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Is it only me or do i get disgusted of deeper cuts and only like to see small steryos and baby cvts they are the best and every time i see someone doing cvts so deep i wonder how can they do such a thing

I was clean for a good while and then i felt that i was not sad and i was like why i want to be sad all the time bec if i am not sad all the time i am not valid and then i relapsed and it felt good

Now what's on your nasty old mind : I wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die

I really want to dìe i want to dìe

I lost my fvcking bl@de i am so sad and depre$$ed i hat it i wanna kms i am literally outside and i don't have any other thing to sh with

" What happened why do you sh where is my little girl, i can't see her in you any more" oh they don't realise that that girl went stone cold crazy

I really am afraid when i get help and go to a professional and after i got clean and then i don't get diagnosed bec i have nothing which is clearly not the case but its still a fear that eats my soul