i’d like to think that if i have any purpose at all in this world other than killing myself it’s opening other people’s eyes too before i go. i think maybe more people need to understand that trannies like me don’t deserve to exist there’s a reason they used to just kill us lmao the world would probably be better if they still did. so yeah i guess im doing something sort of good, and no im not going to delude myself into thinking i have any right to be happy sorryyyyy

i’ve already tried transitioning all it does is disgust everyone around me nothing will change what i really am

if i had to put it to one main thing it would be that i was fairly young when they noticed my feminine tendencies and started shutting them down. the shame was kind of all i knew and i never questioned the fact that it was my place. there were moments as a teenager that i tried to build up some real sense of self and reject what they had made me feel about myself but i always failed to. i always came back to my senses i guess. so i don’t know if that’s really of any help to you sorry

for me it was my parents they don’t think trannies should exist so when i told them they just refused to accept it. which is understandable, i can’t imagine how it must feel for your own child to turn out to be something that doesn’t deserve to exist. they destroyed me and tbh i’m thankful for it, im glad i know what i have to do and im grateful that there are people like you and like them that are actually honest abt it. thank you for your ask and i genuinely appreciate the encouragement to kms having people pushing me towards it really helps and i hope to actually succeed in one of my attempts one day