the wrong move on my part. I understand that that would've made max upset, and I do regret that. I was deeply upset and should've waited longer to answer. This is not justification. Just why it happened. That mutual then blocked me. Which I was admittedly confused about. But I understand that they have known max longer. And I hold no grudges against them.

Max had never spoken to me directly after our original fall out. That was a straight up lie. The mutual (the one who blocked me) had told me to take down the post. And I gave her my reasons as to why I wouldn't do that. After that, max has made no attempts to contact me from my knowledge. I would've loved to clear things up and be amicable about this whole mess but apparently I was wrong to be so hopeful.

None of what I posted violated our prior agreement vvv

This is all that we swore to. And I kept that promise. I haven't shown a single person any of the NSFW art that max sent me. I DID, however mention that they were sent to me in the first place. That wasn't against our promise. So, no, I don't believe I did anything wrong there.

And despite my insistence that my and Max's followers choose for themselves, Max has decided against that. Telling our friends to unfollow and block me. In that case, let's go to war.

MAX THE WEIRDO TRIED TO GROOM ME.

Is that what you wanted, max? Cause I know your watching threw a secret account or having someone stalk me for you. Creep.

I have the evidence too!

Here's the "fight" we had (just me expressing my boundaries and her playing victim)^^^

This is WAY before anything happened. The month I turned 18. ^^^

There were countless messages like this. Even before I was legally a consenting adult. Max would ask me questions like this (which made me very uncomfortable) and would keep insisting no matter how many times I tried to change the subject. I didn't tell her it made me uncomfortable because we had "fought" previously, and she made me feel bad for telling her I was uncomfortable.

And every time she brought up a subject like this she would say things like: "I'm so happy we're comfortable enough to share this kind of thing" or "I don't talk to anyone else about this, you're the best" and being a traumatized child who craved love and validation, it made me feel good about keeping this between us. But I'm not as dumb as she thinks I am. I knew. I knew it was wrong, but I stubbornly held onto the hope that she'd change. But it never happened. I only talked to max for almost two years, and I knew that it was odd for me to be so attached to someone I've never met in person.

This is textbook guilt tripping and manipulation! And I hope I was the only victim.

So, as max so graciously offered. Pick. Choose a side and stick to it. You're with me or max. Not both. As soon as I receive confirmation that you have picked her side you will be blocked. I'm sorry it had to come to this. But at least I know what kind of person you are if you chose her side. And I'd rather not associate with people like that.

To the mutual who picked her after I showed you the evidence and explained what happened. I have assumed you and her are one and the same. And I do regret wasting my time with you. But, I don't hate you. Because I don't know you enough to hate you. And since you are a minor of unspecified age- I hope you didn't you didn't fall victim to Max's manipulation. You most likely won't see this, but thank you anyways. Enjoy your life.

And to Max, I would like you to know that I don't think about you. It is a shame that you turned out this way. And all the hours we- I spent writing our collabs went to waste. But I'm not lonely unlike you. I'm sorry you felt the need to go as far as asking yourself stuff anonymously about me- I know it was you too because you're the only one who calls me "void", yikes.. The days and nights we spent together were fun while they lasted, but only when I block out the discomfort I felt. I would wish you the best, but I truly don't care anymore. Have the life you deserve- "bestie"

This still doesn't mean I wish for you go spread hate to her. Yes I do believe max is a bad person and your feelings on the matter are justified. But it is wrong to encourage the spread of hate. It is wrong to tell your fanbase to attack someone you don't like. And my blog is ment to be silly, goofy, and wacky with the small chance of seriousness. Take this as a warning.

(Also I don't mind people sending themselves asks! I just thought it was weird that it was about me 😅)

I have been in a really bad head space so I'm trying not to put to much pressure on myself to post as much or do art. I'll post when I'm able to tho! Love u guys!

I swear I'm forgetting something in her design but I don't know what 😤

Did I ever post her death? I made art for her and vins death but idk if I posted it. I remember showing max 🤔

It's so hard to post nowwwww 😤 I hate this new app sm. I miss Ibis ☹🥺😥

it's mega shit tho 😒 it takes so long just to get the line art done! But look I lined and colored strawberry void! He's a cutie frfr 🥰 (I forgot his wings don't mind that 😗)

big bummer but look at this toad:) and void art I made! I need new lining pens and markers so it's just pencil rn but it's still cute! It's spring themed too! Or late valentine's post. Whatever you prefer 🤷🏽‍♀️ my camera quality is gonna suck ass too 😭